As Piper unpacked her bags at Polly's condo, she couldn't help but feel the guilt weighting over her head. Since she got back from Paris a couple hours ago and told Polly exactly what went down, Polly hasn't been the least bit judgmental about it all. It was probably because she wanted to be a good girlfriend who has her back in times of suckiness. However, Piper just really wanted someone to yell at her and tell her what a big mistake she made but that wasn't happening and it just made her feel so much more stupid and heartless.

Finally sighing, she threw the folded piece of clothing on her hand on the bed as she sat down. Polly who had been watching by the door finally walked in and handed Piper of cup of latte.

"It's killing you inside, isn't it?" She stated the obvious.

Piper released an uncomfortable gasp. "Yeah. Kinda." She replied.

Leaving Alex isn't exactly something she wants to celebrate at the moment. (Not that she's saying any breakup should be celebrated for the matter). But it just sucks though and she already missed being Alex Vause's girlfriend. After all, they were been together for three strong years and to just throw it away like that all because she didn't want to pass security with a bag for her at a stupid airport was totally ridiculous.

"You want my shrink-y or best friend opinion?" Polly asked.

Piper shrugged. "Shrink-y?"

Polly smirked. "For once they're the same." She said.

Piper managed to muster a chuckle. "That's a first."

"Look, I think what you did was fucked up." Polly said truthfully. "I mean, we both know that Alex Vause isn't my favorite person in the world no matter how hot you are for her or how rich and vibrant she is but this time I have to be on her side."

"Ah," Piper groaned. "You're making this harder than it already is."

"What? I'm just saying. The girl's mother died for God's sakes Piper!" Polly reasoned. "Whatever reason you guys broke up shouldn't get in the way of you being a friend to her and be there for her while she's going through a devastating time like this."

Piper realized that she made a mistake and it made it even more difficult to get Alex's broken face out of her head as she walked out on her in Paris.

It's freaking ironic how it went. Paris is supposed to be the land of love and whatnot. Yet she ended an amazing ride of three years with Alex over some stupid immature fight right around the time she learned that her almost-mother-in-law had passed away. What kind of person is she?

"I'm just saying." Polly continued, snapping Piper out of her thinking haze. "It's fucked up that you walked out on her like that."

Polly wasn't the person whose judgment can be clouded. She tells it like it is. Sure she's not exactly best buddies with Alex Vause, nor will she ever be, but she knew when shit was wrong and had to call bullshit on it. Piper's been her best friend for as long as she can remember and she's seen Piper at her worse and at her best. For the past three years, ever since Piper met Alex Vause, she's been jealous of the relationship they have because quite honestly it was beautiful and even the blindest person could tell. Maybe their relationship might've ended because they wanted different things at the moment, but Polly wasn't about to let Piper throw away a friendship too.

"What you did to her makes the biggest convict in a state prison look like an amateur. You walked out on her when her mother passed. That's really fucking cold for someone like you, Pipes."

Piper tapped her feet on the floor in a panicky mode as she bit her lips anxiously. "What do you think I should do?" She asked.

"Fix it." Polly said.

"No shit." Piper scoffed sarcastically.

Polly shrugged. Sure she's good at giving advice but it doesn't mean she's good at coming up with the solutions.

It's because most of the time she's not.

"I don't know." Polly ran her fingers through her brown hair. "Call her?"

"She won't answer me." Piper said knowingly.

She knows Alex and if what she did was as bad as "fucked up and cold" as Polly puts it, then she knew that Alex would be holding that grudge against her for the rest of her life.

That'd be way too fucked up but she'd probably deserve it.

"Then I don't know." Polly said. "If I was her I wouldn't either."

Piper shook her head in disapproval of the comment. "Not helping Harper."

"Send her flowers with a long apology card." Polly tried again with a roll of her eyes. She hated it when people called her by her last name so unexpectedly.

That could work but Piper suddenly had something better in mind. If she was going to apologize for being so cruel in Paris, she better had something better than flowers and a card. She better had something fucking brilliant to prove how sorry she truly was.

Alex was never really close to Piper's family but it was the contrary for Piper. She's always been close with Alex's family because unlike her family, Alex's family wasn't always so fucking judgmental.

"I got something better." She winked as she reached for her phone.

With fingers crossed, she dialed Alex's aunt's number hoping for her to answer. Piper was also hoping that if Alex was already home for the funeral, she wouldn't have told her aunt about their breakup. She couldn't deal with the southern woman at the moment.

When she finally picked up at the second ring, Piper felt her breath quicken.

"Hi Ms. Vause. Yes. It's Piper— Alex's girlfriend."

She wasn't even sure she was fit to even call herself that anymore after what she did.

She listened to the woman over the phone with agony in her heart.

"Yeah, Alex told me. I'm very sorry for your loss." Pause. "I was hoping to come down to Louisiana for the funeral. Alex and I had to split up in Paris but I'm sure I can make it on time for the funeral on Friday."

A contented smile crossed her lips as she listened again for the address. It's been a while since she's been up to Louisiana. It's not like she memorized the address on the few times she's been over.

"Please don't tell Alex if I'll be over? Thanks. Once again, I'm sorry for your loss Ms. Vause."

Piper hung up the phone and released a relieved breath. "I guess I'm going to Louisiana."

Polly smiled at her best friend. "I'm proud of you, Pipes."

"Thanks." Piper smiled back sadly. "I just wished I hadn't done it at all now. She begged me stay and come with her but I still left."

It was really getting to Piper when she realized how fucked up her decision was. She doesn't even know how she would feel if the shoe was on the other foot and Alex had abandoned her when her mother passed.

"Can I use your laptop?" She asked.

"Sure."

Polly exited Piper's room only to come back a few minutes later with the laptop and it's charger in her hands.

"There you go." Polly handed her the laptop. "I'm gonna leave you to it. I'll be in the living room if you need me."

With a nod of her head, Piper logged online and tried to find tickets to get to Louisiana as soon as possible.

The tickets were hella expensive, but it wasn't even a problem for Piper at the moment. She would just use Alex's credit card number to pay for any expenses she makes for that trip because well, to be honest, she was still mad at Alex despite her change of heart to go be with her in Louisiana and because she also knew the credit card number in the first place.

"Oh no." Piper mumbled.

Seeing as though it was Wednesday, she couldn't find any tickets available for the next day the latest. If she was going to get to Louisiana on time for the funeral, she'd have to leave New York as soon as possible.

But it was either Friday morning or nothing at all.

So she made a smart choice and booked the ticket anyways because she would really hate to be on the list of people that Alex hates.

The list was already too long enough for one more person.

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