I've seen a lot of "Severus goes back in time" fics but not a lot of "Lily goes back in time" fics. This is my version of that, the first few chapters will be just Lily, then she'll get her chance to change things. So tell me if you like it, what I should change, blah blah blah. PM me with suggestions!
She placed her baby, her son, into his crib and turned bravely to face the man who threatened her child. She saw him mouth the words but she couldn't hear what he said, before long the room filled with a green light and she was lying on a floor. First thing she did was take in her surroundings, everything was so white. So white in fact she almost felt a headache coming on, 'Wait a second, I thought I died. I shouldn't be able to get headaches in death. That's just totally unfair'. Next thing she realized was that she was naked, when she tried to cover herself up with her hands and arms some fresh robes appeared in front of her so she carefuly stood up and drapped herself in, what she was considering to be, the warmest most comfortable robes she had ever felt.
As she tried to look around she realized she was in King's Cross Station, or what appeared to be a shell of the station. No people, no trains, no rubbish on the walkways. Quite nice actually. If she wasn't dead already, what she saw next would have almost killed her, "Dad!", she ran into her father's arms, having not seen him in three years she hadn't realized how much she missed him.
"Dad! What are you doing here? Are you supposed to lead me on? What about Harry! Oh dad, I wish you could have met him. I named him after you, Harry James Potter. He's just lovely daddy." So many questions were sprinting out of her mouth at once while tears streamed down her face, her dad began to answer them without letting her go from his fierce hug and rubbing gentle circles on her back,
"Well sweetheart, you've died unfortunately. You've sacrificed your life for your son, and thankfully he's alive. I've seen him love, he's just so handsome. Oh how I've missed you my Lily, but we need to talk first." Harry Evans removed his daughter from his strong hold and looked at her with a seriousness he rarely possessed with his little girl.
"You see dearest that man, Voldemort, he killed James and then tried to kill you but because you sacrificed yourself for your son, Harry lives. This is the afterlife, it is what you make it. I'm here to escort you onwards." Harry Evans said softly.
"Dad, can I go see Harry before we leave? Please" There was a mix of begging and sadness in Lily's eyes, as if finally realizing what was going on.
"Lily, I'm not sure you really want to do that right now, plus we can view the ones we love from where we are going" Harry almost seemed to be pleading with his daughter.
"What do you mean, what's going on right now? Just please, let me see him!"
Lily turned around and saw a pensive about 5 feet to her left and walked towards it, she had experienced the feeling of being sucked into a memory before. Professor Albus Dumbledore had taken a few members of the Order of the Phoenix into some of Tom Riddle's memories so they could get a better grasp of what they were doing. The sensation wasn't new but what she saw was completely unexpected.
She saw her baby in his crib with a lightning scar on his forehead, she went to touch him and just like everything in a pensieve memory she just went right through him. Not being able to touch him was worse than being dead, she heard someone coming up the stairs and was hoping someone had arrived to take her son away. She turned to look at the door way and saw one Severus Snape stumbling into the room.
He collapsed at the sight of her dead body, he was barely breathing as he gently brushed some of her hair from her face and was almost convulsing from crying so hard.
Lily had no idea what to do, she hadn't seen him in years and here he was grieving so fiercely at the sight of her. She sunk to the floor next to him as he let out scary almost, soulless howls of anguish. Lily carefully placed her hand on top of his head as so many questions ran rampant through her mind, 'Why was he doing this, why was he so sad, oh Sev what's wrong' she had long given up on their friendship, on saving him from the darkness that called him. She was able to guess that he fancied her as children, but never thought it was this serious. If she was honest with herself she had been in love with this man since they were 11 years old, he introduced her to this world. He was the only one from before her new life of magic that she remained friends with. Unfortunately going to Hogwarts was the worst thing for their friendship. Eventually he called her that horrible word, but she had forgiven him for that long ago. She knew he joined the Death Eaters, but still continued to read the paper for his name. She heard from Professor Slughorn earlier the previous month that he was retiring and that Severus was taking his job as Potions Master and head of Slytherin House. This confused her greatly, surely a man as powerful and intelligent as Dumbledore wouldn't be fooled by Severus Snape, he wouldn't allow a Death Eater to join the ranks of professors at Hogwarts. It didn't take her long before she was able to put two and two together.
About a month or two after she became pregnant with Harry, her and James were put into hiding from 'intelligence' they received from inside Voldemort's camp. Dumbledore had said that a very reliable source had told him that their lives were in danger, that they must sneak away from the world for a while so he could figure out what to do next. He continued to gain information that eventually led to him admitting he had a spy amongst Voldemort's inner circle.
It was obvious after hearing Slughorn's news that Severus Snape was the man relaying Dumbledore the information. He was the one who had asked Dumbledore to keep her family safe, he was probably going to Hogwarts on his master's orders. It was obviously some great game the three of them were playing, with Severus in the middle.
Now seeing him, so torn up over her death, it was also obvious he loved her too.
All characters belong to the wonderful JK Rowling, I'm just borrowing them for a bit!
A lot of this was taken from the Prince's Tale and from King's Cross chapters of the Deathly Hallows.
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