Chapter 1
"Hey Bella" I hear my coworker from across the room say "Yeah" "Hey, I am going on lunch, do you think you could have the new guy, Edward sit with you a little bit while I am gone?" I look up and my heart almost stops, standing by my desk is the most adorable looking guy that has EVER stood by my desk. I mean seriously what did I do right or maybe even wrong to be able to train this guy? I literally want to run into my boss's office and hug her or slap her because this guy has made my stomach have instant butterflies and the giggles..what is wrong with me? I mean he is a really beautiful looking guy and you see them in the movies all the time but whoever expects one to actually walk into your job? Like an angel from Heaven?
"Yes, he can sit with me for awhile" I try to say as nonchalantly as I can. He smiles at me and asks where can he plug in at? I look at him like, what did you just say? And he lifts up his phone jack. My goodness Bella, you've got to get it together! I tell myself, he just wants to plug his phone in so he can listen to your calls. You're acting like you've never done this before. He laughs and it's a great laugh and I know I am a goner.
So what? a handsome man is sitting with me, so what? that I am extremely attracted to said man, so what's the problem you might ask? Well, my "problem" is my husband of 10 years, Jacob. I know what you are thinking, why is it a problem? You haven't done anything wrong. I know that but my marriage is not doing so good right now, we've hit a little bump in the road. I don't know why, we just have. It seems like our lives are going in opposite directions right now, we don't really do anything together just us anymore, we have a son that is 6 and we do family things together but a lot of the time, if I am being honest, with you, even with myself, Jacob will take Cody places when I am going out with my girlfriends or I have a work related meeting and then I will take Cody when Jacob is off on his business meetings and trips. It's almost a marriage of convenience now. It's really sad, but what do you do?
So, this brings us back to the moment at hand. I have thought others were cute, sure! But the moment I saw this guy I feel the instant connection and this flesh and blood, warm bodied man is now sitting next to me, making me giggle like a freaking school girl.
Thankfully we are surrounded by all our co-workers, this should help to keep me sane. I start going over what we do in our department, he seems to be listening and then he asks me a question that I am so not prepared for "what kind of movies do you like?" It's an innocent question, I know that but it's also personal. "Um, well I like action movies, dramas, romance ya know" "I am a big fan of the comic book movies, like Spiderman, Batman, The Avengers, have you seen any of those yet?"
"Well, I saw Spiderman and loved it, I know a lot of people thought it was too romantic but I really liked it" He smiled "I thought that's what was so endearing about the movie, I liked the romantic part of it, because that is how the comics are."
This is how our conversation goes, flowing back and fourth like a river, ebb, flow, give, take and as it does it leads to more personal conversation till we are making plans to go to the movies with our co-workers. Everyone is invited.
My co-worker, Rose comes back from her lunch and advises me that she has a meeting now and that Edward needs to stay with me. My heart does a little jig and I say "ok, cool. That's fine" I look at Edward and he says "Oh, yeah that's totally fine with me too." and he looks at me, did I mention that his eyes are this beautiful green and when he looks at me when we are talking it's like he is looking into my soul. Wow, I am so dead!
Our day continues, in pretty much the same fashion, talking with Edward is so natural. I catch him staring at me throughout the day, at first I think that I am imagining this electrical current that is running between us but then one of my other co-workers, Walter comments on it. I realize it's not in my head and that I better try to reel it in.
Edward is being sent on a business trip and I think this is good. Out of sight, out of mind. Who am I kidding? Absence makes the heart grow fonder is more like it! Half of the time that he is gone, I am out of town too, when I come back he is still gone. I casually ask my boss when will Edward be coming back? She tells me he will be back on Thursday and she wants him to resume sitting with me but for him to do the work and for me to listen. And stare at him, wait no! Listen only Bella.
The day he returns to work is the best day ever! He walks over to my desk and my heart skips a beat. I begin to wonder what happens when your soul mate walks into your life and it's not your husband of 10 years? What happens when your soul mate is 11 years younger than you? And you begin to wish that you were born in 86 instead of 76? What do you do? What do I do?
When I am with him it's like breathing. He is amazing, funny, sweet, soft spoken, the most caring, gentle person, and did I mention beautiful. When he stares in my eyes while we are talking I kind of stop breathing and want to reach out to just touch his face. I want to put my hand on his chest to feel his heart beating. When he smiles the whole room lights up! I am falling hard and fast and I can't fully give myself to him and I am being such a silly, silly woman because I don't even know his feelings for me.
What I do know is that my day doesn't start until I hear him come in. I hear his "Good morning Bella" and I know it is going to be a good day.
My soul is longing for his, my heart wants to be his, my lips want to kiss his, I want his hands to caress me, I want to feel his hands on my arms, I want to feel them on my back. I want to tumble backwards onto a bed with him laughing and kiss till we have to come up for air. I want to explore his body and learn all about him. I want to feel the scruff of his face on my back and stomach. I want to feel his warm fingers caressing the inside of my thigh. I want, I want, I want.
After a month of intense flirting he asks everyone if they want to go to the movies on Friday night, but I know that it's so we can see each other outside of work.
