"Naya…" I turned over on the bed to face Heather who was staring at me with a sad smile. My smile faded as I heard my name fall from her perfect lips. She had never said my name that way before and it scared the hell out of me. "We really need to talk." That was it. Those words I never wanted to hear from the girl I so desperately wanted to be with. "I'm all ears babe…" I saw her visibly cringe at me calling her babe. I wrapped the blanket around my bare chest and sat up looking at her. "I think we should stop this Nay. It's not fair to Taylor or to Matt or to you and me… You know I lov- "I cut her off. "Don't Heather. Just please don't do this…" My tears were already at the surface and if I blinked the tears would start flowing and I didn't want that because I know I wouldn't be able to stop. Her voice was laced with guilt and pain. "I have to, it's for the best. It's killing me to cheat on Taylor all the time. I am not a cheater Naya that's not who I am and that's not who you are either. There are all these speculations about us and Taylors getting suspicious and I love you but –"I got up slipping my sweats back on and pulling my sweatshirt over my head. "So you decided to send Taylor to Arizona to visit his family for a week, have me stay here, have sex day and night promising me you'd make a choice and break up with him by the end of the week but now you're here breaking this off with me? Three years we've been together and you're going to just let it all go? You don't even love him!" I felt like I couldn't breathe. My whole world was crashing down on me and by this time I didn't care if my tears were flowing down my face at a rapid pace. "Was this your plan all along? To just use me as a fuck buddy whenever he couldn't get you off then just throw me away when you're done!" She looked at me with tears falling down her face "Nay it's not like that… I do love you with all my heart! Don't ever question that! I'm not saying we should end things forever I'm just saying filming is over tomorrow and then we'll have our first summer vacation in four years and maybe that'd be a good time for us to take a break and just see where it goes from there and-"She came closer to me trying to grab my hands but I brushed her off. Not only was I incredibly pissed off at her I was also pissed off at myself for allowing myself to be the other woman. We were now yelling but I shook my head and spoke softly "Fuck you." As I turned to walk out the bedroom door I can only hear her soft sobs and her pleading voice asking me to stay a little longer so she could explain. I didn't want to hear it. She promised me so many times before that she'd break it off with Taylor. I knew she loved me more and that she was probably doing this because her mother was getting suspicious as well as Taylor. She knew Matt was just a beard for me. I never had interest in him but the staff thought it'd be good publicity for the show. I took one last look at the woman of my dreams then got in my car and sped off into the night."

I was lying down in my trailer playing over that scene in my head over and over again. How did it come down to this? It's the starting of season four and this would be the first time I'm seeing Heather in four months. After that night she called me over twenty times but I was too upset and drunk to answer. I was so deep in thought I didn't even hear Dianna walk in or even feel her tapping my shoulder until she spoke "Hun are you sure you're ready to do this? I could hold them off for another ten minutes so you can clean your face up, if you'd like?" I didn't even notice I had a tear stained face. "No…I'm ready." Dianna was my savior this summer. She's the only one who knows exactly what's been going on. She eyed me carefully before extending her hand "Let's go then." Everyone on set knew my relationship with Matt was just for the cameras but in this very moment I wish it wasn't so I can make Heather as jealous as I have always been when I saw her and Taylor being all lovey dovey. I took Dianna's hand and got up as she wiped my face she almost said it in a slight whisper as if she didn't want to hurt me, "She brought himtoday…" She knew never to say his name around me. I just shrugged and took a deep breath as I heard Zach bang on my door signaling that it's time for us to get on set. Dianna and I walked hand in hand on set as my heart broke all over again at the sight before me… Heather was up against the wall gazing lovingly up at him. Dianna leaned over and whispered "If she wants to shove this in your face then you can do the same. She wants to play dirty? Then so can we." I smirked at Dianna knowingly before she sat down and pulled me on top of her so I can sit on her lap. She wrapped her arms around my waist dangerously low and smiled up at me as she winked. Jenna as if she was on cue screeched my name and ran over to us making Heather look over at us. She looked confused as to why Dianna and I were so intertwined. Two hours later the shoot was ending and with every giggle or every move Dianna made Heather would send her best glare over in our direction. Suddenly all I wanted to do was to give Heather a taste of her own medicine so after Zach yelled "It's a wrap!" I laced Dianna and my fingers together and started to lean in. Dianna got the hint and wrapped her arms around my waist as her eyes flickered between my eyes and my lips as she started to lean in as well. I could feel those baby blue eyes burning a hole straight through me. I was only inches from Di's lips when Heather ran over to us and gently pushed Dianna away from me smiling like she was completely innocent. "Hey guys! Long time no see! I missed you!" She pulled Dianna into a quick meaningless hug then looked over to me, grabbed my arm and pulled me off to the side whispering in a harsh, serious tone. "What the fuck was that about Naya!" I rolled my eyes and tried walking away from her but she pulled me back, "Naya seriously please don't walk away. Are you two dating or something?" I looked at her in the eyes and saw a mixture of pain and jealousy. "Just tell me why you were about to lock lips with Dianna." She spoke Dianna's name like it was poison in her mouth. The same way I would say his name. I simply replied "Getting over you." as I walked away from the woman I was still so desperately in love with.