The wonderful Richelle Mead owns all the characters. I don't own any of it. I hope you enjoy it! So this takes place after Rose and Dimitri sleep together in Shadow Kiss. The attack didn't happen. Also in Frostbite Mase didn't die. I like him and think him being in this story eventually would be fun.

All Alone

I walked across campus to the gym feeling pretty good this morning. The brisk air brushed against my cheek, which made me feel refreshed even though I only woke up five minutes ago and at 6am at that. I mean I love spending time with Dimitri but seriously does he even sleep? I severely struggled to even get out of bed this morning and I've gone through seven alarm clocks this month. I arrived at the gym and glanced in searching for him. And god, he looked good. He sat against the wall reading one of those Western Novels again. I've seen him reading the same book five times this year. I mean that's just sad. He should really consider getting another hobby. However I did appreciate the view I got of him while he reads. Apart from the fantastic view of his muscled body I got while he reads he looked unguarded and open. I often struggled not to just watch him during our lessons. Anyhow, the grey t-shirt gripped his muscled arms while his workout pants once again showed off his godlike features. The chin length brown hair was tied at the base of his neck today and his dark brown catching eyes were never ending. These deep infectious eyes that could so often see straight into my soul. His chin was prominent and strong. While his lips were strung into a thin line this morning. However I knew they could be hard like when he argued or was angry but they could also turn soft like when he kissed. I realized I had been standing in the doorway staring at him for longer than was normal. Shit. I tried to bring myself out of this haze I was in and bring out some of my Rose Hathaway bravado.

"Hey comrade' I said in a sarcastic tone. 'Haven't you read that book enough times yet? I mean I'm starting to get suspicious of what actually captivates you about it? I wonder what the other guardians would say finding out you were reading something naughty…" I exclaimed as though I uncovered a scandal. He laughed. I wrapped myself around it, the sound making me feel content and relaxed.

" Oh Roza, I think they'd be more scandalized if they ever found a book in your possession" he replied dryly.

He stood up weirdly gracefully considering his height of six foot seven. He looked at me like his puppy was leaving for another family. Love, wistfulness and longing showed. His eyes turned sad almost pained for a couple seconds although it passed too quickly before I could read them fully before turning back to the expressionless one he so often wore.

" I'm pretty sure it would be more stunned if you didn't have one in your hands. But please tell me we're doing something other than running today." I pleaded hopefully.

Unfortunately we weren't. I was sent out to run 15 laps. This time Dimitri joined me slowing down his pace slightly to join mine. I breathed in his familiar intoxicating aftershave along side the crisp morning air. Which by the way smelled incredible. I felt lust simmer to the surface immediately. We glanced at each other while we thought the other wasn't looking. A few times we met eyes and a connection so strong, so powerful sent sparks through my body. His expression was melancholy but somehow joyful at the same time. At that moment the memory of last week in the cabin flashed through my eyes. While the sex alone was amazing, it also made me feel whole like I was finally home. It had also defiantly increased the connection between us. I loved him more intensely now and I always felt drawn to him. Always wanting to touch him but having to show restraint. Our connection wasn't only physical though; I just liked being around him. We understood each other even parts, which I didn't even know about myself. He also had the tenancy to point out things I didn't want to know. We finally finished our laps and retreaded into the gym. A thin layer of sweat covered both our bodies. I went over to the mats placed in the middle of the room and started my cool down stretches. After I finished I was packing my gear back into my bag ready to head back to my room for a shower. I glanced over to Dimitri who was putting the mats away when I noticed his posture and demeanor changed. He suddenly looked stiff and tense.

" Dimitri what's wrong?' I asked hesitantly. He turned to face me then and I was shocked at what I saw. His eyes were cold and distant. The eyes that held love and emotion from before were gone. His mask went up and I was unable to read his emotions. I was shocked by his sudden change in mood. A dread filled my body.

"I'm leaving the academy this afternoon. I'm going to be Tasha's guardian," he announced. I searched his eyes for something, anything. I was frozen. I was unable to think of something to say. He was leaving me. No.

"Wait what? I… I thought, you decided not to take her offer months ago? Why? " I responded robotically. My mind was sluggish.

" I think its for the best, last week was a mistake. It shouldn't have happened." He answered evenly.

My heart shrank. Last week was a mistake? Not everything I held so dear. I refused to believe it meant nothing to him. Sadness and despair washed over me clouding my thoughts. He can't leave. He loves me. I just had to remind him of that.

"No Dimitri, it wasn't a mistake. I love you! We can make this work. One of us can be reassigned. You don't need to leave. Please don't leave me". I said my voice breaking towards the end. I looked pleadingly into his cold eyes begging. This is a dream. Please let it be a dream.

" I'm sorry Rose. I just don't feel the same… I don't love you. Last week meant nothing." He said coldly.

I was shocked. Tears sprung to my eyes. He didn't love me. No. Please don't leave me. I took a breath trying to gain control of my feelings. Trying to comprehend everything he said. Anger fluttered to the surface.

" Are you fucking kidding me? So what you have one night and you throw me away like discarded trash?" I cried. I was furious. I just wanted to strangle him but at the same time kiss him. Something's defiantly wrong with me. He said nothing. Still looking at me with that cold aloof expression. He didn't care I realized. He didn't even look guilty. It wasn't like a one nightstand? Was it? How could he feel like that when it meant the world to me? My world shattered. Fury enveloped me.

" I'm happy for you I guess' I said nastily. 'I mean she'll give you fringe benefits right? You carry yourself around on your moral high ground but I didn't release it was on the same level as a whores? I guess your perfect for each other! You should go back to Russia to your disgraced family, ill bet you both will fit right in!" I said in a cold voice that even shocked me.

I turned around grabbing my bag and walked towards the door. I turned around releasing this will be the last time I see him. Everything came tumbling down. I nearly broke down but willed myself to be strong. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me weak.

"Have a nice life Guardian Belikov" I remarked. I turned around and didn't look back. Leaving him there with a cold disinterested expression on his face. As I walked away hurriedly back to my room I wiped at my check not realizing tears were falling heavenly. My entire world came crumbling down.

Okay that was my first chapter of All Alone. This is my first fan fiction. I've been reading everybody else's for 2 years and I wanted to write a story based on what I would want to read and have been searching for on here. I also want to write in character too. A few stories that I read, they are not like Rose and Dimitri at all. I want to capture Roses' wit etc. So any suggestions there would be helpful. I hope you liked it. Please comment and leave your opinions. They are appreciated.