Okay, okay. I say I'm busy but I can't stop writing during my off time. Thing is, I have no idea what to write, so you can send in your requests! I do any pairing~ keep your requests T-rated though. So drop your prompts via review because I'd freak if my inbox gets swamped. Ahem. First up is HetaQuest related!

A drabble I did a while back after finishing Feliciano's chapter. There might be spoilers! Meanwhile, I'll wait for sub updates and idly wonder about Yong Soo…

001: Watching Me Fade

At first, I thought it was a great idea. Something like, I don't want Lud to worry, so why not I get him to do my work! Ludis my best friend after all, and I thought this job would be like any other, even though I got killed. And success! Lud didn't notice a thing, and he would be able to do his side of the job smoothly. Being the envoy and prince was important!

Then I heard the prophecy.

Everything went downhill from there, I think. I would see Kiku, Lud and Italy having adventures I would never experience. They had each other's back, and even though they were tired after their battles, they could still smile and have fun. They met Peter, whom I think they slowly taught that he should try to make things work between he and his father. When that woman told us about her siblings, I thought it was both heartening and sad that they would do so much to bring her back.

Despite being dead, there would be no peace for us.

Gilbert told Italy what I had never asked before; the reason why he and Lud were Users of the Black Jewel. From that point onwards, I started to feel like I was drifting away somehow. I dismissed it. This wasn't like me, to brood over things like this. I'm the happy-go-lucky Feliciano Vargas! Nothing could change that!

I just wish I could do more to help Lud, especially upon knowing he had voices in his head because of the Jewel.

I have to say I was so happy to see fratello again! Remembering how he was when we were younger were so fun to tell, I could forget I was sad! And I could paint again too! Through Italy, but still. I regret I can never finish that drawing, but what could I do?

Rescuing Toni, saving the Lady Zira, trekking through the desert to Kyuret onwards… it really was fun. But to tell Italy the promise Lud made to me… I just couldn't. If I told that, there would no longer be a Feliciano Vargas. But I'm still here! Even though I'm dead and just a mere ghost, I still existed! There is and was a Feliciano Vargas, and I would never give that part away…

I really wanted to be beside Lud, to tell him I was still here, but my words could no longer reach him. Is it so bad I wanted to hold on to that small part of me…?