Sorry about not really doing a great job on the first chapter but it was a rough copy here is the real thing so sorry
I do not own anything I wish I mean like I really wish
Chapter 1: The places I go
There is this one thing… This one thing that keeps my mind in restless motion no matter what… This night mare that I have each night sleep is graced upon me. The nightmare that crawls up into my mind like millions of spiders…they consume my whole mind in fact my whole being until I feel completely numb from the pain that I am receiving…this night mare is like a bad movie that keeps playing over and over in my mind…but it skips parts like my brain knows I can't handle the whole nightmare that I can only handle parts of it…it knows I can't…I know what you are thinking by now you have to be insane or at least on meds right…really and truly I don't know about the first one but I do know I'm not on meds at least I'm not on them now…my mind settles on this event were rough hand are touching me screams that are mine are there but they can't be heard…I wake up sitting up fast making sure that the bed does not consume me…I am drenched in my own sweat that my tank top is sticking to my body….the only thing that can touch me right now… I franticly look around to make sure that I am not living my hell of a dream when I see that it is only me in the room I sigh with relief….I get my acing body out of the bed I need to get out of here now I need to go….there…I need to see….my mind bocks out what I am about to say I grab my sweat shirt and replace it with my sweat ridden tank top…. I find jeans and put them on and I grab my keys…I walk out of my room... I don't care if I am making noise I know no one will stop me… they have given up…really I have given up…. I walk out the front door and start the car and I'm out of here….I arrive at a mansion I sit in the car for a long time I can't believe that I am sitting here arguing if I should go in or not I am gripping the steering wheel that my knuckles are turning white….ugh this is so stupid…I practically push myself out of the car I walk up to the front door and walk in I have been here so many times that I know it's not locked…..it never is…I walk up the flight of stairs that I have traveled so many times…I have memorized this whole place …. I know every turn every curve…I walk to the room that I want to go to me walk right in….and there she is the one I have been looking for…. I stand there and stare at the girl who changed my life the girl I pushed away…. The girl I can't have …but want…no it is no longer a want but more a need…."ash"...I say my voice is full of nervousness and it is barely above a whisper…. But I know she can hear me….when she turns to see me…my breath is taken away….because when blue meets brown I know that all my nightmares can be taken away…