Disclaimer- If I owned these the show would so not have been cancelled.
A/N- The lyrics are the bits in *s and belong to Evanescence. They are from Even in Death are are so beautiful I'd recommend you read them, even though it's not vital for the fic. And though I left it unobvious so you can make it who you want it to be, I had Bridger in mind for this fic, just so you know.

Never Ending

I'll never be able to forget her. I know that for a fact. It's not just the memories I have of her. The dreams I'd made haunt me too. I can't believe she's left me alone.


*Give me a reason to believe you're gone,
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong,
Moonlight on the soft brown earth,
It leads me to where you lay,
They took you away from me but now I'm taking you home*


Everything I see reminds me of her, of our time together. It hurts. She always said she'd keep my safe, that she'd stop anything from hurting me. She's broken her promise, that's what hurts the most.

I'll never let anything hurt you. We'll keep each other safe.

And now it's her that's making me hurt. I keep trying not to blame her, to tell myself it wasn't her fault, but I can't get past the pain. A single moment in time, and everything came crashing down on me. I just can't believe she's really gone. I needed her so much after I lost him. She was the only thing that kept me sane, stopped me from following him. What am I meant to do now? Who's to stop me following her?

I don't think anyone can. I don't now as I can trust anyone enough to let them stop me. I don't know as I want anyone to help. If I let someone else get close, I might forget her.


*I will stay forever here with you,
My love,
The softly spoken words you gave me,
Even in death our love goes on*


I can see people happily living their lives, forgetting all about me, until someone happens to spot my bones lying on the beach. Then my name will pass in to history and people can forget about that crazy old hermit too.

Oh God it's not fair! I shouldn't be living alone. I should be running a family, not running away from the world. I keep asking myself why. Why did I lose her? Why am I crying, sitting alone? Why am I left when my family has been taken from me? It seems totally incredible to me that just a few days ago I was happy. Now I feel three times worse than I have ever felt.


*Some say I'm crazy for my love, Oh my love,
But no bonds can hold me from your side, Oh my love,
They don't know you can't leave me,
They don't hear you singing to me*


All I ever seem to do is sit and think, and play over my memories. Happy, sad, anything to keep myself from focusing on the fact that I'm alone. That I am all I have left. That I think I may be loosing even that.


*I will stay forever here with you,
My love,
The softly spoken words you gave me,
Even in death our love goes on*

*And I can't love you, anymore than I do*