Hi!

I'm BlueCotingaGirl, and this is my first Kuroshitsuji fanfic. Before you start reading, there're some things you should probably know: Firstly, I've only known the series for about five days, so I might have made the characters a bit OOC. And I'm still unclear on the entire plotline since I haven't even finished the entire series yet. Secondly are the warnings for this story, which include some violence, major angst and depression-related themes. Also, I don't own Kuroshitsuji, which really sucks...

Other than that, I hope you enjoy my story!

Ciel looked around, wandering aimlessly in the darkness. The Earl couldn't tell where he was, or which way he was going; there was no choice but to move on forward...

Before long, though, he caught sight of some light shining through a tunnel. He went towards it, ending up in a grassy meadow. Up ahead, he was surprised by what he saw.

"Mother? Father?" Ciel began to run towards his parents, but before he could reach them, something caused him to fall backwards. Confused, he stood and tried to walk further, but something just wouldn't let him...

"Wha-" Before he could even finish that first word, it grew uncomfortably hot. Ciel looked up and gasped as his entire world went up in flames. "NO! DON'T LEAVE ME!"

"Is something wrong, Ciel?" A voice behind him said, causing him to look back in fear; it was his father, wearing his usual smile. Ciel wanted to answer, but found himself falling through a dark void all of a sudden...

"Sebastian! H-help me!" He cried, but his freefall continued with no one to catch him...

As a pounding noise on the window interruped the silence of midnight, Ciel shot up in bed, panting heavily. He calmed slightly when he realized that it was all just a terrible nightmare, and that he was safe in his room...for now...

Sighing, he pushed the covers off of himself and went over to the window, where he watched the rain as it fell. It was so cold outside that some of the raindrops froze before they shattered on the ground.

Like my broken heart, thought Ciel. At the moment, he couldn't keep a single tear from slipping out of the corner of his eye, which he wiped away in frustration. As more tears began to fall, he decided to give in to his emotions.

As sullen as he was, he was also relieved to know that he was all alone, and that no one would have to see him like this. The last thing he needed was for someone to be onto him 24/7.

Slowly regaining control of his sanity, Ciel once again brushed the warm tears from his face. With nothing else to do, he decided to try and fall asleep again, only to find himself unable to do so. After several minutes of staring at the ceiling, he reached for a fountain pen on his nightstand and furiously threw it at the door.

"Stupid nightmares..." He muttered through clenched teeth. He reached for a strand of his midnight blue hair and began to twirl it around. While it eased him considerably, he couldn't stop thoughts of the near future from taking over his mind.

"Bocchan? Are you all right in there?" Ciel froze at the sound of the voice, seemingly hypnotized. He was still staring at the door when Sebastian turned the handle and stepped in, curious at what was going on. "I heard banging on the door. Is something bothering you?"

Ciel thought of saying, It's my nightmares, Sebastian. They've been nagging me the entire night and I don't even know if I want to step out of the door for the next few days!

"I'm fine." Was the reply he gave. "Now that I've said something, you may leave."

"Really."

"Sebastian, I want to be alone, so please get out of my sight. That's an order."

"Yes, my lord." Sebastian got up to go, but not before eyeing his master suspiciously and closing the door behind him.

As soon as he was sure Sebastian was out of earshot, he said, "No, Sebastian, I'm clearly not okay...!" He threw himself back onto his bed, just wanting this night to be over and done with.

But in the current gloom of the atmosphere, tomorrow wasn't coming that quickly.

That's about it for the first chapter. Since I've already got material down for the second chapter, that should be posted really soon after the first.

In the meantime, reviews are greatly appreciated, so I'd be happy if you leave some ^^

-BlueCotingaGirl