I Hope You Had The Time Of Your Life Chapter 1, a twilight fanfic

First a warning, this story deals with suicidal thoughts, underage sex and man on man sex, if none of this is to your liking, I suggest you read no further.

Now…

I came up with this story one afternoon while driving the 40 km through the bush from the nearest major centre to my home. It takes about 30 minutes with beautiful sceneryand leaves plenty of time for contemplation.

Two songs played on the radio insuccession, Greenday's 'Time of your life' followed by Madonna's 'like a prayer' the images that flashed through my mind were the basis for this story. I fleshed them out based on a little heart ache of my own.

I originally had written a completely new character for this story, but I thought it might work better if I used a recognisable person from fandom, so I picked Riley Biers, mainly because he was played in Eclipse by the hot Australian actor Xavier Samuel. I have taken great liberties with his character, basing it instead on a close friend of mine (who I have promised will remain nameless – another reason for adopting Riley)

Everything is cannon (more or less, at least according to the movie 'twilight') up until Edward drives Bella to school. Of course there is a hell of a lot going on behind the scenes that we didn't see in the movie… but I guess we all thought that anyway.

A note of warning: we spell words differently down under, I have used a US English spell check so I hope that clears it up, but if not I apologise and hope it doesn't interrupt the flow of the story.

Of course all characters belong to SM, I've just had fun playing with them. Thanks SM, your boys and girls have got me though some tough times!

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RPOV

I stood talking to the Cullen's; I hadn't completely lost my Australian accent, even though it had been four years since we emigrated to Forks.

I would have said it was a usual morning at Forks High, well usual to everyone but the five vampires and the two students who knew their secret, of which, of course, I was one.

One of said Vampires and one of the said students hadn't yet showed, which was uncharacteristic. Edward was usually very punctual. As for the… Bella, I couldn't care less if I never saw her again, Edward was spending way too much time with her.

Edward hadn't been in my bed for over a week, I knew he was with Bella, but Edward refused to answer my questions… He even lied to me! Said he was hunting, which a few impromptu questions of Emmett flushed out… God bless Emm and his naivety.

She was also the reason Edward bailed on me in Port Angeles. The next day Jessica 'the killer gob' was shooting it off about Edward and Bella having dinner.

As if that wasn't bad enough I'd had to ring Alice and ask her to come and get me… That hurt. But I couldn't let Mum know that Edward had abandoned me in a strange city, she already was weary of the time I spent with him.

Alice didn't mind, well she didn't till I started pumping her for information about where the Edward/Bella thing was headed. She was unusually cryptic which made me even more suspicious.

I can only guess what THEY got up to in OUR meadow… it still hurts that Edward took her there, the place I discovered all those years ago and introduced Edward to just after he and his family arrived in Forks. No I left them to it... I didn't want to see what they did; I really didn't want to know if Edward cried out louder when he fucked her then when he made love to me, whether he enjoyed it more…

The Cullen's and I were almost inseparable… I knew they didn't approve of Bella… FULL STOP! Nor Edwards behaviour. One human knowing their secret was one thing, but we have been through a lot together, and I was Edwards mate, or at least I thought I was. But bum fuddled Bella the albino Mexican or whatever she was, who face planted herself every day, seemingly as a way of life… no that was going too far.

Emmett placed his giant arm around my shoulder in a protective gesture as I talked about my fears of Edward and Bella. It was easy for him to do, I was 5'9" he was 6'1".

Alice rubbed my arm tenderly.

Jasper looked concerned and stood ram rod straight and aloof as usual in public to protect me from any stray impulse he may get with all the passing flesh walking around.

We were actually very close; we shared History together for the last two years; sitting together, doing projects. In the private of the Cullen house, when he only had one human to concentrate on not ripping to pieces, we had great debates on military history, built dioramas of famous battles and generally tooled about as only two history/military nerds could.

