Tears streamed down from my face and neck,
Containing the dark sins I've done
Each one more deadly than the last
And blocking the everlasting sun
I now wonder why I've done such things
That caused people pain and suffering,
In which tears would fall from their eyes,
Like the ones that were falling from mine.
Maybe it was from the abuse of my mom
Who kept saying I was a worthless girl,
Or from the actions of the dangerous gang,
Who "taught" me how to survive in the world.
But it doesn't matter where I might have got it
I still take all the blame
For all the holdups, hostages, and heists
That would make people think I was insane.
I now sit with my knees to my chest
In a dark alley where people rarely go
To hide my face from other people
Who have seen me at my low.
What kind of person can love me now?
For making the most despicable decisions
Who can show me mercy?
For harming people as if they were trash.
And in my darkest hour,
Where I felt I could live no more,
I heard a voice that was filled
With kindness, compassion, and love.
"Why are you crying dear child?"
Said the voice that was talking to me.
I lifted up my tearstained face to see
The most handsome man I've ever seen
In front of me was a man of
Beauty beyond description
With a smile of kindness on his face
And wearing a suit of pure brightness
His appearance and beauty shocked me
And I was speechless for a moment
Then I was able to finally tell him
Why I was so miserable
I told him about the things that I did
That I now am so ashamed of
And that I know long to be forgiven
In a world that gives no forgiveness
The man merely smiled at me
And said that I have a chance
When I asked who can give me that
He showed me his spike-driven hands
I realized who he was and started to cry
Out of shame and out of sadness
That this man who was standing in front of me
Died for sinners and criminals like me
He placed his gentle hands
On my violently shaking shoulders
And I reluctantly looked at that face
Of holiness and grace
He placed his hand upon my forehead
And said a prayer of mercy
Which lifted the heavy burden
That was destroying my one and only heart
After he took his hand off my forehead,
He vanished as if He wasn't there
But I now realize who he was
He was Jesus, the Son of Heaven