Let the world be exciting,
and let it unravel in the way it wants to
with debonair style and stinging wit
because Paige hates remembering that,
deep down, the world is not her oyster:
she is beguiling and buxom and bold
but not part of the elite anymore:
her life has turned upside down
after leaving college.
Her days of perfectionism and elitism
have dissipated in a trail of smoke,
and she is no one but Paige Michalchuk,
something she fears she isn't quite so sure of.
She still likes many of the same things from high school,
Like fashion and gossip
pretentious coffee table art books and music
But some interests, she cultivated in college,
like the idea of running a business
and crafts.
Rebuilding herself from the bottom up
is hell, because she knows herself
well enough to know that
the shade of loneliness she wears
isn't one she enjoys wearing
so she dives into the world of adulthood,
where everything seems a little less rosy
but there's the freedom to enjoy the world
without the barriers of immaturity,
and how to cope without being the Queen Bee
(it's hard to shed an image you've obsessively
cultivated for four years).
She walks on a path that only she can walk on:
self-awareness and acceptance;
it will be difficult, but it will be rewarding.