ESMES POV

Alice have bin a more happier self after we got the news that Bella Swan was moving back to Forks, Edward was not. He was moping around kind of.

As a mother i was happy for Alice, and wised that edward could be to.

Edward never got along to well whit Bella last time she lived here. Thats because he never did know have to act around her. I and Carlels just to look after her when Charlie had to work late and that was a lot. Sow our home was like a second home for Bella

Many did see Bella as i extra kid in our family and Alice sometimes just to call Bella for the sister she never got. Sow that puts Edward in a strange situation, if what i think is right.

For Edward did not think of Bella in a sisterly way, and niter did Bella, i think and hoped.

I always did see Bella and Edward ending up together,

She would be good for him, and him for her. She was a dreamer and he was down to earth. She would dream and live in the air and he would out her down on earth when she needed to be hold down, but on the other hand her dream would end up to get him to try things none other would get him to try. She would get him to see the sun when he was drawning, and the best part she would never use Alice to get to Edward. I have seen sow many girls try to do that, Alice would get hurt and Edward would lock him self in his room and blame him self. He loved his sister and hated that anything he would do could hurt Alice.

Sometimes i think that Edward would just about anything for Alice, even if it ment that i would be miserable. Well except being friends whit Bella, or confess that he likes her. But than again i dont think he ever confess that to him self or again i could be wrong. Im just the mother, not Edward him self.

But whit have Edward had bin acting lately, it just made more and more sense.

He acts like he´s just thinking about Alice´s best interest, and yes Alice was hurt when Bella left and again when she understood that Bella wasn´t going to wright back. The weird part here is that Edward was hoping fore a longer time than Alice that Bella would actually wright her back. Like he couldn´t believe that Bella wouldn´t, and when he did give up hop he was moping around and no one could get him out of it. But after a same month he was kind of back to normal, Just like Alice kind of was. It was like Bella had taken a pice of bouth my kids whit her the night her mom come and she just got up and went to Phoenix.

The only thing i didn´t understand was why she didn´t even say good bye to at list Alice.

I know now why she did. six months after Bella left, Charlie stood at the door. He did not look goos, it like he hadn´t slept well in a long time.

He asked if he could come in and talk to Me and Carlisle, sow we did let him in. He started whit something like if we didn´t wont to hear we could just tell him to go. After we didn´t say anything to him, i he started whit have Renee one day just had stood at his door demanding that Bella was coming whit her. Charlie had said that it was up to Bella to say what she wonted. The next day, Renee had come again to talk to Bella and Charlie. She had then asked Bella to move to Phoenix whit her. Charlie had seen have hard it had bin fore Bella to chose, so he had said that she should go whit Renee. So that was what she had done. Charlie hadn´t ment to push Bella away, He wonted her to be whit him, but couldn´t say that. After she had left he had tried to contact her over the phone, but she would not talk to him. At first he had not understood why. But a week before he was at our door he had gotten to know that Bella didn´t think that he loved her and that he didn´t wont her anymore. That Charlie was happy that Renee had come to take her of his hands.

Then I also understood why Bella hadn´t said good bye, she just wonted to start over. That this was hurting Bella just as mach at it was hurting my kids. She hadn´t wonted to wright back to Alice, because she didn´t wont anything to remind her about Forks or Charlie.

That was also the night i promised something i wished i never had promised. I and Carlisle promised that we would not tell anybody about it. It sounds so stupid, but Bella had apparently told it to Renee and she to Charlie. Renee had promised to not tell anyone, but did think that Charlie had the right to know and Charlie again had promised, but did need someone to talk to. So bout had broken there promise, so why should we keep it? It would be easier for Alice and Edward to understand the hole thing, but the look in Charlie´s eyes was a good reason. And we were good at keeping our promises. So we hadn´t to now, sow why should we not keep it now? Now Bella could explain it her self and that was a lot better. I hop.

But what if Bella had changed? What if she didn´t wont anything to do whit my kids? What if she wasn´t the same Bella we all loved?

Could she had changed mach? could she just turn her back to Alice?

I just hop that every thing will turn out right.