Uke:I don't want to ramble on for my first ever post on this new account

karou:then get on with it

Uke:what crawled in your pants and died

koaru: just start the drabble already

Uke: fine...geez you'd think someone died

Karou: -_- not funny.

(karou's P.O.V)

rember when i said 'when he wants to take that first stepon his own i wont know what to do',I was right. It's beenabout 2 weeks since school let out for the summer,and already hika & haruhi have gotten really close, i mean really close. I'm sure hika's in love. Don't get me wrong I'm really happy for them,really I am , but lately i feel like hika dosen't need me any more. that's why i'm here razor poised above my wrist, not that i would normally do this but i can't handle hika not needing me that thought gave me the drive to sink the razor down onto my wrist letting me bite into my pale unmarked skin. it hurt really hurt but the blood looks pretty so i watch in horrified facination.

"goodbye hika",i mutter to no one in particular, "and haruhi take good care of him." I started feeling light headed when i heard a door open with my dwindling strength I turned my head to see hikaru, but I was to weak to say anything, I blacked out.

when I woke up I realsied i was in a white room the light almost blinded me. I tried to move my arms to block the sudden lights' intrusion into my eyes my left arm flew to block the horrid light, but my right arm stayed where it was so i followed my arm to see a sleeping hikaru. I shook him a little and he woke up when he registered my face he started violently sobbing.

He said " kao-kao I-I-I thought I lost you forever"

I was suprised that he actually cared "where am I?",I questioned.

He anwserd with "in one of kyoya's hospitals, why would you leave me kao-kao".

"Because were drifting apart and I couldn't take it anymore" I said trying my damndest to avoid his gaze.

"what are you talking about?",he looked confused but i couldn't figure out why.

"you and haruhi I know it's okay",I said tears welling up in my eyes.

he sighed , "haruhi is a really close friend but I only want to do this to you".

As i contemplated what 'this' could be He got up leaned over my and brought our lips together in a gentle kiss, it felt so wrong,so right, so...good. i never wanted it to stop he slid his tounge over my bottem lip asking for permission which I happly gave him we stayed that way untill we needed air.

"So were not drifting apart?",stupid question but i needed to know.

"No we'll never drift apart." he leaned oovr me again and we spent the entire night...you know I think i'll leave that to your

Uke: why do i feel the sudden urge to squeel

kaoru:because you wrote this

Uke:ya i guess

Karou:you read

Uke: now review

a/n: I wrote this like 3 monts ago and i felt it needed to be uploaded sorry if it seems to cookie cutter angsty.(no pun intended)