Olivia woke up with a nauseas feeling, but brushed it off and got ready for work.

She took a shower and made some coffee.

When she took a drink of her coffee the smell instantly made her sick. Running to the bathroom empting the remains from last nights Chinese food.

The noise woke up Brian. When he realized the noise was coming from Olivia, he ran to the bathroom. He stood there for a second, but soon walks up to her and put her hair up for her and rubbed her back.

When she felt that she was done she sat up but quickly bent back over the toilet.

She felt like she just threw up her guts.

When she was finally done she sat up again, she looked up at Brain who help her up off the floor and got her some water.

She made her way back to the kitchen, she looked pitiful.

"Are you okay, Liv?" Brain asked.

"Yeah, nothing serious." Olivia said

"Maybe you should call in sick today."

"Brain, I can't do that, we are short staff and I'm in charge now."

"Babe, look I don't want you going into work, if-

He was cut off by Olivia yelling.

"Brain, I'm going to work wither you like or not, there is nothing wrong with me. And if it is, it's no worse than a stomach bug!"

He just stared at her in shock the same for her.

She didn't even realize she was yelling until she saw Brains face.

"Oh my, I'm so… so…rry." Olivia stood there in shock, with tears in her eyes.

"Um, it's o…okay."

She turned around and ran to their room and lock the door behind her.

Brain knew not to go and follow her. So he just left her alone in their room.

She soon emerged from their room, dressed and apologized then walked out.

Brain tried to stop her, but she was gone by the time he walked out.

He went back in, and got dressed, and ready for work.

Nick was staring at his partner/boss, as she was staring off into space.

"Hey Liv, you okay?" He asked.

She didn't answer, so he called her about two more times.

She finally looked up.

"Yea, what did you say?"

"I was making sure you were okay, you have been staring off into space."

"Oh yea, everything is fine."

"Ok, whatever you say", he said as he was getting up out of his chair.

She turned around looking furious.

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" Olivia asked in anger.

"Nothing Olivia, calm down" Nick said in confusion.

"Don't tell me to calm down, if you need to get something off your chest say it now!"

"Olivia." Nick said grabbing Olivia's arm, pulling her to the cribs.

"Don't you touch me." Olivia said, as she pulled her arm away from Amoro's grip.

"What has gotten into you Olivia, I think this promotion has gotten to your head."

"I think you should stop trying to figure out what's wrong and do your damn job!"

Olivia, I can't do that is your yelling at me all the time. Are you still going theropy?

You have no right to question my personal life detective, I think you're out of line.

Excuse me! Are you kidding? You have been off at the mouth since Cragen left and you what. I'm pretty tired of it. Nick said as he walk back to his desk.

Detective Amaro! Detective! Nick.

But he keep walking until he got to his desk and put his head in his hands.

Olivia just sat there dumbfounded when she came back to reality, and tears formed in the back of her eyes.

What is wrong with me! She asked looking up at the ceiling. She knew Nick was right.

When Olivia got home, the dinner table was set up romantically.

Brian walked behind her and started to take off her jacket, and kiss her head.

"Good evening, sweetheart." Brain said as he put her jacket up.

"This is so… beautiful Brain."

Well I hoping you would like it.

Well Brain, I…. Love…. it. Olivia said between kisses."

Brain kissed her back more passionately, the kiss continued and the space between them got smaller and smaller. Olivia's hand made its way from Brian's chest on down. Brian did the same to her back side.

"Are we going to skip dinner and go straight to dessert."

"Well I'm fine with that." Olivia said a with smile catching her breath from their passionate kiss.

"ok, let's get to it." He said as he picked her up and started for the bedroom.

Olivia instantly felt sick by the motion of Brian picking her up.

Brian, wait… let me go. She said as he put her down.

She ran to bathroom and emptied what she had left in her stomach from lunch.

Brian soon lost his appetite for Olivia but went to go support his girlfriend and started rubbing her back. Her hair was already in a messy ponytail, but he didn't bother to mess with it.

She sat up when she was done.

I'm so sorry Brian." Olivia said with tears in her eyes in the verge of tears.

"No baby, it's okay. Maybe you should stay home tomorrow Olivia."

"No, I can't. Please, Brian I'm not in the mood." Olivia said still on the verge of tears."

"Okay Olivia." Brian said still no wanting her to go to work tomorrow.

