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I would have to say I began to think this since terra died since I couldn't save her I began to feel weak as if though I couldn't do anything I was the weakest member on the team every one was better than me and had something to add to the team

Robin was the leader who brought hope to every one on the team you could even say I looked up to him

Cyborg besides being my best friend he was the genius who could build anything

Starfire was the kind alien girl who could fight and was stronger than even Cyborg or any transformation I have.

And Raven what can I say about her well she was the strongest member on the whole team and is the daughter of the devil not that I mind it just made me admire her even more for being able to fight for good even though she has to live with that her whole life

Well enough about what I think about the team I bet you want to know where I am and why I'm not with the team well it started about 6 months ago when I was alive yes I'm dead but I hold no regrets about how I died I'll tell you how it happened.

6 Months ago

It was a normal day in the Titans Tower. Cyborg was cooking some kind of meat that only he would know what it was, Starfire was watching some show about fungus that no one wanted to watch with her Robin was training in the Gym for god knows how long and Raven was in her room.

Then there was me I was in my room too but I didn't have a reason to come out this time I just felt like I wanted to be alone to think about this weird feeling I've been having like some thing bad was about to happen and as soon as I thought that the alarm began to ring

"Who is it this time" I wined everyone ignored me and they all seem to have a exertion of dread on there face.

"It's Slade" said Robin with the most serious face and angry voice that I haven't seen in a while. "WHAT!!!!" I screamed "why does he have to come back why can't he just leave us alone!" "Well if I did leave you all than who would you have to keep you on your toes a beast boy" He said as the screen of the common room came to life with Slade on it

"What do you want this time Slade" said Raven in her monotone voice "well….. I just wanted to let you know that I have a new device that you may want to stop me from using" as he said that he showed a giant leaser that was pointing to the ground while he was holding the donator in his hand "you see titans this laser is going to allow me to start up that volcanic activities that Terra had stopped I hope you can not disappoint me we'll be in touch" when he finished saying that the transmission was cut

"If Slade sets off that machine then the whole city will be destroyed!!" "I know Cyborg!!! Don't worry we will stop him no matter what"

"Well we can't if we don't know were he is first" said Raven in a board voice but really she was worried really worried.

"It's a good thing I still remember his sent if I could just get a little smell than I could find him…..THAT'S IT!!!!! Robin do you still have that old mask that belonged to Slade"

"I believe so let me check" he said as he ran out of the room to go find it. And through out all of this Starfire had not said a word about anything it also seemed that she did not want to talk about it and no one wanted to say anything we could tell she was a little sacred about fighting Slade again hell we all were but we had to suck it up no one else was going to stop him so we have to.

"Found it" said Robin as he came running in the room and out of breath "here smell it or do want ever you can to find him Beast boy" I took the mask and began to smell it until I got a smell "Found him" I said "were is he" said everyone "he's at an abandon building in the middle of town"

"Ok Titans GO!"

It was about 45 minutes until we found him in an old building the creepy thing is he was just there like he knew when we would arrive "Hello Titans I thought you would have arrived a lot sooner but I guess I was wrong…… oh well" he said as he surged his shoulders

"Give up Slade now" said Robin as he seemed to get angrier by the second just being near slade again "ah but robin what would be the point in that hmm"

"No more games TITANS GO!!!" he yelled

Starfire flew at him shooting star bolts as fast as she could but all he did was dodged them with ease until he was able to get an opening and throw a disk her way that attached it's self to her skin and began to shock her until she passed out from the pain Robin saw this and got even more angry and started to with blind rage witch slade used to his advantage by try to make him angrier "what the matter Robin do you care that much about that girl maybe I should just kill her first" "I won't let you!" Robin tried as hard as he could but could not land a single hit on him until slade slipped on the same disk that he put on starfire on robin but robin was able to stay awake but unable to move at all.

One by one all the titans began to fall until all that was left was best boy with his animal instincts he was able to avoid being hit by one of those disks "well…..well it seems that your all that's left huh Beast boy" I was really worried if none of my friends could beat him what kind of a chance do I have while I wasn't paying attention he was able to slip one of those disk on to me I fell to the ground unable to move

"Huh I guess that it huh I thought you would all be a better challenge than this what happened to you kids you got to soft after I left oh well better for me now that I've won lets begin the destruction of this city huh titans" he said as he started the laser and turned his back to me

"No" I whispered "I can't let this happen I have to stop this I can't let him win I CAN'T LET HIM WIN!!!!!! I said in my mind as I began to force my self up struggling as I did he didn't notice until it was to late and I was able to get him in a full nelson and even though I was a lot more injured than him I was able to hold on and not let him go

"Let go you idiot" He said "NO!!" I yelled as I was able to mess with his controller of the laser that he had on his chest I was able to make the laser beam compress and slowly turn in our direction Slade saw this and began to panic "Let go you fool or we'll both be killed" he sounded so unlike his calm self that I just had to rub it in "What's the matter Slade your not scared of dieing are you" I mocked him

Don't be stupid boy how do you plan to stop the laser if you get killed huh!" He said getting even more panicked as the beam got closer "well I thought about that and I see that the donator is on your chest well if it gets destroyed then it will stop am I right well slade" Crap he's right "well I can see that your silence tells me everything"

"But how do you plan to dodge the beam and hold me at the same time huh boy!!" he screamed "hehehe……. Your right I can't dodge it that's why you and me we'll go together" "WHAT!!!...... You're Insane Stop this now before we both die" as he said that he started to struggle even more knowing that I had no intention of backing out "Oh no you don't" I said as I tighten my grip on him and move him in front of the laser. It began to count down

5……4…….3…….2……1…it started "NO!!!!" slade screamed as it fired at us point blank and ripped right though us like wet toilet paper we both screamed in agony as we fell to the ground the other titans laid there dumfounded at what they just saw and all they could do was yell out "BEAST BOY" as they saw me hit the ground as I laid there I the life slowly began to leave me until I passed on the one thing I knew was that Slade died before me and the laser was stopped I died happy knowing I was useful.

That was 6 months ago and now I'm here Training with a master of martial arts and a chance to go home if I can get through the tests he offering me so I'll be doi…..

"GARFIELD!!!! Get back to training" "yes sir….. I'll be back guy just wait 6 more months to go and I'll be home guys.

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AN……End of Chapter one