DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN THE TEEN TITANS.

"I need to leave."

Raven choked on her tea and looked around the table. The statement cut the air like knife. The tension was so tight, it felt suffocating. The whole team looked at the green changeling as he just continued to eat his Tuesday morning cereal. She continued to choke on her tea. Now, there was attention on her and the other teammate on the other side of the table.

It wasn't like anyone was talking. No one really talks in the morning since they all know each other very well as it is. They have survived seven years together so far. The mayor had decided to up the budget on the prisons to keep the hard to manage criminals more, well, manageable. Since then, their jobs were easier and they took the liberty of going around the country and world to do missions. It had been slow, sure, but this was sudden.

"What?" The half robotic man at the head of the table said very confused. Raven was feeling the same way, however, she knew what he meant.

"There's nothing left for me on the team anymore. I really want to experience the world, you know?" Everyone didn't know, though. They all continued to stare at him with complete and utter shock.

"Beast Boy, We're superheroes. We travel the world all the time. And for the right reason at that!" Their leader stepped in. They were understanding what exactly he meant by "leave". None of them liked it.

"Yes! And our work is never complete!" Starfire exclaimed. "This world, unlike my planet, is the mean. I did not know there were so many things that could kill humans so quickly! Like, the bugs that enter the body, and the accidents that happen because of the unnoticing, and-"

"I'm afraid she's right, Beast Boy," Robin spoke up as Starfire became more exasperated. "This world is dangerous for people who aren't us. We step up and do what needs to be done."

"No! I'm tired of it. Even people who hold great amounts of power like us take leave occasionally. And I think I've built up just enough 'days' to take a very long vacation into whatever the hell I want! I'm leaving tomorrow morning. Look, I love you guys and y'all have been my family for a while, but the world only needs so many of us." The changeling stood up, no one muttering another world to him, put his bowl in the sink and slinked out.

Raven was too stunned to even think. He had been very depressed over these last few months. It lead her to tapping into his emotions more and more to make sure there wasn't anything getting worse. The last few days, she felt a strange feeling come over him that she wasn't sure she completely understood. It was panicky and relieved at the same time. Like he saw a way out of the depression.

This wasn't what she thought that was.

"Friends, what can we do?" Starfire asked. She had tears flowing down her face since she began to speak. "He cannot leave us. What would he do? We are his family! This is his home!"

"I think we need to talk to him. Figure out what's going through that screwed up head of his," Cyborg offered.

"No, he seems determined. Maybe we figure out what he's planning on doing, then we can find out his motivation," Robin said.

"But why would he want to leave us? Have we done something wrong?" Starfire asked innocently. Her boyfriend stepped in to comfort her. Raven had finally felt her body come back to her senses.

"No, we didn't do anything wrong, it's just-"

"It's just that Beast Boy has been trained to run from a place he doesn't feel he belongs anymore! Am I the only one who actually knows his past? We know he's suffered situations that he didn't like when he was a child and always had an out. This is his out! If he wants to leave, fine! Let him! We're better off without him." When Raven finished, she didn't feel better like she thought she would. She broke her tea cup next to her and a light bulb that was shining above them. After noticing, she quickly got up and left the room with the team on a state of shock.

She went to the only place that she'd ever go to after an episode like that; her room. To her, her room was the only place she could think.

She was furious. He couldn't just announce that like that. What was he thinking? He was just going to leave. Seven years of being a close stitched team, and he was going to walk away and forget it ever happened. He was just going to put it in his back pocket like a memory that he wanted to remember and forget at the same time.

Who the hell does he think he is? Over the last year, the team had been going their own directions. They spent more time outside of the tower and were making friends that were civilians.

Cyborg had gotten a girlfriend named Sarah. He spent a lot of time with her, but never really brought her back to the tower. No one really knew exactly why, though Raven suspected it was because he wanted to relive the days of being normal and not half robotic.

Robin was probably the only one who still worked on criminal leads of petty criminals within the area. Once the mentee of a super detective, always the mentee of a super detective. He had been dating Starfire for some time now, and they were definitely past the "honeymoon" phase and just were a couple that were very close instead of together all the time.

Starfire was, well, Starfire. She was probably the only one who tried to bring the team together for some of their old traditions like movie night and volleyball on the roof. Most of the time, it was unsuccessful, getting only her boyfriend and maybe one other together. She had never given up, though. The alien in her made her a very determined person.

