Sitting opposite Nikki one evening in the pub for a drink. Even though we'd been on a few dates already I still don't know where to look, I'm blushing slightly tonight might be the night and I'm so nervous I haven't done this dating thing in so long. I had a good feeling about this and I didn't want to screw it up. Lorraine you ok?' Nikki asked softly, tracing her finger over the top of the beer bottle. I was wringing my hands in my lap, my perfectly manicured red nails pinching my milky complexion. 'Yeah….dates make me nervous.' Nikki smiled up at me in a sympathetic manner. 'You?' I quickly added. 'Of course, see I never imagined the beautiful blond benefactor so determined and bossy could be this shy really.' Smirking at me, nudging my ribs. I giggled and played along. 'Not so sure yourself Boston bruiser.' I picked up the red wine sipping it carefully to avoid smudging my lipstick. Nikki herself was plainer with little makeup but she didn't need it, she was stunning. 'Want another?' I gestured to the empty lager glass on the polished wooden table with the black corner sofa we had occupied. I had let the last few drops linger in the glass. 'Sure thanks Lo.' She smiled and I stood ordering another bringing it back. She had left a gap for me, edging closer slowly without freaking me out to much, obviously a hint, and one which I obliged too sitting ever closer feeling her warmth radiating out. We started off talking about the usual; the school, kids, teachers, Nik made me laugh with her impression of Christine. Then silent for a moment the alcohol bringing that slightly awkward tension until Nik giggled tracing my forearm with her hand. We stared into each other's gaze her brilliant blue eyes looking into mine. I carefully reached out in front of me folding a strand of her soft dark hair that ebbed at her cheekbone behind her ear cupping her cheek. Without realising I was almost on top of her, her arm sweeped instantly around my petite waist encasing me into her body protectively. 'Wanna go back to my place?' she slurred slightly intoxicated winking. I wasn't used to Nikki flirting as suggestively as usually we went slowly but I think this was the invitation to go the full way. I quickly ran my palm down the seams of my dress trying to make it less sweaty before gripping Nikki's long slender firm fingers in my own.
The drive I spent trying to calm myself down and sober Nikki slightly, she was able to down a beer or two but I wanted to make sure she was going to consent herself willingly and not just as a drunken matter of cause. The cool breeze felt nice against my pale skin, my hair flying freely as I drove racing down the road in the cherry red Ferrari. Preparing myself I slid my hand from the top of the gearstick to Nikki's thigh, claiming her as my own.
The next thing I know I'm in her bedroom as a fully consenting adult doing something I hadn't done in a while, resisting the urge to throw up and run away when all I wanted really was to caress her body, kiss and hold her all night. She unzips my dress, leaving me in my underwear so I carefully unbutton her shirt so she's in her bra pushing her down roughly so I can clamber on top entangling my legs within hers, biting her lip softly carefully afraid of hurting her at first until she responds more passionately like an invitation to carry on. Now completely naked in this sea of soft sheets rolling over so she's comfortably on top streaming all down my body a mixture of kisses soft and rough and nibbles at my ear, sucking at my pulse. At first I follow her lead afraid to mess up but losing myself to Nikki was unlike my last time; I'd never wanted anyone more ever. Other times without a care in the world, losing myself to any old person, with Nikki I saw a future, but even then she still didn't know the full story I took deep a deep breath as she was touching my breasts waiting for my reaction as I arched my back. Our clothes lay in a heap on the floor as me made sweet love, my tongue exploring the innards of her mouth. She was continually running her hands through my hair contently. I can't move any closer, our lips crashing together, our hearts pounding against our chest in sync. 'Lo, you're beautiful.' She whispers into my ear. I blush slightly mainly from what she said but also the heat. 'Not as stunning as you, not by even half!' 'You don't give yourself enough credit.' She replied kissing my temple. We took it in turns to climax after tingling at the feel of each other's body under our fingertips. The ecstasy and delight and love, passion in her beautiful blue orbs gazing into mine, clawing the bed sheets as I finish what I started. Her deep breaths slowed down, calming as she carried on from where I left off. Once I was moaning her name her tearing my underwear away with her teeth, moving along the line edging closer to a sight for sorry eyes in my opinion, Nikki seemed to take everything in her stride like she did at work, any problems slid past her she worked with the flow. What I was scared of she managed to make into a painless experience that I clearly was enjoying sweating with a wet patch where I'd been lying pinned underneath her. Pushing me over the edge, the electrical impulse rushing through my nervous system, all on edge feeling every touch. I wrap my arms around her toned stomach and waist satisfied and fell asleep.
I awoke to Nikki's rough breathe against my cheek, rubbing her nose in an eskimo kiss against my own. It was a Saturday so a leisurely get up would have been nice, nice to spend time with the woman I loved so intently, enjoying every minute and second to life, until everything came rushing back to me as she made a deep confession. 'Lo…I love you.' I would have loved to reply with 'I love you too.' And to carry on lying there, tight and warm in her embrace, maybe we'd carry off from where we ended last night, calm and serene accepted in society with the one we loved the most. Her confession had caught me off guard and I remembered somewhere I had to be. 'Oh…..shit.'I jumped out of the bed grabbing my clothes frantically. Her eyes saddened slightly looking lost and possibly scared, worried what she'd done wrong to scare me off. 'Lo…everything ok?' she asked confused furrowing her eyebrows and scrunching her nose, she looked so thoughtful and cute when she did that. 'I forgot, I have to be somewhere, sorry.' 'Lo…..' I smiled awkwardly before pulling on my dress all too quickly rushing out the door leaving Nikki lying there in the messed up once crisp sheets all alone.
It's all over too soon and I sat there in the car tears threatening to spill from my overtired eyes, wondering why and how I had got in this mess in the first place. In the ideal world I'd be with Nikki still but as I pull up into the gravel driveway rushing down the path, pulling off my shoes in a haze fumbling for the key in my bag Sonya opens the door looking slightly pissed at me. 'What time do you call this? You said one drink Lorraine, one, you left at like 7:30pm it's now 8:30 am!' 'Son, sorry I was…' 'Well you better be, I can't keep doing this for much longer, you're a mum and you need to start acting like one.' She said sternly before storming down the driveway climbing into her battered car. 'Mummy?'