I'm staring out into the sunset, the reds and yellows intertwining in some intimate dance, and I can't help but think I might never get to see it again. I will tell you this: that frightens me. I've never really been one to dwell on what ifs of life, but sometimes reality kicks in when least expected. There is so much uncertainty and malcontent flowing through the very fibres of this earth that one can't help but be anxious about tomorrow. It only takes one glance at the papers or at the television screen to see that something is so blatantly wrong in or with the world. Sometimes it boggles my mind that people can be so ignorant. No my friends, I don't claim to hold all the knowledge in the world, but I have had my eyes opened.
"A mere glimpse," I like to refer to it as. For I have yet to see even half the greatness and tragedy of this world, and I think that even in a hundred lifetimes I would not be able to comprehend why people do the things they do. For instance, why do you kill three thousand innocents using 2 aeroplanes? What have you really got to gain by doing so, and what sadistic pleasure to you reap from your ill results? Or, why is it that some people hold claim to such wealth yet they can't even realise this? Oh I've got my good health, I've got American Eagle clothing, I've got a warm bed at night, but I'm not rich, no sir. No, you've got to have the money, that new CD, those new shoes, and that purse I wanted so much, or perhaps a new car…Yes, once you have all these superficial things you'll finally be content, you'll finally be… rich. I just don't get how some people can think like that… I mean, people are dying daily, dictators hold lordship over millions of captives, Christians are being martyred by the dozens, people go without homes… Do some of us even realise how selfish we are? Do we even understand that we're just adding to the bad labours of this world? I guess not…
Maybe I never will fully comprehend why God has chosen to put his children into such a hellhole as this – but that's ok. I can live with the knowledge that I don't, and never will know everything. Besides, sometimes you just have to have faith. So I guess that is what I'm doing now – having faith. Trusting, that no matter what, even if I do indeed die tomorrow, that, well, it'll be ok. Trusting that even if I never see that gorgeous display of God's creation again, that I'll still have a place to call home. Trusting that even if little children are starving, and I can't do more then just sponsor a kid for 20 something bucks a month that God will be in control. Call it foolish, call it blind, call it whatever you'd like to call it, but the fact still remains that God is there and that he cares. So I don't know everything, but I do know everything worth knowing – and that makes all the difference.
In parting I'd like to say this: It's only human to worry. It's only human to find pleasure in the hurts of others. It's only human to sin. But, despite all that, there is a God, and that is displayed to us every day in many ways; In the rising of the sun, in the growing of the flowers, in the laughter of our friends. Sometimes things unseen can be hard to believe in, and sometimes things seen can overwhelm us. It's at times like that that you've got to have faith. So I'll run the race, and I'll trod the path before me, and I'll dare to hope that in the end, I'll have a place to call home.
"If Jesus Christ is truth, than I am mostly lies. If Jesus Christ is love, than I have failed to try. If Jesus Christ is life, than please just let me die." ~Five Iron Frenzy