I think he was the most cut up about Edwards behaviour… maybe also because he could sense Edwards feelings about Bella and my feelings of desperation. Maybe it was even more than that, but he deeply loved Alice and I loved Edward, so I didn't even want to think about going there; even though his half smile and dimples should be outlawed by the Geneva convention…

I knew he had often used his gift over the last week to stabilise my emotions, for which I was enormously thankful, I don't know how I could have held it together without him… But my emotions were starting to get stronger and even Jasper seemed either unable or unwilling to completely wipe them out.

Rose looked just plain pissed. I had taken especial care from the beginning to treat her like a princess, knowing she was the hardest nut to crack and it paid off… we had become quite close over the years. I guess I won her heart when I asked her, rather than one of the guys, to show me how to service a car. She was a car fiend and made me look like such a dumb ass, but I took it with good grace and the bond was formed.

….

Silence broke out among the usual gaggle of students and unusually the Cullen's also paid attention to the car arriving. Emmett's giant paw slipped from my shoulder. I turned from facing them and involuntarily I'm sure, my mouth fell open. Edward's familiar silver Volvo was pulling up. Edward got out, ran round to the passenger side and opened it to reveal the… Bella.

He had a broad smile on his face that for the first time I wanted to sandpaper off, then he put his arm around Bella… they went public… they were a public item! I felt myself hyperventilating. All the years Edward and I had been a couple but couldn't show any affection in public because it would break the vampire code and now! I watched agog as they walked past me, Edward didn't even seem to notice me. It could have been his dark glasses, but I doubt it... That hurt like a mother fucker!

It took me a few moments to collect myself, and then I made to run after the retreating pair, when Alice stepped into my path.

"Don't." she said…

I looked at her as if to say 'why not?'

"Because it won't change anything and you will be the one that gets hurt." She said, pain etched on her tiny face. Little did I know that she saw with her special senses what was about to happen and she wanted to stop it. That she thought I deserved so much better then what was going to happen. But I was determined and I pushed past Alice saying "We'll see."

I finally caught up with Edward and Bella in the quad, "Hey, Edward!" I called out when I caught up. "What's going on?"

"What does it look like" Edward said tersely.

"I can't believe what it looks like." I Replied… Edward just glowered at me. "I can't believe you've gone public, I can't believe you took HER to the meadow… I can't believe." I was interrupted.

"You watched us?" screeched Bella, god she was irritating! Why Edward didn't gaff tape her gob shut, I don't know… maybe he had to after I left the meadow… or he found an 8 inch object to shove in it... the thought made me nauseous.

"Not for long, I have a week stomach." I retorted as cuttingly as I could. "So how was she? was she worth it…" I said to Edward.

"You're disgusting!" said Edward. The words cut through me like a knife.

"What?" was all I could manage.

"Your thoughts disgust me… you're obsessed with sex. You think everything revolves around it."

"You think we…" Bella was enraged.

"Shut it!" I said dismissing her, she was nothing, I needed to concentrate my verbal attack on Edward, but before I could, Edward came to Bella's aid.

"Don't ever talk to her like that again. In fact don't ever talk to her. You don't deserve to."

"But what about us?" fuck I sounded pathetic and needy.

"What about it… it's over; Bella is part of my life now. She is giving me what you never could." He closed the small distance between us and towered over me; doing his 'menacing vampire' thing… it worked on everyone but me... I just eyeballed him back, daring him to physically rip me apart in front of everyone as he was ripping my heart apart.

"Don't ever come near us again with your lecherous thoughts… It's over." Edward breathed over me, and with that Edward put his arm around Bella as if to shield her from a rabid dog and escorted her to class.

I stood there with everyone staring at me. I didn't know whether to scream or cry. Neither I was going to do in front of my idiotic class mates, so I rapidly left the area and went up to the woods behind the school.

There on the same moss covered log that Edward and I held our first stilted conversation, I finally let the tears flow. I sat there sobbing my life out for what seemed like ages.

