Hello! So I've come to the conclusion I'm not capable of writing real stories. So I thought to myself, "Hey, Lauren! What can be a sort of story, but not really a story? Something that doesn't have to be taken so seriously?" And I answered myself, "Gee, Lauren, I have an idea! Why not write the journal entries of the Anubis residents throughout their experience in Anubis House!"

So basically, these are going to be diary/journal entries/short hand notes of the residents of Anubis House spanning from Season 1 – 3 and maybe before and beyond that. This first one came to mind after I rewatched S1 E12 E13: House of Cheats, House of Rumors. Enjoy!

character(s): fabian rutter

brief summary: fabian reflects on his relationship— platonic and romantic— with nina.

November 10, 2010

Notebook Entry Number 27,

I don't know what I'm going to do! What can I do? I mean, she's beautiful, and funny, and so invested in this mystery; she'll never look at me in any way more than just a friend. It's just not how the world works.

For example, after the whole fiasco with Amber assuming Nina and I were secretly dating, I decided I was going to muster of the courage and, you know, ask her out on a date— nothing big, or anything... just maybe to the local cinema in town. She started rambling to me about how us as a couple would be "ridiculous."

All I could do was feel my confidence take a nosedive, and stutter out, "Oh, yeah, yeah, um, totally, yeah"— or something along the lines of that. She obviously doesn't want anything to do with me romantically despite Amber's theories.

I won't give up on her, though; despite what she may think, Nina can't go at this thing alone. She may never be my girlfriend, but she's still becoming my best friend. And a friendship with Nina seems just as good as a relationship with her. I do hope things get a little smoother, though...

— Fabian

So, obviously this is pretty short. Some will be longer entries, some will be shorter. I feel like Fabian probably wouldn't be writing a novel about his feelings because that's just not in his character. Someone like Nina or KT might, however. This won't be updated regularly. I have a life to attend to, and all. Sit tight though.

Kisses,

The Showers in April