Olivia got up from the couch. "I'm just going to... uhh, go lay down."

"Go head babe, I'm going to go out the food up." Brian said as he stareted walking to the kitchen.

Olivia look and at him with sorry eyes and said "I'm so sorry" before walking into their bedroom and shutting the door.

Olivia just lied there crying herself to sleep, not understanding what was going on with her for these past few weeks.

She had gone off on Nick, and even went off with Cragen when he called her to congratulate on her promotion, he said "I know how long you've waited for this." And for some reason that just pissed her off.

She has been sick every morning and…..

"No!" she said in disbelief

She was late, she hadn't got her period this month.

But then again she was forty-eight years old.

It could be metapause.

She got up and started to walk out the bedroom, some time had passed and Brian was sleep on the couch so she got her jacket and walked out their apartment

Good evening ma'am, how are you on this fine beautiful night." The lady at the front desk said to Olivia.

"I… I'm fine, thank you."

"Will this be it for you to night?"

"Yes." Olivia said as she grab bag and walked out.

When she got home she couldn't wait and ran to the bathroom.

The comtion cause Brian to wake up and herd Olivia in the bathroom and was fully awake as he ran to the bathroom too.

Hey, Liv baby. You okay? Brian said and Olivia herd the concern in his voice.

"Yea, just using the bathroom." She said and Brian could hear that she was kinda of annoyed.

"Okay, just checking on you."

When she was done, she walk out of the bathroom in their bedroom and Brian was walking out of the one in the hallway in his towel, but when he looked up and saw Olivia he got scared and his towel fell from his waist.

Oh, I'm sorry that I scared you." Olivia said with a big smile on her face, then she looked brains body up and bit her bottom lip.

Brian picked up his towel and covered himself up but look at Olivia as she bit her lip.

"What are you thinking?" He said walking closer to Olivia.

Olivia just kept staring at his body, and Brian walked up to her and kissed her.

Olivia snapped out of her day dreaming and kissed him back.

They soon made their way to the bedroom making passionate love until 3am in the morning falling asleep in each other's hands.

Olivia woke up the next morning smiling as she felt the presences of Brian.

But soon realize that she had a pregnancy test waiting for her in the bathroom.

She got out of the bed slowly and quietly got out of the bed trying not to wake Brian up.

When Olivia got to their bedroom's bathroom she rushed over to the counter and look at the pregnancy tests in shock and confusion.

One of the pregnancy test were negative and two positive.

"What the hell." Olivia said to herself.

She didn't know what to think.

She threw them away and knew she had to go to the doctor, and quick.

"Good morning baby, how are you feeling?" Brian said with concern as he saw how pale Olivia was.

I uh… I'm gonna set a doctor's appointment today. I don't think I'm, uhh… uh, gonna go to work today."

"Do you want me to stay home with you, I can take off work. I think this is pretty serious." Brian was so concern about his girlfriend.

No, I think I just, um… I think I'm fine." Olivia said.

Okay well I'm going to head to work, call me after you get done at your appointment he said as he walked out. He tried to kiss Olivia but she back away.

He walked out the door Olivia tried her hardest to keep whatever she had left in her stomach down but the smell of his coffee made her feel sick again.

After she emptied the rest of her stomach she quickly made her doctor appointment and got ready to go. They let her come in first.

Olivia walked into the OBGYN feeling more nausea than ever before, she looked awful and she knew it to. She tried to hide with makeup but it wasn't working today.

"Hello Miss Benson, how are you this morning?"

"I'm doing fine." She said feeling like she was going to throw up at any moment, she tried not to talk as much but the lady at the front desk kept asking her questions.

So you're here for an ultrasound correct? The lady look up from her computer with the list of clients coming in today.

Ye….. Olivia ran to the bathroom and emptied the few eggs she had this morning.

The lady at the front desk ran behind her to make sure she was okay.

Are you okay Miss Benson? They young lady asked.

Olivia she shook her head yes as she continued to throw up the rest of whatever was left in her stomach.

The Young lady left Olivia to be alone and to get herself cleaned up. Afterwards Olivia stepped out of the bathroom and the lady at the front said that the doctor was ready.

Hey, where is Liv? Nick asked getting a little worried.

I have no clue Fin returned back to nick.

Hey guys, Amanda said as she walked into the squadroom.

Hey, they sad in unisin.