I tried to get my head around what had just happened, but it wouldn't work. All I could think of was that it was over, there was nothing left. Then the thought came to me. There was nothing left to live for, so why bother…

It was amazing how fast your mind can come up with a plan. The cliffs at La Push, Edward and the vampires can't go there, the wolves will be at work or in school; none of them could stop me… though at the moment I doubted if Edward would bother. Another sob left my exhausted body.

I finally pulled myself together and decide to make use of everyone being in class to have one last walk around the school in private, remember the happy moments Edward and I had, one last time, before the end.

I gave the log one last loving stroke on the place where Edward used to sit, before I left it for ever.

This is the exact spot where our bond started, where Edward had comforted me when I thought my mother was dying of cancer… fortunately Carlisle had saved her… how long ago that seemed now, yet it must not even be two years…

I walked the familiar trail through the woods coming out at the playing fields. I saw the stalls where I used to sit and watch the Cullen's triumph at their particular sporting choice, only there because of them; my interest in organised sport nil.

I remember sitting in those stalls in the pouring rain watching Edward compete in track and field, he was so happy to see me there to cheer him home… Would he notice now?

I headed back to the now deserted school, everyone in class.

I walked through the quiet cafeteria, scene of my worst times at school before the Cullen's arrived. When I was a loner, left out of the social cliques that control every school's student body. I eventually deserted the cafeteria to eat outside, alone with my thoughts… Till Edward invited me to sit at their table. They were loners, so was I; it was a natural fit.

I ran my fingers along the 'Cullen's table' as it was called; no one dared sit there but them. I remembered all the jokes we shared, the laughter. Where we had planned celebrations and commiserations. The laughter and tears that had been shed there over two years seemed to seep into the cheap wood of the table, to bring it alive.

I wonder what they will say sitting here when I'm gone… Edward had already invited Bella over to eat with them. Will they welcome her after this? Probably, the life of one person can't change the lives of immortals. They will just keep going. How many friends must they have lost to ageing over the decades? They are used to it. I'll be forgotten by the end of the week.

I wonder if they'll come to the funeral? I doubt it… Anyway Mum will probably go spastic and insist on only church people or something.

Still what do I care, 'I'll be there in body but not spirit'… I thought with a smile, 'God I love black humour'. Edward and I had the same sense of humour; I used to have him in stiches, often in the worst possible moments to be laughing. Not anymore… The smile disappeared from my face.

I headed up the corridors, past the Principal's office. We were such swats we never needed to go there unless it was for school work.

I walked past the lab doors and happened to glance in; there was a class of suitably bored teenagers in there. I remembered the secret experiments we used to do. The time we almost blew up the lab accidentally on purpose… that took a lot of explaining, which with Edwards charm and my wit we talked our way out of… come to think of it we DID have to go to the Principal's office after that one!

A smile graced my face at the memory… it was soon wiped off. Bella wouldn't be so rash; she wouldn't get Edward into trouble. Maybe that's why he likes her better?

I went into the now silent music room, walked over to the Yamaha and ran my fingers along its cold black mirror surface… I remembered how Edward could make the instrument sing, his hands gliding over its keys, his long skilled fingers hitting every note to perfection. He was the musical star of Forks High, so much so that the music teacher, Mum, gave him afterhours access to the music room to practice, his own key! Not that he needed to practice, he had 100 years of that, and not that he needed access to the Yamaha, the Cullen's had a superior instrument at their house. No it was another chance for us to be alone. Away from my prying mother, away from the superhuman hearing of the Cullen family. I wonder if Mum would have given him the key if she knew what we used to get up to in here?

We would sit for hours, Edward playing his latest composition. He could make my flesh vibrate with the passion of his playing.

Then there were OUR compositions. He always said I was his muse. My imagination and his creativity, we were an amazing duo. He said the visions in my mind while he played inspired him. He said they were better than the movies…. My blinding ambition for a better world, free from hunger and poverty lead him to compose the 'Biers' piano Concerto. All strong notes played at breakneck speed, Rachmaninov would have been envious of Edward's Genius.

