"You know you can't just hide from your problems." Logan said giving me a sympatric glance.

"Yes I can." I replied. Truthfully I knew I couldn't but it was all I could do at the moment I
didn't want to hurt either of them.

"Do you stay with Lucy or get back with Jo?" Camille asked.

"I'm not sure Jo was my first girlfriend but Lucy and I have so much in common." I sighed, "I
need time to think." I said getting up and heading out the door.

I was sitting on a bench outside of Rocque records trying to decide who to choose. I have had
good times with both girls and it was a hard choice to make.

"Whatcha doing big brother?" Katie asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"What are you doing here?"

"Oh I ran Rocque Records for the day." Katie said shrugging her shoulders like it wasn't a big
deal which for her it probably wasn't.

"Why?"

"That isn't important now answer my question." Katie said taking a seat next to me.

"I can't decide between Jo or Lucy." I sighed talking to my baby sister about relationships was
the last thing I wanted to do but I was desperate.

"You know what you need to do?" Katie asked placing a hand on my shoulder.

"What?"

Katie smiled before answering "You Walk."

"What Do You Mean, 'Walk'?"

"Clears the Head!" Katie answered.

"Yeah, But My Head Won't Tell Me What to Do." I said shaking my head.

"Of course not. But your heart will lead you to where you need to go. It always does." Katie said
giving me a knowing look for a thirteen year old she was pretty smart.

"Thanks baby sister." I said giving Katie a hug before getting up to start my walk.

I was taking a walk like Katie had suggested and everywhere I went I saw things that reminded
me of Lucy and it made me realize just how much she meant to me. Lucy was unlike any girl I
had ever met. She was fun and we had a lot in common. Jo always ignored my friends but Lucy
hung out with us all.

When I tried asking Lucy out I was so nervous that she would reject me so that has to mean
something. But with Jo I was never afraid. These thoughts made me realize that I loved Lucy
with Jo it was just stupid puppy love but with Lucy there may be more there.

The kiss I shared with Lucy was the best kiss of my life and it just felt so right. Whenever I
kissed Jo it felt like it just something to do.

And that is what scarred me. What if I chose Lucy and we got serious and then our career's
pulled us apart? As the doubt crept into my mind I decided I should ignore the girl I love and just
chose the girl who was safest. I had made my choice.

"Hey." I said once Jo opened her door.

"Hi." Jo replied. I took a breath before speaking again I knew I was making a huge mistake by
choosing Jo over Lucy but I felt I needed to do this to protect my heart in the future.

"Jo would you take me back?" I asked forcing the words out of my mouth. My heart was
screaming this is the wrong choice but my head was screaming it was safer.

"Of course Kendall." Jo said pulling me into her hug. While I was in her arms all I could think of
was how it would feel to be in Lucy's arms.

"Lucy I'm sorry." I said. I had just told Lucy my choice and the look on her face killed me.

"How could you do this to me?" Lucy asked. "You knew I just got out of a horrible relationship
and that I had trust issues because of it. You did all those wonderful things for me and made me
think you cared then you go and leave me right after you kiss me and ask me out that is a jerk
move!" Lucy yelled. She was right and I felt like a complete douche I knew how she had been
treated by Beau and now it looks like I am no better.

"I thought you were different Kendall." Lucy whispered before she got off the bench we had
been sitting on.

I watched as she ran away and it crushed me.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered as the tears made their way down my cheek. I could only hope in
time my heart would agree with my head.

It had been one year since Jo had returned and I had made my decision and in that time a lot had
changed. In the end I still lost Lucy because a week after I made my choice she left the Palm
woods. She had left because it was too painful to see me after what I had done to her. Not a day
has gone by that I haven't missed her. I even slipped up and called Jo Lucy.

My friendship with the guys had also been strained. Jo was as bossy and clingy as she had
always been. I went back to spending more time with her than I did my friends since she didn't
like to hang around them. The guys also hated me for Lucy leaving they all considered her their
best friend and it was my fault she was gone now.

"So Katie told me you caught Jo cheating on you again." Carlos said taking a seat next to me on
our couch.

"Yeah this time it was with Dak." I said. Jo had been caught cheating on me at least three times
that I had known about. She claims it isn't cheating when it is done to help her career. Lately her
career has been all she has cared about.

"Dude why do you stay with her?" Carlos asked.

"Because it is safer to be with someone you don't have strong feelings for."

"You know we all think she is just using you for your fame." Carlos stated.

"I know." I sighed. I knew they were right and that all I was to Jo was someone to boost her
career. She had changed.

"Do you regret it?" Carlos asked giving me a sympatric look.

"Every day of my life." I stated.

"Then why did you do it?"

"Because I listened to my head instead of my heart. And because I was so stupid I lost the girl
who meant the world to me." I said my voice trembling.

"Thinking about Lucy again aren't you?" Jett asked taking the seat next to me on the bench in
Palmwoods Park. Jett and I had become close friends after working together with James to get
rid of Beau.

"Yeah." It was no secret that after Lucy left I always came to the last spot I had spoken to her.
My friends knew that when I was here I was missing her.

"Maybe one day you will get another chance with her." Jett said.

"I won't I blew it big time." I said. "Besides even if she did give me a second chance who is to
say Hollywood wouldn't break us up?"

"You can't base your life on what ifs Kendall. Besides if two people are meant to be together no
one can tear them apart. I remember how much Lucy meant to you and all you did for her. You
two were made for each other."

"I doubt I will ever see her again she is a huge rock star now. She probably doesn't even
remember me."

"Who knows maybe one day you will. And Kendall I doubt she forgot you, you were special to
her."

"I hope so." I said looking up at the sky.

I do Not Own BTR. Also I am in desperate need of a beta so if you can do it send me a PM or review please.

Ok so I loved Lucy and shipped Kucy so much but then Jo had to come back and ruin
things. I have never liked Jo hence the reason she is almost always a jerk in my stories.
Anyway Big Time Descion annoyed me so I wrote how I want it to go. Lucy will be back in
part 2.