Disclaimer: I do not and will not (unless there is some strange and wonderful miracle) ever own Twilight. Flames are accepted and please review! But, if you are going to completely destroy my story, please put it in a private message. Song fic. Suicide.
You left me in the middle of the woods with an ache in my chest. I couldn't control my sobbing as I searched through the woods fruitlessly. You wouldn't stay, not for a discarded plaything.
I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
I wondered who you would torture next, and how many humans you had treated like this. Wrapping both arms around my gapping heart, I screamed wordlessly into the shadows. I screamed for all the pain you were causing me.
'come back' I wished so despretly that you would. My distraught mind brought up images of us cuddling, hugging, kissing. It was too much, I couldn't breathe with all the memories and my mind went black.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I woke up to a dark room and threw myself out of the purple comfortor to the window. The closed window. You were not here; it wasn't a dream, and I had to live without you.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I don't think I can. NO, I won't!
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
Heart pounding in my ears, I ran to my bathroom. I couldn't seem to find the object of my desires fast enough.
These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
There it was. The shiny metal I had only one use of tonight. I would end all of this pain and suffering to be in a place, where there was no pain.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
My hand shook as I took a single blade from the razor. I pressed down on the skin at the crook of my elbow, but did not move the blade. Then, I thought of your crooked smile, your beautiful topaz eyes, and the way your skin sparkeled in the sunlight, and my resolve did not waver.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along
I took the blade from my elbow to my wrist, I would end this very quickly. Deep, dark red slashes instantaneously appeared on the network of veins and arteries. I repeated the movements on the other side.
My vision was getting slightly blurry as I thought of what Charlie would think. I'm sorry that he would be in pain, but I couldn't live through this.
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me
Edward,
I love you. Never will my heart ever stop. You are the reason Forks became such a wonderful place to be. But, without you here, I don't see why I should go on living. Have the best life and I will watch over you and your family wherever I go next.
A life without you is the worst hell I can imagine.
Yours always,
Bella
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