"Aren't you two forgetting about me?"
What happened to my best friend? He's too far gone, with stupid Kairi hanging around our island that we discovered way before she came along. What happened to the starry nights we would spend on the beach watching the sky when we were little? He smiled for me. Now he smiles for her. They don't care about Riku anymore, just each other. I saw that paopu in the Secret Place. I'm the third wheel now aren't I?
"So, I'm the only one working on the raft."
So, I could get as far away from here as possible. No-one knows how difficult it is to have to share the paopu tree that you and your best friend spent many suns just talking, and sometimes, in silence.
"Kairi's coming with us."
No she's not. I saw the shadows get her, and I wasn't all that sad about it. Good riddance, one part of me said. Sora's going to be crushed when he finds out, another said. I was hoping that he would take my hand, but he hesitated. Why? It's her isn't it? I don't mean as much to him anymore, do I? I have no place in his heart. He won't even think of me when he goes to search for her. When I get pulled through the darkness, he can't see the tear leaking from one of my eyes. I've never cried—the emotion is so alien to me; I can't see straight as I fall, his face disappearing into oblivion. The tear is gone, but the emotion is still there. It's eating away at my soul, like I've made a huge mistake. Have I?
"Don't worry Kairi, you'll be safe with me."
I laughed bitterly. She won't be safe, I reek of darkness. Maybe that was a mistake. I glance back at her still form, calm as if she were merely sleeping. My eyes flick over to the orb where Sora has reached Wonderland. I see that girl—Alice. I whisper sweet lies to Kairi. She doesn't need to know what he feels, and I hate her in advance if she does. She's been stringing him along. I know that lustful look she gave me that one day, she craves cool, collected, and sexy Riku. That Riku died when his best friend didn't take his hand. That Riku died in the dark. That Riku never existed. Who is Riku?
"Pfft, you were just the delivery boy."
Breaking someone isn't as fun as it may seem. Their lifeless eyes, the lips moving with no sound, and most of all, those tears which were still alien to me. His new friends followed me, watching me twitch violently. The darkness seeped out of me, and changed me. Into "Dark Mode". Fuck that, I'm not a robot. But… I never feel much emotion… so am I… in some way?
"Oh yeah, what good has that weak little thing ever done for you?"
Hearts are so weak. Mine is gone. I don't have one, he took it.
"Well, we'll just see about that!"
Trying to kill someone is indescribable. I felt so mixed up, like a Rubix cube. We sparred like old times, and he beat me for once. I ran, with those alien tears threatening to leak out. No, I got away in time. They fell the other way, like they had been falling all my life. Dripping onto my heart, squeezing it painfully. Its not only girls who can feel that way. I run further, not stopping even when I feel a knife in my side. Not literally, I was out of breath. Ansem, he offered me a way out. I took the way out, but that was a mistake. Why not turn around and apologize. Because, my conscience tells me, you tried to kill him and not even he could forgive you for that.
"What should I do?"