Then there was the 'Riley' Sonata, soft notes, minor key, but with a strong undercurrent… he said it was written about our love and our lovemaking. He wrote it for my 16th birthday and I loved it. It knocked Beethoven's Moonlight sonata into a cocked hat.

I wonder whether that might be the reason we are done… he had exhausted the creativity he can get from me… I'm familiar. Uninspiring. Stale now… He needs a new muse… Bella.

I wonder if she had already sat by his side on the piano stool and watched him play, compose. I stopped stroking the piano… the image of them together as we used to be, worked to a frenzy of passion by the music and making love on the stool… it sickened me… the instrument that had caused me so much joy was now contaminated. I retracted my hand from it as if it were red hot metal… I wonder what he composes about her. If it were me it would be all staccato notes to match her shrill voice… I left the music room, there was nothing left for me here…

I then headed to the library. Our home away from home. The hours we had sat there and studied, joked under our breaths, planned and plotted our revenge against Emmett's latest prank. And made out when no one was looking.

I walked up to the furthest row of books and remembered that one night when we were 'studying' late, we couldn't wait to get home and we made love propped up against the shelves. It wasn't the most comfortable place, but for two nerds the smell of old books was an aphrodisiac and the orgasms we had were huge. There was still a cum stain on the carpet… one for the archives… I felt a filthy smile grace my lips.

That was the only time we actually were game enough to fuck here, though when the Librarian went to lunch we often pleasured each other digitally or occasionally orally… I felt my pants tightening just remembering. But all that too was gone. Smile wiped away, tightness disappeared.

Bella wouldn't be so rash… she wouldn't give herself to Edward freely. I bet she made Edward beg for it. She'd only put out when she got what she wanted, that's why she had him wrapped round her taloned fingers. She played the game. I gave myself freely, no catches, our love for love sake; emotional and physical. How can that win against a succubus, how can pure love defeat manipulation and evil…

I stormed out of the library… My time here was almost at an end… I headed for the parking lot, trying not to remember this morning's events.

….

I resignedly climbed into my car. A Honda Accord, my 17th birthday present from Edward. Edward had wanted to buy me a sports car, but I sensibly said there was no way I could explain it to my mother and she wouldn't let me accept a gift; we had our pride. So we settled on the Accord, lied to my mother that the Cullen's went guarantor on a loan and enjoyed it.

Fuck, all the time I looked out for their safety, their public image… what the fuck for? I bet that slut Bella would go for the Ferrari and whore around town in it fucking anything she could get her leg over! And given how far spread her hips were that could involve livestock!

I ran my fingers over the dash board caressing my baby, the only thing I loved more than my car was Edward… more sobs.

I put it into gear and pulled out of the parking lot for the last time.

As I drove through the streets of Forks, making my slow way up to the cliffs, I realised 'I doubt if there had been a single corner of this small town which Edward and I hadn't done something in over the last two years…'

A song came on the radio; strange how things just seem to fall into place even at the end… too bad all life wasn't like this.

As I slowly passed through the small town, not wanting to hurry my last drive. Taking time to remember all the crazy things Edward and I had done, I heard Green day's soft melancholic Ballard 'Time of your life' ringing out. It seemed so… appropriate. To end it all with this.

Remember all the happy times I could never come back to.

Not now. Not now he has found another.

I realise tears are streaming down my face.

Heaven help what I must look like. But then no one bothers to look at other drivers. Everyone is too busy wrapped up in their own lives. Never stopping to hear the silent screams.

Even my love… with all his telepathic powers, is oblivious. Caught up in his new crush. Tossing me aside like an old piece of gum. He's sucked all the flavour out of it and now it's just an undesirable piece of formless rubber best disposed of.

Driving out of the School drive I saw the First Congregational Church opposite… I remembered that first Christmas after I met the Cullen's. How Edward and I had argued about his soul and whether he was damned or not. I argued that even though I didn't believe in a heaven or hell, I could not believe that there could be an all loving God who would damn him and his family for something beyond their control, when they had suffered so much to avoid doing what was natural to them.

