Chapter 1: My Fate Lies With You
"You want a snack or something?" Punk said as he got up from the bed.
"Gushers, maybe." I said blushing.
"How did I know, miss Sierra Marie?" he said smiling.
I couldn't understand how he could be so perfect. The way his eyes sparkled. The way he smiled. How I could tell how sincere he was when he looked at me. I was standing in the presence of the love of my life.
"So Sierra. I wanted to ask you something."
"Yes?" I said nervously.
"You think I've been doing good right? On RAW and everything."
"Of course" I said shocked. "Why?"
"Well of course I think I've been doing good. I'm me" he half joked.
"But I just wanted to get your opinion. You're.. special to me"
Part of me was happy. But part of me was sad. And I knew I had to say something. This was my only opportunity. "Then why do we keep doing this, Punk?" Phil always seemed too formal.
"You know why" he said sighing.
"Doesn't mean I like it"
"I know. I know it's not fair to you. But my hands are tied. You know how demanding my schedule is. And for whatever reason I'm not ready to quit. I know I should. But I actually give a damn about those kids in NXT. I want them to have a better chance. I care more about their future than I do about getting away from Vince and the suits. And I know it's not fair that you have to suffer. But I don't want to have any attachments. It wouldn't be good for you."
"I understand all that. But here's what you don't get. I already am in love with you. What do you expect? Every time you're off you come visit me. And we kiss and we cuddle. Like any normal couple would. Only it's not the label of a couple. Not to mention we've known each other for 8 years. I lost my virginity to you Punk. I can't just throw all of that away." I said close to tears.
"And I'm not asking you to. I'm just saying wait a little longer. And I know that's not fair. But my hands are tied. I know it doesn't seem like it. But I do consider your feelings. When is the last time we had sex?"
"2 years ago."
"2 years ago. I know how special you are. And I know if we did that now it would only further your feelings. I know you haven't had it since. Right or wrong?" He said sure of himself.
"Right. You know that. You're the only one I've ever slept with. I'm not like that." I said. I knew the facts. And I wasn't going to sugar coat anything to prove a point. He was the only one.
"I know." He said smiling. "And I love you for that. There's a part of me that is in love with you. But another part is in love with professional wrestling. Please understand."
"I do." I said. I did understand. I just didn't like it. If only he didn't have to be so amazing.
"Good" He leaned over and gave me the most passionate kiss of my life. I knew he wanted this. But he couldn't just yet. In that moment it didn't matter. All that mattered was that his lips were on mine.
