Chapter One: Ray Penber

A person that uses the death note can neither go to Heaven or Hell. Those were the words spoken to me by the Shinigami, Ryuk. So where do you go? You don't go anywhere. You're suck in a never ending nightmare. A nightmare that you can't wake from. Every one else has their way of torture. Mine? I relive the death of the ones I've killed. Heart attack. Burning to death. Car hitting you. Death by Shinigami writing your name in the death note. Day in, day out, the same deaths on permanent repeat . It's all so ridiculous. This place is... Rotten. I didn't believe the death note at fist, but... My ignorance led me to this nightmare. I don't regret what I have done. I did society a favor by killing all of those people. The criminals. Even the ones that got in my way, Ray Pember, Naomi Misora, Mello, Takada, and... L. I can't get a second chance to rid the world of evil. I'm gone. Dead. Ryuk wasn't joking, he wrote my name the Death Note. He killed me.

I watch as I walk into my house. I watch from Ray Pember's eyes. I see what he saw. I hear his thoughts. He loved Naomi with all his heart. He would die for her. He did die. But did he die for her? He was scared when I told him that I was Kira. He didn't know that he would die that day. I hear his thoughts before he dies: I was useless to this investigation. I did nothing. I died. Now she's all alone. Naomi... I love you..." Then death. I can also feel the pain. It feels like my heart is being squeezed and crushed. I felt so small and I couldn't do anything to help it.

He died thinking of Naomi Misora. How tragic and pathetic.

As soon as it happened I'm whooshed into a dark and dreary land. I look at the bones on the ground and see how the sky is dark and grey. I hear a rusty but yet familiar laugh coming from behind me. I spin around.

"Heh. Look who's here," said Ruyk jumping down from the rock that he made his perch. "Enjoying your punishment?" he laughs.

I don't respond.

"You know Light... I was entertained by you for a while, but that doesn't mean I thought what you did was okay. I mean, I didn't care really. But..."

"You have sympathy for humans then?" I ask.

"No." Was all he said.

"Then why did you say-"

"It's not what I think. It's what you think. Some where, at sometime, you knew it wasn't okay to kill your own kind. Now look at you. You're a mess. You don't know where to turn or who to turn to. Every one that once cared for you is long gone."

"How long has it been?" I ask.

"In the human world? 200 years."

Everything goes black. I feel cold and stiff. It feels like all the blood in my body is being sucked out along with my life. Then everything goes back to normal.

"What was that?" I asked.

"Every time a human like you dies from the Death Note you get to feel their death," says Ruyk.

"Like me?"

"Some who uses the Death Note for a good use. Like you."

"So there's more that know the world is evil?"

"That's what the world is now... Evil. Ever since Kira, the world has been a mad place. A war started against Japan. Everyone thought that Japan was going to use the Death Note for attacks against other countries. That's what you led your young sister into. A life filled with fear."

"What happened to Near? Did he die?"

"Yes."

"How?"

"I'll leave that to your imagination. Maybe if you're good... I'll tell you. But for now, live with what you deserve."

End of chapter one. Hope you liked it. :)