It must have been an evening a few months ago when he realized his… affection towards a certain butler of his. He never imagined ending up like this. His heart pulsing in his chest from just a mere glance. He was a wreck. Normally he would try to plan a way to get what he wanted. But that was irrelevant now. He looked towards the dance floor. Sad eyes immediately found the overwhelmingly good looking butler. Said butler wasn't alone. A gorgeous young woman was holding his hand. Just the thought about the woman made his heart ache. It must have been a month ago when Sebastian came into his office to talk about something important. Now it seemed to be so long ago…
"What is it, Sebastian? You know that I have a lot of paperwork to do.", the young earl said clearly irritated of being interrupted. "Then I will make this as quickly as possible for you, young master. I only wanted to inform you that my fiancé wrote me she'll visit in a week's time." Shocked Ciel looked up to his butler. "Fi...fi...fiancée" Sebastian raised his eyebrows. "Yes, young master. She said she couldn't possible wait to see me after our contract is completed. So it was the most plausible solution to her problem." Trying to get himself together again Ciel said: "I was only surprised that someone would possibly want you." His Butler didn't seem to see the pain in Ciel's eyes. He only chuckled: "Ah yes. For the young master it must be absurd that a beast like me could possibly be wanted." His eyes gleamed that dangerous way. The earl dismissed Sebastian's teasing with his hand. "As long as you perform your responsibilities and won't forget that you are my butler I see no problem with your...fiancée's presence." He stumbled over the hurtful word. "Yes, my lord. If you would excuse me, I have to make a few preparations." With these words Sebastian turned around and made his way to the door. "Ah, Sebastian. I have to run a few errands in London today. Make the carriage ready and tell Tanaka he'll drive." Sebastian looked at his young contractor surprised. "Of course, my lord. Am I allowed to ask what these errands are?" "No you aren't. Now go and do as you're told.
Remembering it made it even more hurtful. His butler didn't feel one bit of it, doesn't he? And because of this stupid butler he was now standing here in this damn ballroom for that stupid butler's engagement party. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
He calmed himself. Just a little longer and he could sneak out pretending to be tired and then this torture would end. Everything would end. And he would be free. Well, as free as he could be.
Slowly he was walking towards the doors.
Turning around he looked longingly towards the dance floor. Seeing his butler laughing softly to that woman's jokes, hearing him saying so sweet and charming words, him whispering softly into her ear was making his heart clench in the young earls chest.
"Then I guess this marks the end, doesn't it? What a strange outturn, right? Would you have ever thought it would be like this, my dear Sebastian? It's too late for regret. Be happy with her. I know she can be what I can't be for you." Like a sweet breeze it lay over him. None of these words arrived at the person they were addressed at. They weren't supposed to.
One last glance towards his butler and he was gone. A lost tear ran down his cheek as he turned away forever from the light and walked into the darkness to her. His salvation.