Edward hadn't believed me, so I berated him into coming to church Christmas Eve to ask the Minister. Edward's hand's shook with fear as we entered the church. I let him know there was no way, no how, God was striking him down… he'd have to come through me first. That seemed to calm him.

After the service we asked the Minister if there is any sin, even murder, so great that God will not forgive. The Minister simply said no; God loves everyone, Jesus died for us to have that chance, and all you need is repentance. Edward was so blown away by this.

I urged the same point later that night in front of the collected Cullen's, that they could never be damned… they were too good. The next day the whole Cullen family came to church for the first time in their immortal lives. I remember how happy this made the Minister. A whole new family of young people joining his flock… it had made Christmas.

I saw said Minister fixing the grounds of said church; he saw me and waved his usual friendly wave… I hardly noticed, my eyes were burning with tears. Had they not been I would have noticed his worried look and him running inside to telephone the school. He was a good man. But I could never confess to him what my problems were… I knew that a loving God would not damn me for loving another man, but I didn't want to place that kind Minister in the position of advising me on that subject…

Later I drove past Newton's sporting good's store. Mikes Dad was out front setting up a display. He was a good guy. He gave me work during school breaks because he knew I needed the money. A lot of people in town were down on him, because he and his wife weren't 'locals' and they did tend to big note themselves. But that was just their way. I knew from working there that their margins were cut pretty fine.

I also knew they were one of the only places in Forks that local kids with no work experience could be given a chance. And that during the floods last year they donated a lot of tarps and tents and stuff to the reservation, didn't even want a mention.

Mr Newton or Mike Senior as he always asked me to call him had taken me with zero experience and when I showed potential, gave me every opportunity. He had suggested that if I didn't want to go to college he could put me on full time. Knowing his son Mike had little aptitude for the business. It was an awkward conversation, here he was putting me ahead of his own son, but I didn't want to end up running a sports good store in Forks… I had higher ambitions then that… or at least I did before my life fell to pieces.

I saw him in the window, and envisioned in 30 years that's what pore Mike Junior would be doing. No, not for me.

Mr Newton saw me and waved, I never saw it, nor did I see him pull the phone out of his pocket and call his son to see why I, the most reliable of students was cutting school and driving through town in tears.

I was too busy remembering the first day of fall break nearly two years ago, when Edward and I went there to buy stuff for our first camping trip. We had only known each other for a couple of months. Carlisle thought it would be good for us to bond in the wilderness. Mum wasn't happy with it but relented when I begged… even though I was scared shitless of bears a week alone with Edward was too good to miss, even though I thought he was straight back then.

I remember that camping trip well, it had rained on and off constantly, but it was one of the bet times of my life, mainly spending so much time with Edward, but also because of a few unforeseen incidents, one of which ironically involved a fairly hungry and pissed off grizzly bear, I discovered that Edward and his family were immortals… He saved my life, but I was willing to lose it to save him… I wonder if he would bother now.

On my way out of town I then drove past the Carver café, remembering the burgers and pizzas. The knowing looks that the waitress Cora gave us when we sat together, also her complete lack of judgement and ability to keep a confidence, yes I'd miss Cora and her amazing Java! Had I been paying attention I would have seen her getting out of her car and wave… I would have also seen the concerned look on her face when she noticed the state I was in and that she hurried inside to call her friend Chief Swan.

But I didn't, my mind was in the past, I was remembering the ridiculous lengths Edward went to, to appear to eat food. I always helped him out, my plate always miraculously gained food during a meal faster than the human eye could follow. Thank God for Emm's exercise regime or I'd be the size of a house by now.

I bet bovine Bella won't eat Edward's food, couldn't have her risk putting on weight and getting massive udders. No Edward will just have to fend for himself now. This gave me a frison of pleasure which was immediately overwhelmed by regret... I still loved Edward, in spite of what he said and did… I didn't want him to suffer.