Beast Boy had definitely matured. He kept a somewhat tidy space, but has been very unobtrusive. It happened very slowly. When the team compared him to his younger self, he often shrugged it off explaining that "the past is the past". She always knew he was never fond of the past. In fact, the only thing that kept him going was something to look forward to. Little things like movie Friday or waffles on Saturday morning. Hell, even playing a video game in the afternoon after training kept him going for the day. Bu through the last several weeks up to a few days ago, she noticed he wasn't looking forward to anything. There wasn't a whole lot to look forward to. Beast Boy had always been a reward motivated person, so when there was no reward at the end, it only left him disappointed. Maybe this was what he was finally rewarding himself with.

Raven thought about herself. She noticed during the last few weeks they all did things together, she was enjoying it more than she had in the past. When they slowly began to stop doing things like that, she found herself disappointed. She scolded herself for never joining in before they ended it. Maybe she would have understood why they stopped if she did what they did more often.

She had also grown close to Beast Boy. They were good friends for a while. Maybe even flirtatious towards each other in their own weird ways. But sometime last year, they just stopped. They never talked, not even to fight. She couldn't help but think she was part of the reason he was leaving.

She suddenly became hysterical in her mind. She didn't want him to leave! He was, or used to be, what held the team together. She knew what she had to do.

Arriving at his door, she gathered her thoughts before quietly knocking. She heard some shuffling around and then the door swished open to reveal a disheveled Beast Boy.

"I figured I'd be seeing you sooner or later," Beast Boy said with as much expression on her face. It was almost like he was imitating her. Several seconds passed. She couldn't bring herself to say what she was going to say. Sensing something wrong, Beast Boy spoke before she did.

"Look, if you're going to tell me to stay, save your breath. I have already heard it three times – four if you count Star coming by twice but just breaking down." She didn't understand how he was so at ease about this. When Starfire cried, she always convinced someone to do something. She knew he must have been really determined. She cocked an eyebrow at him, still not saying anything.

"Okay, I'm used to you not talking to me now, but this is just getting freaky, Rae." She knew she couldn't use silence as a tactic anymore.

"You can leave," she said. She surprised herself with that statement. Given his facial expression, he was just as taken aback.

"What?" He asked, clearly baffled.

"I know you've been thinking about this for a while," she began, not sure where she was going to take this. "I know there's nothing I can say to hold you back, so I'm not going to try. Hell, if you survived Star's tears, then I know you're serious about this. I just want a couple questions answered before I say goodbye."

Raven saw Beats Boy become less tense. He actually looked kind of choked up at her words. He silently nodded to agree to answering questions. Raven looked to the ground. When she built enough courage, she lifted her head and spoke.

"Why?" Beast Boy sighed like he had been asked before.

"I need something new," he said relaxed as he leaned onto the doorway. Raven's eyebrows furrowed.

"Bullshit." Beast Boy glared at her.

"What?"

"You heard me. I know why you're leaving." Raven began to build confidence in her words. Beast Boy did not take to this kindly.

"Then why the hell ask me?" He demanded. Raven met his eyes and nearly crumbled when he saw the look in them. They looked furious, but beyond that, hurt and unwanted. She softened.

"I was going to see if you were going to lie to me. And you did." Beast Boy softened as well. He slipped to the ground easily. He wrapped his arms around his knees and brought them forward. Raven took the opportunity and sank onto the same wall less than six inches away from him.

"Why do you care?" He asked. Raven looked forward. Because I wish I would have done the same by now. Raven had often thought about leaving from the time they formed the team. After they grew closer, the feeling became less and less, but now, she felt she was in the same boat he was.

"Because you at least owe me this."

"I guess I just don't want to be here anymore. I feel cooped up, and lonely. I just… want to get out before things get worse." Raven shook her head. She understood that logic entirely. She almost felt bad for getting harsh with him a few moments ago. Almost.

"What are you going to do?" She asked as she turned to him. He looked right back at her. He put a tired grin on.

"I guess that's the good news. I can do whatever I want. I'd really like to visit many of the continents. Go back to where my parents and I lived in Africa for a little bit. After a while, maybe stop someplace and stay for a while. It would almost be perfect," he finished. She smiled inwardly at his dream. She could believe that's what he would do. Such a tourist. One word bothered her from his whole dream, though.

"What do you mean almost?" She was completely serious. She thought his plan was a beautiful plan. If it weren't perfect, it was damn close.

"Well, after seven years of living here, I guess I've been accustomed to having people with me. The only bad part would be I'd have no one to share this with," he said, looking at the wall ahead again.

"Well, maybe you'll pick up a girl on the way," she joked. He chuckled.

"Yeah, maybe," he said.

"So what will be funding this little adventure?" Raven pondered. Beast Boy had become very good with his monthly income but never was a big saver.

