Ch 1 Red on white

A/N: Vampire knight and its characters do not belong to me, I only like to write about them b/c I am a bored, bored, child (actually, I rather do this than do precalc hw… )

This story starts on the day that she asked Kaname about her memories and the day he asks her if she is willing to become a vampire (ch 26+ or something, I forget T_T). I made so many changes b/c I got bored and wrote this before I reread it so it's a bit mess up, work with me here~~ hurrah for describing things in lots of detail :D

Yuki

I laid on my bed, staring outside the window at the millions of flakes of soft fluffy white snow pilling up the windows of the sun dorms. Cross Academy looked peaceful and quiet now, without all the loud and excited day class whose raucous noises traveled across the campus and the beautiful members of the night class who were the objects of affections and often gawked at, well, after all, it was winter break and mostly everyone had gone home. So why am I still here? Well, because this is my home, the roomy interior of the sun dorm, where the chairman, my 'dad' lives, trying to make peace between the night clan, the vampire, and us, the humans. I sighed and the window fogged up and I stared at my reflection. A skinny girl with big almond eyes and hair stared back at me, a bandage around her neck. I raised my hand to the bandage as the girl on the window copied my movement and recounted the events that had happened earlier.

Zero. He was probably my only guy friend (unless you counted Kaname-sempai as a guy friend, I blushed at that thought) whom I talked, or rather, argued with a lot. I have known him since his vampire hunter family was killed by a vengeful pureblood and had taken sanctum at Cross Academy. Even though his hatred for vampires had not abided, it was quite a surprise to me when he turned out to be one, pure blood vampire can turn humans into one of them… a monster? I shuddered as my mind automatically flashed the fateful day ….

It was snowing quite hard the surrounding was pure white, cold gusts of wind blew into my face. As far as I could see, only I was outside, a small child, by myself in the midst of a snowstorm not knowing how I got there, all that white. I remember a man, no, a vampire who was thirsty, he leered at me with those menacing eyes and said that he would enjoy his meal … the white wonderland was tainted by blood as another figure, my savior, appeared. He came into view: tall, dark haired, red eyed. He smiled at me, with blood dripping down his face, he told me that he would not harm me, and took me away into a warm place …

That vampire, which I later learned was Kaname-sempai, had saved my life. They weren't monsters, merely people who had a rather interesting food choice. Apparently, Zero's food choice was me, or rather, my blood. Seeing Zero in pain also pains me, his body had rejected the blood pills that were given to him by the chairman and it was better that I sacrificed myself for him rather than seeing him turn into a… monster, a cold blooded killer. I knew that he would rather kill himself than give in to his blood thirst but as long as I am his lifeline, his connection to the world of the sane, I will not let him turn into a level E.

A swift knock on the door announced the chairman's presence. "Yukii dear, dinner is ready!" he said in his singsong voice, "I made your favorite! Pork chops, cooked medium well~" the chairman then flounced out the door humming some random song that sounded oddly like something from 'charlie the unicorn.'

I sighed and got up to follow him, my 'father' the man who had adopted me and had taken me in as his own even though he had no previous knowledge of me. I owed a lot to him, I realized as I strolled to the dining hall. Zero was already there, with the same expressionless- yet somewhat cute- face that he always wore. He looked up as I entered, adverting his eyes from the bandage around my neck.

"Yuki, you're late again, the food's going to get cold if we wait any longer." He said grumpily as the chairman bounced around grabbing plates from the stove. The delicious smell of pork chops wafted towards me in warm waves as he put a plate in front of me, Zero, and lastly, himself.

"Well, dig in everyone!" he grinned happily, not waiting for us to begin and started stuffing his mouth with food. I looked over to Zero, noticing that he was poking his fork at a rather red lump of meat looking disgusted. The chairman looked up, upon seeing his expression, he explained: "I made yours extra rare, Zero, I thought you might enjoy it better that way better~"

I swear I could practically see the waves of anger coming from Zero as he slammed the table(leaving a rather large dent and making the silverware clatter onto the floor), turned, and exited the room in a huff. The chairman stared after him, looked at me, shrugged and continued eating. Zero often had fits of anger whenever the chairman made hints and mentions of his 'no-longer-humanness' I remembered when the chairman had 'gifted' him a moon dorm uniform, right after he had first bit me, Zero had nearly broken the chairman's table in half. I sighed, pushed back my chair and followed Zero to his room, hoping to comfort him, leaving my pork chops.