Have you seen or talked to Olivia? Fin asked

Yea, she said she has a doctor's appointment and will be back tomorrow. You know, it has to be pretty serious if she is taking the day off. Amanda said as she went to go sit at her desk.

Yea, it does. Maybe I should call her later. Fin said as he looked over to Olivia's desk.

Olivia Benson, haven't seen you in a while the doctor said as he look at her information sheet.

And it says here that you are getting an ultrasound.

Olivia nodded yes.

Well let's get to it. The doctor said as he put his gloves on.

Well first we are going run some blood and then do the ultra sound.

Olivia nodded again.

You know, you don't talk as much as you use to.

She just shrugged her shoulders; she knew if she was to talk she would throw up everywhere.

A nurse came in and took her blood and soon after that he started the ultrasound.

This gel is going to be a little cold he said before rubbing it on her belly.

She jumped at the cold feeling.

She looked up at the screen she was definitely pregnant but how far along was she because the baby already had legs and feet and arms and hands.

The doctor looked up at the screen and then at Olivia. Are you sure you didn't know you were pregnant.

She nodded her head yes.

Well you are about 4 months. The doctor said.

She just looked at him like he was crazy.

"I don't think that's possible, I have had my period for the past two months.

I did miss it last month but i was late this month.

The doctor just stared at her as if she had two heads.

"Well I'm going to look for a heartbeat" the doctor said putting on new gloves on.

The doctor started to rub her belly with the gel and scan thing.

The doctor kept circling around her stomach but couldn't find a heartbeat, but he could see the baby on the screen but it wasn't moving anymore.

"Miss Benson, I umm… I can't find a heartbeat." The doctor said with a frantic face.

What are you talking about you can't find a heartbeat, the baby is right there. There has to be a heartbeat?!

I um… we are gonna have to run further test.

So, do I have a dead baby inside of me? It's that what you're going to be running test on?

The heart beat could just be weak, just because I cant I find it doesn't mean the baby is dead Miss Benson.

Olivia just lost it.

STOP CALLING ME THAT, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST CANT CALL ME OLIVIA, AND JUST TELL ME IS THIS BABY IS DEAD OR NOT.

The doctor stayed calm and said, Olivia the heartbeat could be weak even though you're at high risk because of your age.

Olivia was about to yell but caught herself.

Do I need to do the test today?

No, not unless you want to.

I um, I would like to seclude for a different time.

Ok, well the nurse will talk to you at the front desk.

After that he left Olivia to be alone.

She cleaned her belly off and put her shirt down, but before she did she look at the mirror that was hanging on the wall. Her belly was actually getting a little bump. How could she not notice that?

She secluded an appointment for Saturday morning and made her way home.

When Olivia got home she went to the bed and cried herself to sleep, she wanted to be held by Brian but of course he was at work like she should have been.

When Brian got home he went to their bedroom to find Olivia sleep on the bed with the cover off the couch over her.

He tried to be as quiet as possible, not to wake her.

But then he dropped his bag and made a big noise and Olivia jump up out of her sleep and held her gun from under her pillow at Brian.

Gosh Brian, you scared the hell out of me. Olivia said trying to stay calm.

I'm sorry baby. Brian said sympathetically.

Olivia looked up at Brian and remembered how much she needed him today.

She just broke down in hysterical cries.

Brian ran over to her and just held her in his arms, even though he was confused.

Olivia are you okay?

Olivia just kept crying and Brian just held till they went to sleep.

Olivia woke up the next morning rushing to the bathroom to empty he stomach and woke up Brian.

Brian did the usual and rubbed her back till she was done.

Are you going to work today? Brian asked.

No, I think I'm going to stay home today. Olivia said as she got up.

Can you please stay with me, please? Olivia said with pleading eyes.

Brian thought he was going to break down in tears when he looked into her eyes.

Of course I will baby. Brian said as he hugged her but let her go so he could call Tucker to let him know he wasn't coming in.

Hello? Tucker said?

Hey, it's Brian I just wanted to let you kn-

He was cut off by Tucker.

I know who it is Brian, I have caller I.D.

Oh, well I wont be coming into work today bec-

He was cut off yet again by Tucker.

Is that a question or a statement?

I um, I ju-

You are coming into work today because we need you.

Olivia is sick I need to be here to take care of her.

Olivia is a grown woman, she can take care of herse-

I'm her boyfriend and I will be here for