Chapter 1: My Life

"Shut up Aiden" I screamed ferociously at the dumb jock that was teasing me.

That's the problem with having an older brother on the basketball team, you suddenly get many more brothers whether you like it or not.

Hi my name is Spencer Carlin and if you haven't already guessed it I am in high school. My mom, dad and two brothers and me moved out here to L.A about 2 months ago from Ohio. My mom just got a new job working for a guy she dated in college, now if you were in my dads position wouldn't you be a little skeptical (he knows but he's just to naive to believe it). Anyways me and my brothers are now attending King High. This school is big enough to a college back in Ohio.

Let's just say in Ohio that i was not exactly voted most popular, prettiest, most likely to succeed, or anything for that matter, but this year I plan to change that "carpe diam" I think they say. Or maybe that was "viva la Vida"? Whatever all I know is that I will be making a name for myself soon enough.

Let me tell you a little more about my family. Yay! My favorite topic (psh not). Anyways I have grown up as a conservative Christian with conservative values as my mom would say. I just call them "paula's 3 step plan to drive your kids crazy"

Step 1: Terrorize your children at an early age and have them develop an irrational fear of their family.

Step 2: Restrict you children by limiting everything they do.

Step 3: (my favorite) Constantly tell your kids that they are not good enough.

In case you haven't picked up on my sarcasm, my mom and I do not get along too well. I don't know when it all went wrong, maybe it was when i realized I was different. No, i'm not talking about superpowers or anything, just the fact that I always seemed to be a little more aware of myself, if that makes any sense to you.

When I was about 11 I started to realize while all of my friends were developing their first crushes, I wasn't. I thought that maybe the right boy hadn't come along yet, and that soon I would start to see what they were talking about. Two years later that boy still hadn't come, but this girl had and she was beautiful. Her name was Katie and she was breath taking, in that moment I experienced every emotion my friends were talking about. I went home that night and cried because I didn't know what it all meant. About a week later I finally came ti grips with the fact that I was bi-sexual (i know what a lesbian cliche to think your bi first). Over the next couple of years I finally realized that I did not and would not ever have any feelings towards boys.

I have yet to come out to my family for fear of my mothers wrath (though how bad could it be). When the time and circumstances are right I will come out to my family but probably just my dad.

Now to tell you about my favorite person in the world, my daddy! I have considered coming out to him several times but he may tell the wicked witch of LA (Paula) aka my mom. Just wanted to make that clear.

My brothers are well brothers I love them both a lot. We adopted Clay when be was 5 and glen is one year older than me ( they are in the same grade). Glen is the all-star athlete in our family and Clay is the genius that will cure cancer someday.

And then there is little old me. The girl who has to live 3 lives. I have to be the smart good girl, with perfect manners around my family. The reliable strong-willed protector who is always there to cheer you up on the worst of days around my friends. Then there is the person that I am. I am strong minded and brave and all I want out of life is to be happy and most importantly find my soulmate, and I think her name might be Ashley Davies.

Tell me what you think guys. I am a fairly new reader only been reading for maybe 6 months but I have read my fair share of splashey. Tell me what you thing good or bad suggestions leave a comment!