A/N I know I haven't updated my other MR Fanfic in years but I had a rly kool oneshot idea (inspired by Reasons by theepitomeofrandomness-read it its good XD) so I figured I would write it before it disappeared XD
Tis in Fang's POV, but there will be sequel in Max's POV XD
Why I Can't Tell Her Anymore
I love her…
That I figured out.
And I finally admitted it to myself.
That day on the beach, when she kissed me, I knew.
But I didn't know how to say it.
So I didn't.
I kept my mouth shut, hoping the right words would come.
But they didn't.
So I didn't tell her.
And I guess I never have.
But I tried.
And then I had the chance.
We were alone in the cave.
But still I didn't say.
Still I didn't know how.
My happiness depended on her reaction.
Ever felt like that?
Like everything rests on that 1 person.
But I was an idiot.
I acted on impulse.
I kissed her.
And it was wonderful.
But she flew away.
I kissed her and she left.
So I forgot about it.
Or I tried.
But the thoughts were never far away.
We never mentioned it again.
And it killed me.
Because I love her.
And she doesn't love me.
Or so I thought.
But sometimes I catch her watching me.
And it makes me think.
Like I do.
That there could be something more.
And maybe if I told her how I feel, she would tell me too.
So I planned it better this time.
We went to the beach.
And I talked.
And I tried.
I tried to tell her.
But she made it so difficult.
So I kissed her again.
And for a moment she stayed.
And my heart soared.
But she pulled away.
She left again
And it hurt.
Ever heard the expression 'It hurt like hell? ' Well, yeah, that's how it felt.
And I feel that every time I think about it.
And I can't keep putting myself through that.
So I can't tell her anymore.
A/N: Well I hope you enjoyed, it's based on personal experience (with a boy… without wings), so I think the emotions are right, like I say there will be a sequel from Max's POV called 'Why I Push Him Away', which won't be written from experience, but wishful thinking that this is how aforementioned boy was feeling…
Anyway, review!!
Chiyo-chan91
