Jacob's POV
I was on my way back from visiting the Cullen's. I had a lot on my mind. The only one who ever seemed to understand me these days was Leah Clearwater. No sooner than I thought her name I came across her scent. It was fresh. So it till I found her. There she was. Standing on the edge of the cliff, head tilted up to meet the rain.
"Leah." I called out to her. Her head snapped around. Once her eyes met mine I knew she had been crying. Not that I could see her tears thanks to the rain, but her eyes were bloodshot red and puffy. My heart ached. I never seen Leah cry before. She always has her hardcore protective barrier up. She doesn't let anyone one, not even me. This was new for me seeing Leah on the edge of that cliff, vulnerable.
"Jake, what are you doing here?"
"I was actually coming to complain to you but I can see that there are bigger problems." I said as I closed the distance between us. She started to say something but I pulled her into a hug. She looked like she needed one and even if she tried to beat me off I would continue to hug her.
I had anticipated a knee to the balls but instead she hugged me back like her life depended on it. After what seemed like eternity I picked her up in my arms like a newborn baby and carried her all the was home. Once we were on her doorstep I had to kick the door because my hands weren't free. Sue answered the door.
"Jacob, what's wrong with my baby?"
I looked down to at Leah's face. I chuckled because she had fallen asleep. Then I whispered to Sue.
"I don't know, she never said a word to me. All I know is that she really needs a friend now." Sue didn't say anything else. She just stepped out of the doorway and showed me the way to Leah's room. I laid Leah's down on her bed. Once I took off her shoes she woke up and looked at me.
"Jake..."
"You fell asleep in my arms. I was just about to wake you so you can change out of these wet clothes."
"Oh. Well could you step out a minute. S-so I can change?"
I did as she asked and stepped into the hallway. Closing the door behind me. After a few minutes Leah called me name. When I walked in she was wrapped up in the covers.
"Okay I'm leaving Leah. Call me if you wanna talk."
"Could you stay with me tonight?" I looked at he with a shocked face. But I quickly recovered and told her sure.
"You can lay down next to me Jake. This bed is big enough for the both of us." She said to me while she built a pillow wall in the middle of the bed. I felt bad so I kicked of my shoes and shirt. Then got into bed. We laid there for a while in silence.
"Thanks Jake. You helped me out a lot today without even trying. More than you'll even know. I owe you my life." Leah whispered to me.
"Your my friend Lee, No problem."
Then all was quiet.
...
I laid woke for most of the night. Leah had been asleep for hours. I sat up and looked around for something to entertain me. I saw a book on the nightstand. I picked it up. It didn't have a name so I opened it to where the bookmark was held. It read:
Dear Diary,
I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna end this misery. Mines and everyone elses. I've messed everything up. It's all my fault. They all hate me. Everyone hate's me and it's all my fault. Sam left me for my cousin. The love of my existence left me for my cousin because I wasn't good enough. I'll never be good enough for anybody. I could have dealt with it if I didn't have to share his mind. Seeing how much he loves her and not seeing even a small trace of his love for me. It just hurts. That's why I can't let it go. I make my pack feel my anger too. But I just couldn't bear them seeing me cry. I didn't want to deal with their pity. I pushed everyone away from my Sam to my mother. Even Seth hates me. I can't take it!
I'm useless. I've failed as a sister and a daughter. Mom's happy, but I can't be happy for her. I'm broken. I'm never gone to have a family. Everything is gone and it's because I failed. I'm all alone. All alone and it's all my fault. I even killed my father. The one who would love me no matter what and I killed him. If only my dad was here. He would know what to do and what to say. He could fix it. But I killed him and now he is gone. I can't do this anymore. I can't.
Paul was right. I shouldn't be around. I should go die. But cutting myself wouldn't work and neither would attempt to overdose. I have to do something drastic that wouldn't give my body a chance to heal. That's why jumping off a cliff if perfect. I took all my money and put it in Seth's money stash. I donated all my clothes to charity. I don't really have friends so that part is taking care of. It's raining. What a perfect way to die. I don't want the sun shining down on me when I do this.
No one would care if I'm gone.
Leah
I reread it four times. I was crying. It all made sense now. Leah was gonna kill herself today. That's why she said she owed me her life. I had to tell somebody. This girl was clearly lost.
I snuck out of her bed and climbed out her window and took off running for his house.