I guess that was the real reason I was getting out of the way. He didn't need me hanging around like a bad smell. If he wanted to spend his life with Bella then I wouldn't get in the way.

And I hoped she made him happy. I really did…

I also hoped she died of amoebic dysentery, but that was another matter.

I drove past Tillicum Park and remembered summer vacation of 2004 dragging Edward and the Cullen's to a Kerry/Edwards rally I had helped organise as part of the Young Democrats. God they grumbled; but Carlisle had supported me, saying it would help them fit in if they participated in the town life.

Carlisle was so supportive of me, always there with advice. I think he was proud how successful I had become in politics at such a young age. He always made me feel like another son, and he was the father I never really had… I almost thought about driving to the hospital to talk to him… ask his advice.

But no, I knew what I needed to do. Carlisle would have his own problems with the killer bitch joining their family.

I remembered with a smile that the Cullen's came to regret their show of support. I soon had the most active doorknocking and leaflet dropping organisation in Washington State. I was a legend in the Young Democrats… the fact that my 'volunteers' had super powers was not my secret to divulge... another smile creped across my face.

I had already plotted my bid for the City Council… how could I fail with such a team? With Alice able to predict my opponent's actions and Edward their thoughts. A distinct advantage. I'd soon be the youngest Mayor the City ever had, then State Congress, US Senate? Who knows…? I froze in my thoughts… not anymore. I would be just me, a kid, not even a local; I wasn't born here, what chance would I have…? Still I wasn't going to be around to care for much longer.

I smirked again when I remembered the nick name we gave the park… 'Till-I-Cum' park. My god the sexual adventures Edward and I had in the rotunda, the steam engine, the parking lot… just about everywhere.

Good luck Edward trying to get Bella to do it on a rug in the freezing cold… especially given the temperature of your cock in winter. I remember I nearly got frost bite on my prostate and colon. Though by god the sounds that came from Edward made it worth it… I'd do it over again in a second to please him… Not happening!

I took the turn out of town and up along the coast road to La Push. When the song ended I killed the radio. I didn't want some perky song about love ruining what was a perfect send-off.

I thought I should have left a note. But what the fuck. No one would give a shit enough to read it. Anyway, this way it could be put down as an accident, Mum wouldn't have the shame of a suicide inquest. No one would think less of Edward… still thinking of others till the end… God I'm pathetic.

EPOV

I sat there gazing at Bella over lunch. Transfixed. She wasn't particularly beautiful. More pretty, but her scent was beguiling and her ability to hide her thoughts was intriguing and enticing. How I thought I would like to spend the rest of my life unlocking her secrets.

I rolled this idea around in my head when Alice took a sharp intake of breath. Jaspers hand was immediately on hers comforting her. The vision she saw blazed though my head cutting my reverie off. Riley, on top of the cliffs at La Push, throwing himself into the waters… ending it all because of my hurtful and careless remarks that morning during 'the scene' as it was coming to be called.

"Alice?" I asked in a voice so low that only a vampire could hear.

"Go to him… you may be too late!" she said urgently, not moderating her voice, not giving a damn who herd. I saw the desperation in her face and immediately took off, my chair colliding with the far wall and shattering. There was a pregnant hush in the cafeteria where there used to be buzzing noise. Every eye followed me as I retreated from the room at barely human speed, rapidly followed by Emmett.

"Dude, you may need help." He said as he came along side me as we quickened our pace in the deserted hallway, appearing to any bystander like a blur as we raced to the car park.

I knew this wasn't about physicality. I was more than capable of retrieving one human from the sea, or hopefully stopping them from entering it. Was he worried about the wolves? No, Riley was close with them; he'd saved Jacob's life. No, they would not stop us from saving him… I think Emmett realised what was going on… that we might be too late… that I might need someone to sit with me as we waited for Chief Swan and Carlisle to arrive to remove the body… I pushed such thoughts from my mind. I HAD to be in time!

