Erm. I know, I know, I'm supposed to be working on my Jay x Cinder story. I haven't gotten that lazy, don't worry... but I'm running out of ideas. It'll be up in a couple days, I swear! Until then, read this little oneshot about Goldenflower. I often wondered how she felt after Tigerclaw was exiled, but one of the Erins did say that she truly loved him... so here you are!
I stared around the Clan in disbelief as Fireheart revealed Tigerclaw's lies to us all. The muscular tabby I had once called my mate shot us all looks of pure hatred and disgust. His lips drew back in a snarl as our noble leader condemned him to the painful life as rogue, to live outside of Clan boundaries. I flinched as he hurled insults at us without remorse, and how he admitted to killing Redtail. His amber eyes passed over the entire Clan, and did not linger for even a heartbeat on me. My heart felt broken as I realized he probably didn't love me.
Our two young kits were mewling in the nursery. ThunderClan would never appreciate them, would never trust them, knowing they shared this murderous cats blood. Would the Clan trust me, seeing as I had been his mate?
Tigerclaw's threats to Fireheart bring me back to the scene at hand. He tries to persuade a few cats to join him as a rogue, but to no avail. He hisses at what once was his Clan, and then he's disappeared into the forest. I know for sure it won't be the last we've seen of him.
As I walk back to the nursery to feed my tiny kits, who have not been alive for long, I feel a prickle of unease. Would I have gone with their father if he had offered me?
I think of all he'd done. He'd killed Redtail, threatened to silence Ravenpaw, attempted to kill Bluestar & Fireheart more than once... and he'd also made me fall in love with him.
I close my eyes as my kits begin to feed. The other queens must still be out discussing what has happened, because I don't feel their presence. The only thing that flashes in front of my closed eyes is the muscular tabby that I fell in love with.
"I still love you, Tigerclaw," I murmur, with a glance at our kits, "no matter what, I always will."
So there, a fail of an ending. I need to go work on JayCinder. Merp herp derp.
~Rain