Title: I Want You To Love Me
Rating: T
Description: Kaoru knows it's wrong, but he loves his brother anyways. Knowing the feelings aren't mutual, he must try to hide his true emotions from the rest of the world, Hikaru especially. Dealing with all the challenges proves difficult, and leaves him feeling more alone than ever before...
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran, the Hitachiin twins, or any of the other characters mentioned.
A/N: My second Ouran story. I have the main story line already planned out and just need to work on adding fillers. This will be a chapter story, hopefully a pretty long one. Hope you enjoy!
"Why, Hikaru?" the two of us were sitting in the third music room after school. The others had already left and we were the only ones occupying the space. I'm not sure what cause me to blurt out the question.
"Why what, Kaoru?"
"Why did you agree to do the twincest act in the beginning of the club?" the question had swirled around in my head for a while, but as of late, I felt ready to know the answer, even if it was one I didn't want to hear.
"Because it was funny" his response was immediate, blunt even. There were no signs of him being kidding; that was his honest answer. At that moment, I felt my heart shatter into thousands of pieces, like he had ripped it out of my chest and then stomped on it. My breath caught in my throat and I hope he didn't notice my reaction. Trying to keep my emotions in check, I looked him in the eyes, staring at a mirror image of myself.
"Right" I kept my voice calm and steady, trying to make my tone sound like I already knew what he was going to say.
"Why do you ask?" damn... Time to come up with some fake explanation.
"I don't know. Just curious, I guess" he nodded in response, looking as though he believed me. Whether or not he did was only something I could guess.
"Should we go home? I'm sure our driver is waiting for us." Now it was my turn to nod. Together, we left the school building and met up with the limo out front. Climbing in it and greeting our driver, we settled into our seats.
Not having anything to discuss, we stayed quiet as the car began to move. While Hikaru looked over the assignments we'd been given to complete that night, I gazed out the window, soaking up the scenery. It wasn't very exciting; I saw the same things every day. Still, it gave me something else to think about, which was definitely needed.
"Kaoru?" the sound of my brother's voice caused me to snap out of my thinking.
"Yeah?"
"What do you think?"
"About what?"
"My idea for the essay"
"It's good" I'd taught myself to lie smoothly a while ago. Everyone else always fell for my façade, whether it was acting with my brother or hiding what I really felt from the rest of the world. Well, to be fair, I didn't act around my brother, not really. Sure, I made up stories to make the fangirls squeal sometimes, but my feelings for Hikaru were all real. He didn't know that, of course. No one did.
My response must have seemed a little off, because he sent me a suspicious look that immediately made me nervous. However, he didn't say anything else, although I could tell he knew I hadn't been paying attention, something uncharacteristic for me. Going back to my thoughts, I realized how risky the entire situation was. All it took was a few words and everything would fall apart. That was the only thing keeping me from telling Hikaru everything. I was too scared of loosing him.
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