1.13

I'm not scared of the dark. Not afraid

of the shadows, I know that the monsters aren't real –

well, maybe they are, but not that kind of monsters –

I've been

lots of places, some bad and some better,

new houses, new shadows, new nightlights to see by,

and you'd think that a kid would get scared but I didn't,

I wasn't afraid.

Not of that.

Wasn't ever.

I know dark in the cities

with my van in the alley, where the lights stripe the night

and the wheels whirr till morning. I slept

surrounded by bits of my life no one wanted –

was there

any

of my life

that anyone

wanted?

I saw a man falling, I searched for a story,

but when I turned around, it was you guys

who'd found me,

unexpected

so weird

and so wonderful

somehow.

In my bunk on the Bus, I could hear the soft engines

underneath as I slept. The dark wasn't empty – it's got voices,

and footsteps, back and forth in the hallway,

Simmons tells me "good night"

and turns the light out then, leaves the door cracked

for May to come later. It was almost

like being

at home –

or, you know, what I think that home's like – I'm just silly -

but I don't care if it's dark

if I know

someone's with me.

There was light

on the train, through the dirty glass window

of the baggage car – Fitz and I, we waited for orders.

The sun was bright in my eyes

when it was only us two, and we followed Quinn away because

no one else

knew –

and the comms were all down, and Simmons left sleeping

on the baggage car floor where we'd had to leave her…

Fitz said to be careful. Oh, Fitz.

I

was

careful.

I wasn't afraid – okay, I was – I was careful.

I hope you're okay, Fitz. I hope that we're all safe.

…Since when

was

it

"we"…

yes, us, me, you, S.H.I.E.L.D….

I don't care

if it's dark

if I know someone's with me.

I breathe

past the pain, there's blood on my fingers,

did I get the door open? Yes. The door's open,

but nobody's coming.

It's stupid

to think so…

Quinn doesn't care and Mike won't be looking…

Fitz better be miles from here if he's smart, now…

Okay, let's pretend

that the others are safe still –

I guess

Fitz will tell them I went in to search here,

guess they'll wait

and go back to the Bus in the end,

and wonder what happened, and why I'm not coming,

will they think

I betrayed them? Will they ever know

that I died here –

yes,

died here,

I know that I'm dying –

It's so cold here, the sunlight's all gone from the window.

Too hard

to keep breathing,

and now all is silent…

Because no one

is coming,

you're alone, Skye, alone now,

like you're always

alone

in the end,

in the dark now.

Who

ever

went looking

for you

even one time,

who tried to come find you…

And I hear the door open.

I thought

you were lost,

I

thought

you'd forget me,

like everyone forgot me,

but you came back to get me.

A voice

that I know, my name

like it matters,

a hand

on my face

as the last light is going...

I'm not scared

of the end

when

my friends

are around me.

I don't care if it's dark if I know

someone's

found

me…