I jumped in Emm's jeep which was closer and easier to get in; the keys were out of his pocket in my hand and in the ignition before our ass' hit the leather. Music blared out from the trashy radio station that Emm always had it tuned to. I ignored it, concentrating on maximising the speed of the machine around corners.

We probably took a full inch of rubber off the tires as we peeled out of the car park. Emm said nothing. Normally he'd scream blue murder about someone treating his baby that way.

We drove like death was on our heels, skipping every light we came across to the honks of motorists. One unfortunately being Chief Swan himself – who cares, he'll need to be there eventually anyway. STOP IT! I cussed at myself as I dismissed more macabre thoughts from my mind.

I needed to stop my mind from whirring around. Conversation, any would do….

"Why would he do it?" I spat out. I immediately regrated asking it.

"Because you talked to him like a bit of shit in front of everyone in school." Emmett said bluntly. I really shouldn't have asked that question. I read what he left out in his mind… 'Just because you're so pussy whipped, you dumped your boyfriend and best friend in front of everyone. Practically outed him… If you weren't a vampire he'd probably have punched you square in the face, because I was about to.'

I looked at Emm and he glowered at me. I knew he and all my family were annoyed at my new infatuation with Bella. They couldn't understand it. But the anger that suddenly seethed out of him startled me. Had he really felt like this before? Surely not, for how could I have missed it?

As if to answer my question. As though he were the telepathic one. As though it were written all over my face, Emmett ejected… "Because since you found Bella you haven't given a flying fuck about the rest of us. I've been testing you. Some of the shit I have thought you've not even noticed, unless it has the word 'Bella' in it."

Oh My God, was it that obvious? Was that why Riley had been getting more and more distant? Or was it actually he that was the same as usual and I was moving away?

Madonna's "like a prayer" was playing on the radio, it somehow seemed appropriate.

Life is a mystery,
Everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

We came to the cliffs and skidded to a halt. Jumping out of the jeep we ran to the roadside overlooking the ocean.

"There he is" Emm retorted.

Riley stood atop the cliff the wolves' show-off and jump from. A fun trick for the supernatural but deadly for mortals.

"Riley! NOOOOO!" I yelled out.

He looked up from the waves below and fixed me in the eye with a longing stare. Like he always used to. A small melancholic smile broke across his face

I hear your voice, it's like an angel sighing

"I LOVE YOU EDWARD…"he cried out, waited a millisecond for me to register his words, a few more for him to register their impression on my face… then he plunged off the cliff careering down in a swan dive to the rocks and breakers below. His mind endlessly repeating the phrase…

"I LOVE YOU EDWARD…"

I have no choice, I hear your voice

Feels like flying
I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me

"NOOOO!" I heard an unearthly voice bellow, I realised it was mine.

I hadn't even notice Chief Swan pull up and get out of his patrol car, he saw the whole thing… "Holy Shit!" He exclaimed, and ran to his car radio to call for the coast guard.

And in an instant both Emm and I jumped off the coast road down into the water. Only our super acute hearing heard Chief Swan scream "No Boys…" as we left the precipice.

I swam like I never had before. In my mind his constant repetition of 'I love you Edward' started to grow dimmer, then stopped…. NOOOO no I could not be too late. It just wasn't possible.

I finally reached the bottom of the cliff; there was no sign of him! I dived down, and there slowly floating to the bottom was the limp body of the boy I loved… I had no time to analyse these newly resurfaced feelings. I scooped him up and dragged him to the surface… he wasn't breathing. I took a millisecond to place my lips on his, it was automatic I just wanted so much to let him know how I felt. I swam like a crazy person to the shore where I effortlessly carried his limp body up the beach. Emm was in lockstep beside me.

I immediately set to work giving CPR at inhuman speed. I prayed to God, that even though I was now damned, he spare this poor victim of my stupidity.

"Ed…"Emm said shaking his head as I franticly worked on my patient using every skill I had learned in three medical degrees.

"No!" I spat out in between resuscitating breaths…"It can't end like this…. It can't"

"Edward… he's gone." Emm said quietly. His hand on my shoulder to try and still my frantic actions.