We meet outside the theater, we are the first ones here, we are both about an hour early. "Edward, what time did you tell everyone else to be here?" He just smiles and suggests that we go for a walk and takes me by the hand. He takes me to the side of the theater where not many people go, as we turn the corner, I feel myself moving quickly, being pushed up against the wall and being kissed the way a woman needs and desires to be kissed. I can't breathe and my hands are in his hair. His hands are everywhere, my arms, my face, my back and finally they slowly caress the sides of my breasts and I can feel myself react. I hear a moan and realize that it's me. He pulls away and looks at me and I giggle. "Are you OK?" "Edward, I am more than OK, you have woken something in me that has been missing for a long time." He smiles and gently kisses my forehead.
"Bella, I know that it's not fair of me to have done that to you but I just had to know what it would be like, just once". A single tear slips down my face and he reaches out to catch it. "Why, are you crying?" "Because I know that if just can't go past what just happened, I want more, I want to feel you laying next to me, I want to feel what it's like to be with YOU!" I reach up and pull his face down to me. I kiss his beautiful lips, tasting him and when he slips his tongue onto my lips, I open up to him willingly as our tongues taste each other. I can't tell who's moans are louder. His hands slowly go up the back of my top, when he hesitates at my bra strap, I slowly caress the front of his pants, he takes that as a big invitation and unclasps my bra, his hands come around to the front of my shirt, he slowly and deliberately starts to make his way to my breasts. His fingers are long and perfectly warm, he takes one of my nipples between his fingers, I start to shiver. He presses his body into me for the first time I can feel how his body is being affected. His free hand travels down to the top of my jeans, all I can say is "please". He slowly unbuttons my jeans and I feel his fingers slipping into the top of my panties and I start to writhe against them. As one of his fingers dips into me I gasp at the warmth and intensity. We start to kiss and my hand goes to his pants, I need him, I need to feel him, inside me. I need to fill the emptiness. I take him in my hand and he feels perfect, smooth, warm, big and hard. He moans into my mouth and starts to push me towards the bushes. Am I really about to do this? Am I about to actually make love to him because that is what it will be, making love, I love this man and this may be the only time I ever get the chance. I am going to take it.
We momentarily pull away from each other and the coolness of the night is all around us. He takes his jacket off and lays it on the grass. He lays me down on it. His eyes are hooded and he looks drugged, I know that I am. He slowly pulls my panties down, as I work on his pants. He is so beautiful, I want him in me and I can't stand it. He spreads me open and I feel the coldness of the night mixed with the warmth of him between my legs. "You are so ready for me" I can't say anything so I take him in my hand and guide him. He thrusts deep and long into me, I have to clap my hand over my mouth to keep from screaming out his name. I come up to meet his second thrust, as he puts his hands under me and pulls me up. He starts slowly but I know how hard it is to stay that way. He starts to thrust harder, I pull him into me with my feet on his ass because I don't want him to pull out. I want to feel him come inside me. He looks me in the eyes "are you sure" as he starts to shiver and shudder, "Yes, I am sure", one last thrust and we are rocketing off the earth together. He smiles "I can feel you, all around me" I laugh and kiss him hard. I start to cry, "I love you" he whispers and I nod in return. His breath is shallow and I can feel his heart pounding against my breasts. I don't want this to end, I want to lie like this forever but I know that we have friends waiting for us. He gets up and we quickly get dressed. He starts laughing because I have grass stains on the back of my shirt. How do we explain those? I need a jacket and I certainly cannot show up wearing his. We run back to my car and I grab my jacket.
When we get back to the theater everyone is there already, "Where were you guys?", "We didn't think you were coming" Edward and I look at each other and smile, "Oh we were coming alright" he says and I feel my whole body blush. My friend Alice looks at me like she knows something but doesn't want to say anything. We walk into the theater and as I go ahead of Edward he rests his hand on the small of my back. I turn around to look at him, as if to tell him he's got to move it but it's too late, he's been seen. Alice grabs my hand and pulls me to the side.
"What's going on?"
"Nothing, what?"
"Don't nothing what me!, I saw what I saw, he had his hand on your back!"
"So"
She looks at me like I've become some sort of raving lunatic. "Bella, when a man puts his hand in that location of your back it's not nothing, it's a very intimate location"
"Alice, I don't know what you are implying but I don't like your tone." I have never been snippy with her before but it makes her back off.
"Bella, I hope for your sake and your husbands it was just nothing." I smile at her "Let's go in, the previews are about to start and you know that I love previews."
When we get back into the theater there are only two seats left, one next to Edward and one next to my friend Tyler. Alice looks at me to see where I will go. I have to decide quickly but thankfully Edward makes the decision easy for me, "Bella, sit here with me, I bought a large popcorn and we can share it." I smile and head to the seat next to him, I can hear Alice's "tsk, tsk" under breath, but at this point I really couldn't care less.
As soon as the lights dim in the theater I can feel Edward's hand at my leg. I quickly look at him and can see the love and desire in his eyes for me. I blush and know my life will never be the same.