Chapter One: The Reunification of Always and Forever
I do not own any of the characters. Characters are owned by FOX
This is my first fanfiction ever so I would really like your thoughts and whether I should continue
Songs: Lean on Me by Bill Withers
"What if we can't make it in New York Finn? What if we drift apart and stop loving each other?" Rachel whispers through the silent tears running down her face. "Hey, look at me", he turns her away from the window, "It might not be easy and maybe we won't be this way forever but listen to me when I say that I promise you I will never stop loving you. I haven't stopped now and I won't stop if it is in 50 years or even after death. I love you Rachel and I know that not only will I love you forever. I know I will be there through the struggles and the joys…through it all." She kisses him passionately and after a few moments forcefully pulls away to say one thing. "I love you too. Always and forever." They spent the rest of the day snuggled up watching the first half of avatar before slowly drifting to sleep in each other's arms. She couldn't be happier.
7 years later…
"Mama, where is my baskey-ball?" Sean asks as he sits with Rachel on the couch watching Barney. She thought it was adorable how he could never say the word no matter how many times she corrected him. It reminded Rachel of Finn, which made her sad, and cry hopelessly in the lonely nights spent in her bedroom. She quickly jumped out of her thoughts, "I think it is in your room sweetie but we should probably get going. You want to go see Aunt Quinn and Max at the park right?" "Yay!" he screamed, "Let's go." She stared at her 5 year old superstar and wondering how her life came from falling madly and passionately in love with Finn Hudson to raising their child by herself in a four-floor walk-up in New York.
Playing in Central Park with her son made her feel the best she could because she loved this child more than anything. Although sometimes, especially when Sean developed an interest in sports, she felt a dash of sadness course through her body as she felt the heart and mind of his father and the love of her life slowly arising from the character of her son. When Sean yelled about the game, "Just let go mama" she jolted back into the memory of her past.
6 years ago…
"How could we do this Rachel? How can we have a child when we are 20? This cannot be happening. Are you keeping it?" Finn screams as he paces up and down the foyer of their apartment. Rachel sat down on the windowsill chair because she was tired and emotional. "We can get through this Finn. I know it wasn't what we expected right now but I want to keep the baby and raise him or her with me as his mom and you as his dad" she explained. Finn responded with an angry tone "What if we can't do it? Do you really want to risk damaging the baby's future with us as parents?" "If that is how you feel Finn, maybe you should leave and we should end things right now" Rachel said sternly with a light tear brushing off her face. "Rachel, think about this. We're not ready. Just let go Rach of all of this." "Please leave Finn. Now" Rachel sobs as she opens the door. Finn walks to the door but stops "Always and forever right?" As soon as he leaves, Rachel cries uncontrollably with the biggest weight in her heart. She had lost the love of her life and would raise a baby by herself. She cried herself to sleep for 5 months but knew she had to remain strong for her baby because she was not giving up.
Now…
"Honey it is time to go", Rachel says as Sean throws the football Max brought with him. "One minute, please?" Sean begs. Quinn and Rachel sat on the bench as they looked at the two most important people in their lives. Quinn notices the sadness in Rachel's eyes as she stares at Sean. "You thinking about Finn?" Quinn asks as Rachel turns to face her. "Sean is becoming more and more like him everyday. I feel like Finn is fading further away from my memory but I still have Sean to remind me of that love I had for who he was and how he was everyday. I feel like it is a ghost of the past hanging on my back through my relationship with my son" she confesses. "You know it isn't easy to let go but it will get better. You want to know how I know that. Because you have the most beautiful son who will be there at every step of the way", Rachel turns back to her son and smiles. "Thanks Quinn. I'll see you tomorrow. Come on buddy we have to go". She hugs her best friend and walks hand in hand with her son through the lake in Central Park as they returned home.
As they walked back home, Sean asked his mom to sing him a song while they were walking. She started to sing as Sean leaned closer on his mom's shoulders.
Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you won't let show
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load you need to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me
Call me
Call me
Call me
Call me
Call me
Call me
Call me
As she sang the last few notes, she began to hear Sean yawn and knew that in five minutes, Sean would be in full sleep mode. Rachel carried her son and walked the rest of the way home with her son asleep in her arms. As she checked her phone for messages, Rachel was forced to look up after colliding with a tall, large man standing with his hands in his pockets. "I am so sorry. Are you okay?" Rachel asks with concern. "Yeah I'm fine." As he looks up from his phone Rachel drops hers as she faces her biggest fear. "Finn". Finn stared into those sweet hazelnut eyes and knew exactly who it was without needing to look anywhere else. "Rachel…" Finn leaned closer before seeing a young boy in her arms and suddenly, his heart froze.