"When I turned eighteen, I got my trust from my parents. That, along with my money I've been saving for a little while should get me anywhere," he smiled. He was happy with this plan. Raven could tell he was not happy about leaving the memories he has here, but at least he was making a move. She figured no more words should be said between the two. She gazed at him for a while as he looked at the wall.

All of the sudden, she felt the hysteria in herself again. This was Beast Boy. She needed him here. She was too accustomed to his presence for him to just not be there. Who knows what her emotions will do after he leaves.

She scolded herself. This isn't about her. This was about him. He wanted to go. He should be able to go. She shouldn't put herself in the equation because it would be beneficial to her. If this is what makes him happy, he should go for it – even if that means her being hung over with her emotions.

Slowly, but surely, she leaned her head on his shoulder and his head landed on hers after. It wasn't forced. It was comfortable. It felt right. Raven was very unhappy with the whole scenario, but right then, she felt she was where she needed to be. She closed her eyes and soaked in the moment.

He looked at his communicator after what felt like hours but was probably only a few minutes. He picked up his head sadly and she did the same. Midnight.

"I am leaving in five hours to make a flight to Hawaii. First destination on the road trip," he smiled. She nodded. She felt a single tear roll down her face. She felt like she was having her best friend leave for eternity. He casually reached up and wiped it from her face.

"I'll come by and say goodbye. I can't miss that much," she said with a smirk. He nodded. After getting up, he helped her to her feet.

"In that case, I'll see you in five hours." And with that she turned and went to her room. When she was there, she went to her bed and cried a few more tears. It was very unlike her to cry. In fact, she could probably count the amount of times she's cried on one hand alone.

She decided to meditate since she obviously wasn't wanting to sleep.

When she finally opened her eyes, she felt a little less stressed, but not even close to how she should feel. Especially since it's now four in the morning. Suddenly, she knew.

She knew. She just knew.

I can't lose him. Not this time.

She quickly grabbed a big duffel out of her closet. She threw in as much stuff as she could that she knew she would need; clothes, books, toiletries, and whatever else she could get her hands on. She grabbed her wallet and communicator. She grabbed her meditation mirror. When she was finally content, she looked at the bag she had packed, still open.

Was she really going to do this? Or a better question – could she do this?

The adrenaline wore off. She suddenly doubted this. She grabbed a piece of paper and a pen and sat down.

Five o'clock in the morning.

"Wait!" Beast Boy turned around, startled as he was sitting on the edge of the roof. Raven was racing toward him. She had a big bag across her body that made her look even more petite than she actually was.

"Rae? What the hell?"

"I'm coming with you," she said quickly and out of breath.

"Come again?"

"Don't think you didn't hear me correctly. I'm coming. If I feel I want to go home later, I will, but I want to come with you. And I'm not taking no for an answer. I want to leave just as badly as you do. Ever since I joined, I've collected money to leave the group knowing I'd have to. You guys showed me that I belong. But I'm with you. I'm your plus one," she said. She knew she was babbling. He looked really confused. She suddenly felt like she might have been way too intrusive about this. "And if you're okay with this, I would like to join you in the adventure of traveling the world because I've been thinking about this longer than you have."

She sat in silence as she knew he was putting the pieces together in his head. He sighed and put a grin on his face.

"Well let's go then! We have a flight to catch!" Suddenly, Raven saw a flash of the old Beast Boy that she didn't realize she missed so much. She teleported them there and boarded a plane to Hawaii with him.

Dear friends,

I don't expect this to make since. Hell, I know it doesn't make since. I'll just start with this. I have never been able to do anything on a whim my entire life. Even with all of our fights with the worst people in the galaxy, I can easily say that I have never had the adrenaline rush of doing something because I wanted to.

All my life I've been calculating. I've been focusing on what I can do to ensure nothing goes haywire. But for what? So that I can be uncomfortable? I have left with Beast Boy to travel the world. I have no plans for the future for once and it is honestly the greatest feeling I've felt.

I'm sorry you all had to find out this way, but I want to make sure that you know that our years have been good. Our friendship, our team, has been great. Life is changing. I hope to see you in the near future.

I hope you can forgive me for doing this, but please know this is not because of anything at the tower. It has everything to do with me, as selfish as that sounds.

Love you all,

Raven

Okay, so I went into this wanting it to be a oneshot, then I thought "Hey, let's make this a chapter thing," to now where I cannot decide for the life of me. So, if you would be so kind, majority rules on this. If you want more, comment so. I'll have you know, if it continues, I will put my heart in it, but no promises. So just review on the yay or nay of more chapters. This isn't the last thing I'll post either. I'll post more and that's a guarantee. Anyways, review?