His bare room was as dark and gloomy as usual, a cold draft blew in from his open window. I shivered slightly as I stepped in, as my eyes got accustomed to the dark, I saw Zero. He was just lying on his unkempt bed, eyes closed, breathing deeply his silver hair seemed to glow from the reflection of the moonlight. I resisted an urge to tousle his hair, closed the windows and turned on the lamp, blinking at the sudden light. Zero moaned angrily, finally rolling off the bed and stared at me with his intense gray eyes, his eyebrows meeting at a 'v' with annoyance.

"What do you think you are doing, Yukii," Zero complained, reaching over to open the windows again, snowflakes flew in and melted as soon as they came in contact with the floor. "The cold helps me forget… the need… the thirst…" he explained to me in a low voice.

"Oh." I fidgeted "Won't you get a cold Zero? " I asked defiantly, going over to him and sitting next to him, tilting my head until my eyes were leveled with his.

"Stop babying me around all the time Yuki, I am older by one year you know. "Zero rolled his eyes in exasperation "and I think you are in more danger than I am right about now. What were you thinking of?"

"What do you mean?" I asked, confused "What did I do?"

"You know what you did" Zero said, grinding his teeth when he saw my face of confusion and continued in a monotone "Kaname." My face turned pink with embarrassment, then red when I realized had implied.

"N-noo!" I stuttered turning redder by the second, "I'm not like that, baka!" I frowned angrily at him and stormed out of his room. No comforting there, well, back to my pork chops…

Zero:

For someone so small, I am amazed that she can run out of my room so fast. I stared after her retreating back, her shoulder length dark brown hair streaming behind her, wondering if I should call her back and apologize for whatever she was thinking of; my heart thumped loudly against my ribcage as the nape of her neck flashed into view, I was thirsty again… probably. I sighed, defeated, and breathed in the cold night air which had suddenly filled with her sweet smell.

Yuki. The person who has comforted me and has given me her care and love even if I did not deserve it. After I watched my family members get killed by that woman, I became lifeless, thinking only of revenge, willing to go down with her. That woman has turned me into a monster, so, I must keep myself away from Yuki, the person whose life would be danger if I let her know my deepest and darkest secrets. So why must she be in love with that vile man? that disgusting pure blood, just like that woman, able to create monsters just like themselves. I watched Yuki attempt to save me, sacrificing herself, then that woman dying before my eyes…

I would do anything to keep her safe, but now, she was thinking of the notion to become a vampire? A monster just like me? I shut my eyes and my hatred of Kaname deepened. Why must he try to take away the only person who I cared about, my only ally, and turn her into a monster? I closed my eyes and drifted off into fsleep, no longer hungry…

I dreamed the same dream that I had several nights ago. "Murderer!" "Monster!" voices in the gloom whispered all around me. I frowned. What in the world were they talking about? Kaname appeared from the gloom, glaring coldly at me "So, your vampire side got the better of you after all, and you said that you would protect her" he said, shaking his head sadly pointing to the limp form that I now realize I held. I looked down, down into the shocked almond colored eyes of a now lifeless Yuki. Her cheeks were pale and her hair askew, with fresh and bleeding bite mark clearly marked on her skin: red on white…

I woke up with a start, my heart pumping fast. This could not happen, will not happen. I will be sure of it.

A/N (aka. my after writing rant): Whee~~ as you can probably tell, this is a yukixzero fanfic (cuz zero's hawt) and I am changing viewpoints randomly cuz I can and cuz it's easier to express their feelings and innermost struggles that way… maybe I am ranting too much in the story? not enough dialogue? idk... =3= I think I made the first ch a bit too long ..... also, sorry if I have grammar problems ._.

Blahh! second fanfic (too lazy to type up my first) tell me if it sucks please ^^ (review plox?)