A/N: So here we are with another new story. This is based on true events in my life. This is my first and probably only story that will be written in first person. In this story Logan is me and Kendall is this guy I've known since kindergarten. I also wanted to thank two people and that is Ieeerr and Kendall's Logiebear. They have both helped me out with inspiration for this story and also with emotional support. I don't think that I would have written or posted this without them.

After All That We've Been Through

Chapter One: The Beginning of the Hurt

"Logan" I heard a familiar voice say on the other end of the line. I knew that something good must have happened because he sounded extremely happy.

"What is it Kendall?" I asked hoping for the best. With Kendall you really don't know what to expect. The last time I got a call from him he was states away from where he was supposed to be. I told him that he needed to go back before he got his ass in trouble but Kendall was the type of boy who laughed in the face of trouble and didn't realize how badly he screwed up until the trouble he caused swallowed him whole. I was always there for him, even though I regretted it sometimes. I am his best friend, I needed to comfort him and give him the advice to get the guy he was fascinated with at the moment. God knew that those relationships wouldn't last long and he would be back together with him. It was because of Kendall that I am not allowed to say his name. I also hate the person secretly but only my brother knew that.

"Guess where I am standing right now." Once again, with Kendall this could be anything.

"I don't know."

"Uh uh, you got to guess something before I tell you."

"Iowa" that was where I lived. I had been hoping for months that he would return to Iowa

"Good guess but no. I am standing outside base" I thought about what he had just said before it clicked in my mind.

"Are you finally out?"

"Yep. Who knew that going AWOL a second time would finally lead to me getting out of the army?" He sounded so proud of himself and yet I was conflicted. I was surprised that he didn't get in trouble, and I was so happy that he would finally be coming back home.

"That's great! So when are you going to be back home?"

"You see, I'm actually not coming home right away. I'm going to Wisconsin with Dak" My heart stopped beating. Of course he would want to be with Dak, they were engaged after all.

"Oh well, I hope I can see you sometime soon." Tears were not built up in my eyes and I tried not to sound sad while talking to him. I have become very skilled in this department after all that we've been through.

-After All That We've Been Through-

Everything about Kendall and mainly happened during this latest year, but that's not the beginning. It started way back in sophomore year, three years ago. I've known him for longer, much longer. Since kindergarten to be exact but it's mattered until then. We had a few classes together and he had a class with my brother and we connected over the love of one thing, and that was helping the mentally handicapped that were at our high school. Through that year and until junior year we were still as strong of friends as ever. He wasn't my best friend and I wasn't his but I couldn't help but develop quite a crush on my blond friend. He was truly amazing. He was funny yet sweet, tall with slight muscle (the way I like it) and a laid back attitude like he never cared but deep down you knew he did. That was what made him special and that was caused me to like him in the first place.

I was going to tell him that I like him until I found out that he was back in a relationship with him. His name was Jett and he was the devil, at least in my eyes. I could stand him I really could but I would always hate him for having Kendall. I was happy for Kendall though, he found somebody that made him happy.

Their relationship didn't last long and I was so happy about that. Again, I was working up the courage to tell him how I feel when one day my best friend, Carlos Garcia came up to me and told me something that made me try to forget about Kendall a second time.

"Hey Logie" Carlos said looking at me with sad eyes.

"What's wrong buddy?"

"I told Kendall how I felt about him last night." I felt sick. I never even knew that Carlos had feelings for Kendall. I felt like an awful friend and like a coward for not being able to tell Kendall how I felt sooner.

"Oh, what did he say?"

"He turned me down." Carlos was sad I knew it but I would be too. I was now glad that I never admitting my feelings. I also felt really badly for Carlos, I knew that he must be really heartbroken.

"Ah, I'm sorry Carlos. You'll find someone else though" I knew that might not make the Latino feel any better but I had to find some way to cheer him up. I hated not being able to cheer him up and he would get depressed and just sit there sighing over and over again.

"I know, and he was really nice about it."

"Well at least he wasn't a jerk about it."

"Yeah, I guess." I was about to reply when the bell rang signaling that lunch was over.

That was all that Carlos and I talked about that happening. He didn't want to talk about it afterwards and I didn't want to hear how my best friend and I liked the same guy and this shy guy who you could hardly hear half of the time was man enough to tell him his feelings first. That thought made me repress my feelings about him once again. Then not even a month later he was back together with Jett and I felt like I wanted to die.

It was crazy, everything I felt was just over one boy in high school. Most high school sweethearts never last so why was I trying so hard now? There were also other guys at our school who might be interested in me, but now that I think about it who would be interested in little geeky Logan. The worst part about the whole situation is that neither Carlos nor Kendall knew that they hurt me but that was how I was going to leave it. I am a strong person and I don't need to show my hurt and possibly lose two of the best people in my life. I never would have guessed that from junior year of high school to this very day that I would have the same philosophy: Kendall never need to know how much he has hurt me.

A/N: So that is the first chapter. Like I said, this story is based on my life and the true happenings that it has had with a guy. I also know that this chapter is short but there will be more in the future. So, if you want to know the rest of the tale review and let me know if you think that I should continue this story. Also, if you are confused about anything send me a message and I'll clarify things. Review!