12 years ago
The smell was intense, she knew that she will never forget that smell, and that smell will always remind her of this day, the day she lost everything, the day she ran out on her mother, the day she lost the one person who ever loved her and kept her safe.
"RUN!" her mother pushed her towards the door, "RUN Light, Run, I will be right behind you."
Her mother lied, she wasn't there, and she will never be there.
"Baby everything will be just fine, it's probably the neighbors goofing around," her mother brushed her bangs aside and kissed her forehead.
She still remember the soft smile her mom gave her, how perfect her mom looked, how her green eyes glowed and showed warmth and love, she knew she was safe when she was with her mother.
She stood staring at the burning house, the house she grew up in, the house that her mother died in, the screams of pain still echoed in her head. She wanted to look away, but she couldn't, it was as if cruel hands kept her face from turning and her eyes from closing.
The firefighters kept trying to put the fire down, one of them even gave her a sympathetic look but didn't do anything, as if he knew there is nothing that he could do to help her. She was lost, and that fact was unchangeable.
She closed her eyes and pretend that her mother is coming, that she is about to run out that door and take her in her arms, and kiss her face and probably embarrass her like those times before when she kissed her in front of everyone in her school. She wanted her mom back, and there was nothing she can do to do so, and that realization broke her.
"Come on, sweetie, let's take you somewhere safe," she knew that was not true, she knew that was a lie but she didn't argue with the medic as she pulled her away from the scene.
That was the last day she ever saw the house. That was the last day she will ever see her mom. That was the last day of her innocence. Everything that's coming next will never be ok.