I wrote this story before I started Circles; I actually got the idea of writing Circles from this. I thought I shouldn't post this anymore since I started Circles, but I was looking through my documents and thought it would have been a waist if I didn't post this since I already had like six chapters written. This might be a little similar to Circles, but it's actually sweeter. I don't plan this to be a REALLY long story, not a lot of problems in it either. I just figured I might as well post this.
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Flash Back:
"Shar, you know I love you. I always will…but—" Troy paused holding her hand firmly.
"What are you trying to say?" Sharpay asked pulling her hand away from him.
"I think we've drifted apart—I don't see us anymore. I think we need a break—time to move on." He took deep breath.
Tears began to form around Sharpay's eyes as she looked at Troy.
"We're not drifting apart," She cried.
"Don't cry," Troy wiped her eyes gently.
"What are you saying?" She asked letting more tears stream down her face.
"We are drifting apart. You're always mad at me. You refuse to let me kiss you or hug you or even touch you. You have been for the past few weeks," Troy explained.
"No—it's not because of you! I wasn't feeling well. I haven't been feeling well lately. But I went to the doctor's today and Troy—"
"We just need a break from each other," He cut her off.
"Didn't you say you wanted a family?" She cried.
"I did—but now isn't the right time…we just need to move on." He stated as calmly as he could.
"So you want a divorce?" Sharpay asked wiping her eyes.
"No. No. No. We just need to separate. That's all. I'll come back. I will," Troy said giving her a kiss on the forehead.
He grabbed his two-suit case and took one last look at his wife.
"I love you," He said before closing the door behind him.
Sharpay felt herself collapse onto the couch crying endlessly. She couldn't believe this was happening. She really couldn't.
End Of Flash Back
Sharpay sat in front of her computer reviewing her work. It was one of those days again, where she stayed up late on Friday night to finish some unfinished work for the week. She hated doing it since it made her grumpy the next day from not getting enough sleep, but she hated spending all day Saturday working in front of the computer more, when she could be doing something else—besides work. It seemed like that was all she ever did now just work, work, and work. She really missed the days when she got to stay home and relax—not having to worry about working or doing anything. But those days were over and she had her own responsibilities to worry about. She had bills to pay, a daughter to raise, and rent to pay. She wished she never moved out of her house, but it was too much to handle. It brought back too many memories she was trying to clear up. It was definitely a huge mistake, but she couldn't live in that huge house, it didn't just belong to her. It belonged to Troy too.
The apartment wasn't so bad. It was good enough for two people—or three. Sharpay had forced herself to move on in life and start over. She decided she couldn't live life like that anymore. It was time to forget the past. She had to move on. She tried as hard as she could but it never worked. Her heart still belonged to Troy in many ways—even though it had been almost three years since she last saw him.
She had times when she wished she could run to Troy and feel safe around his arms again. But those days were long gone. It was almost impossible for Sharpay to take in that he was really gone. He was never going to come back for her—never. The first year of not hearing from him made her realize he didn't love her anymore. He didn't care anymore. Life with Troy was history. She wanted him to come back so he could see his daughter. But he never did and she gave up. There was no reason to keep on waiting anymore. He wasn't coming back. What bother her most was that her heart was so empty without him. No one couldn't replace him, not one bit. Her love for Troy was strong and special, she knew she could never feel about someone like the way she felt bout him. Knowing that Troy had no idea he has a daughter was really painful. She was so upset about that. The day she found they were going to have a baby was the day he thought they needed to separate.
"Idiot." She spoke not taking her eyes off the glowing computer.
It made her feel horrible that Troy didn't even bother to ask her what was going on. She knew that he could have thought about it. They did plan on starting a family—and yet it never crossed his mind to ask. Now it was two years after Madeline Emma Bolton was born. Yet she never met her father and her father still has no idea she existed.
"I give up on you. I give up Troy," Thos words escaped her lips softly as she took a sip of her coffee cup trying to stay awake.
It was almost midnight and her eyes were already tired. She wasn't sure how long she would last, but she had to last for as long as she could. The longer she stayed up the less work she had for the following day. That's just the way it went. She didn't like it, but she really wanted to spend Saturday with her daughter. She always felt so bad that during the week she had to send her off to daycare—not how she wanted things to go. She wanted to be a stay at home mom until Madeline was at least in first grade, but she had to work. She needed the money to feed them. It was a hard life and Sharpay tried not to show it. She tried to make it look simple. She refused to get help from her brother or her friend. She didn't want their help. They couldn't help her in anyways, even if they tried.
"I'll review this and I'm done." Sharpay murmured to herself eyeing the computer.
"Mommy…" A soft whisper called from across the room.
Sharpay turned around to see her daughter standing by the doorway with a teddy bear in hand looking sleepy.
"What are you doing still up?" She asked watching her daughter walk closer towards her.
"No sleepy," Madeline mumbled sitting on Sharpay's lap.
Sharpay threw on a sad look kissing her daughter's forehead. Madeline's light blonde hair was all over her face; it looked like she'd been crying as her crystal blue eyes formed sparkles of water around.
"You okay?" Sharpay asked her giving her another kiss.
Madeline nodded and buried her head underneath Sharpay's neck. Sharpay just sighed and saved her files. She was done for the night. She finally finished her work and she wanted some rest. Madeline looked up to meet her mom's eyes, which made Sharpay feel sad. It bothered her that each time she looked deep into her daughter's eyes they reminded her of Troy's all the time. It made her miss Troy even more but she learned to deal with it. She didn't want Madeline to wonder why she started to tear up when she looked into her eyes. She wouldn't be able to explain it.
"It's getting late," Sharpay, whispered into Madeline's ears as she began to turn the computer off.
"No sleepy," Madeline said sounding like she was about to cry.
"Well, what do you want me to do?" Sharpay asked pulling Madeline for a hug as she started to get up.
Madeline let out a quick shrug and looked at her mom. Sharpay couldn't help but smile. At least there was a part of Troy that stayed.
"You want to sleep here tonight?" She asked with a smile carrying Madeline towards her neatly made bed.
Madeline let out a very soft yawn and made herself comfy on the bed while hugging her teddy bear closer to her. Sharpay turned off the lights and crawled under the covers pulling Madeline close to her.
"Night honey." She whispered kissing Madeline's head.
"Night Night." Madeline replied hugging her mom.
Sharpay felt Madeline fall asleep while she lay in bed still wide-awake. She hated lying there wondering when she was going to fall asleep, or if she was ever going to fall asleep. She was tired but she had the hardest time trying to get some rest at night. It bugged her when she didn't get enough rest.
"I love you," She whispered one last time to Madeline before closing her eyes on more time to get some rest.