"No…" I said "GOD!" I yelled out at an inhuman volume that reverberated around the cove, hoping, praying, that God listened… then giving Riley one last compression and suddenly water spewed from his lungs and a cough spat out… I let out an exasperated prayer, glanced at Emmett in triumph then wrapped Riley in my arms and covered his face in kisses, a smile broke over his lips and I chastely placed mine on his, I felt his hand tighten on my side where it had been hanging, he didn't have enough strength to raise his arms but it was all I needed.

We heard a crash though some bushes and Chief Swan practically landed on the beach.

"What in hells name are you boys playing at." He exploded as he picked himself up off the sand and gravel.

Ignoring the commotion I deepened the kiss.

"Holy crap!" Chief Swan ejaculated but I paid it no mind.

Finally after what seemed like eternity, but must have been but a short while, I broke the kiss to gaze at my loves tired bloodshot eyes and see the smile dance there again. I rolled him to his side so he could breathe easier and rubbed his back letting him know through touch that this time I wasn't going anywhere.

….

There was going to be a lot of explaining to do. But at the moment I didn't care. I had won…

I silently kicked myself that it took his near death to make me realise how much I needed him.

And I have no idea how I am going to explain to the Chief what happened here, or how I am going to let Bella know that there was another who already had my heart.

But I didn't care… he was alive! And if he'd still have me, I would never leave his side…

~ The End ~

"Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)" by Green Day

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos and memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of your life.

"Like A Prayer" by Madonna

Life is a mystery
Everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

I hear your voice
It's like an angel sighing
I have no choice, I hear your voice
Feels like flying

I close my eyes
Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

Like a child
You whisper softly to me
You're in control just like a child
Now I'm dancing

It's like a dream
No end and no beginning
You're here with me it's like a dream
Let the choir sing

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there

Life is a mystery
Everyone must stand alone
I hear you call my name
And it feels like home

Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there

Just like a prayer, I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me
Just like a prayer, I'll take you there
It's like a dream to me

Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there

Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there
Your voice can take me there
Like a prayer

Just like a prayer
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a prayer
Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there

End Notes-

First, thank you all for sticking with this, I hope you enjoyed it.

This story was originally going to be a lot darker, a sad statement about the futility of life with Edward being too late to save Riley (it was the head space I was in) but as I re-read it, I saw a more important message come forth… that even when life seems pointless, you still need to keep on going, more people than you realise care about you. You just need to give them a chance to show it.

More importantly, anyone who is reading this who feels like Riley or knows someone who does, please get help… Suicide is the largest killer of under 30's and same sex attracted people in the western world. You don't have to just 'try and live with it'. Every country has free call hotlines to give help and advice, please! I implore you to use them. If you know someone who has been having mood swings, depressed or talking about ending things please talk to them, if you don't know what to say call the help lines and they will advise you. I can guarantee you that one awkward conversation is much better than a lifetime of regret and" why didn't I ask him/her if they were ok?"

Now… (Climbs of soap box.)

This story is part of a longer novel sized work I'm writing, no doubt you noticed there was a lot of back story that was hinted at or left out. This chapter occurs about two thirds of the way through the story arc, which starts with the Cullen's first day at Forks high and ending at college. This was one of the most powerful parts of the story so I thought it best to test the waters with this… if anyone likes my writing then I'll publish updates as regularly I can. Starting from Edward and Riley's first meeting. It's not all as bleak as this chapter, in fact since I tend to believe that life is stranger and certainly far sillier than fiction (maybe that's just my life) some of this story is quite zany….

Also a big thankyou to the great KellanCugar for giving me the nudge that got me to man up and start posting. I should say she hasn't pre-read this and can in no way be blamed for it. Thanks again KC!

Also anyone interested in Xavier Samuel should check out the Australian short movie "Drowning" it's very moving (and you see him in his undies) here's a link /drowning-2009/

So again thanks for reading! (Waits nervously for first comment...)