Luke POV
To say Noah doesn't like me is cruel and unusual punishment. I know that deep inside he does like me it's just, he cant seem to make up his mind. I know that I shouldn't be pressuring him into anything but I cant help it. I cant help it that he just happens to have feelings for both me and Maddie. I want him more than anything but I'm kinda getting sick of all of his games. "Noah will come around but on his own time," My mom told me. I know that is true it's just I stand him doing this to me or to Maddie.
Maddie has helped me in so many ways and this is how I repay her .Carrying on this thing with her boyfriend and not telling her about it. I really shouldn't have listened to Noah I should've just told her and this would all be avoided. I probably wouldn't have to be worrying about weather Maddie and I would still be friends.
I don't believe that I let Noah kiss me. I should have told him to stop but that would have never worked. I wanted it to happen more than anything and when it did I was speechless and stupid to think that he would be happy about it.
Ever since I saw Noah I knew that he was going to be trouble. Well I was so right. I don't know why I always seem to fall for the wrong kind of guys. Its just going to get kinda old after awhile and I'm never going to find the one person that I am suppose to be with. I thought that Noah was it .I was wrong like always.
So I think that I came up with something that will help all of us. Tomorrow when I go back to work I will make it clear to Noah that I cant have anything to do with him. This is going to be hard but it has to be done.
Maddie in a lot of ways is the luckiest girl in the world. She gets to be happy with Noah . She doesn't have to worry about him not being emotionally not there anymore . I wish Noah the best of luck with Maddie and I really do hope that his life will get better without me in it.
The only problem that I see with my plan is work. Its pretty hard to ignore someone when you work so close to them. After tomorrow Noah wont have to think about me again.
Its good for me and for Noah he wont have to worry about Maddie getting even more suspicious and if I know Noah that well he wouldn't want Maddie getting suspicious about me and him.
He loves me I know it no one can tell me differntly,but it hurts so much when he just ignores me like I'm nothing to him. I know for a fact that I am something.
So that's what I'm going to do ,go into work and try to get him alone and tell him. That will be the most difficult thing I will ever have to do.
The Next Morning As I walk toward the entrance of Woak I took a deep breath and braced myself for what was to come. I stopped a moment gathering what I was going to say. Then I started to walk towards the building slowly. When I walked in I was greeted with tons of "Hellos" and "how are yous." I walked to my work area and sat down. When I did Noah and Maddie walked in giggling. For a second I forgot what I was going to do. But I remembered it as soon as Maddie sat down in front of me.
"Luke?" Maddie said trying to get my attention.
"Y-Yeah? Um... Sorry. What did you want?" I said snapping back to reality.
"We wanted to know if you wanted to hang out after work," She said.
"Um.. I'm so sorry but I a cant," I told her trying not to give off any nervous vibes.
"Why not?" Noah asked looking at him.
"I made other plans," I said looking down at the desk in front of me.
"Come on Luke," Maddie said.
"I cant tonight. Maybe another time." I told her.
"OK." Maddie said while trying to stand up.
"Sorry. I really am."
"Its OK." She said smiling.
All I could do is smile weakly.
"So I should be going. I have class in like 10 minutes." Maddie told them.
"OK. See you later." I said and went back to staring at the desk in front of me .
Maddie kissed Noah and left.
"Are you OK?" Noah asked me.
I looked up.
"Umm... I..I need to talk to you," I said as my voice cracked.
"OK??" He said in a confused type tone.
"Um..This is the hardest thing I will ever have to do and believe me I'm only doing this for you. I hurts me so much that it has come to this."
"Luke what are you trying to say?" He asked me as he touch my arm.
"I...I..."
"Come on out with it." As he removed his hand from my shoulder.
I took a deep breath and looked down.
"Noah.. Uh... When I first met you I really didn't like you that much. But then we touched and then I knew that I was in big trouble because I was falling in love with you. I love you Noah but I cant have you doing this to me anymore so I'mm going to ask you to stay as far away from me as possible. I'm going to move on with my life and let you and Maddie have your story book happy ending. I wish that we could be friends because I seriously don't want to lose you but I don't think that either of us could handle it. So I'm going to say goodbye."
I couldn't help crying. It pains me so much that I had to do this. I turned to leave.
"You don't think that I could handle being your friend?"
I wiped my tears away and then turned around to face him.
"I don't think that I could handle it. Noah I'm giving you what you wanted. You want to be with Maddie so I telling you that its OK. But I cant be your friend as long as your with her. It will just remind me of what I am missing and I don't want to remember something that could have been a great thing. So yeah.. Bye Noah. "
I started to walk away. But I felt something tight grasping my arm. I turned around.
"What?" I said.
He said nothing.
"Noah what do you want?"
He didn't answer.
"OK. I have to go." I said turning away again.
But once again my arm wasn't coming with me. I turned around once again but this time before I could ask him what he wanted he kissed he. He really really kissed me like he meant it. I cant believe this. He's kissing me.