A/N: This is about Lily and James trails to become a couple I have decided that rather than the normal James changes for Lily that this one will be about how Lily changed for herself after she experiences a difficult trauma. Anyways as I am sure all authors ask for please review and give me your insight on what you like. This story is rated M mostly for language at this point but I may add in adult situations as well later in the story. I will try to update once a week but I cannot make any promises because I am a college student and a lot of times I get unexpected homework assignments. Anyways I hope you like it.

Lily's Big Change

Chapter 1: Life is Short

Today was August 1st, and Lily Evans would be returning for her seventh year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry as the Head Girl, a goal she had worked her whole school career to achieve now seemed like a waste of time. Before this summer Lily would have been jumping at the thought of maybe being the Head Girl this year but that was before she learned that life was short and you had to live every day like it was your last because it could very well be. Two days into this summer Lily decided to visit her best friend Alice Prewett, who was a blonde round-faced pure-blood witch, after Lily and her older sister Petunia got into one of their infamous fights and Lily ended up spending the night with her best friend while Petunia went out with her horrid fiancé, Vernon. The next day when she came home considerably calmed down she saw that she no longer had a home and upon further investigation she found that her mother and father had burned in the fire that took her home. Lily decided in that moment that if her careful parents could not live long lives, then what was the point of being careful. Since that moment she became slightly erratic and irresponsible going to muggle parties and pubs and sometimes fucking unknown men just to have a little fun. But today she will go back to school but she will also make sure everyone knows that she has changed, hell she may even give in to Potter's advances after all she has been wondering how good of a fuck he would be, even if he is a bit irritatingly erratic but now so was she and to help his mission he is extremely hot.

So as Lily got into her new favorite outfits, a fringed black suede mini-skirt, a black tube-top and black platform leather boots. Lily is a beautiful woman with pixie-styled auburn hair, almond shaped emerald eyes, and she is skinny in stature with full curves and ample breast the outfit hugged her body like a lover or a good friend. Her eyes stood out more once she put some brown mascara, brown eyeliner, and chocolate and emerald colored eye shadow, she also had a red lipstick on that made her lips look so full and sexy. She put on the necklace, that Potter had given her for her birthday, a simple chain with a small heart that rested just between her breasts. The necklace finished the ensemble and she was very sexy, if she did say so herself.

Lily then went to her trunk and shrunk it so that she could carry it easier, she grabbed her beautiful black cat whom she had named Spooky, Lily had been very unoriginal at eleven she thought it would be very ironic to have a black cat now that she was officially a witch, and she packed the poor creature into its carrier to take to Spooky with Lily to Hogwarts. Lily grabbed the carrier and her purse, which had her shrunk trunk inside, and Lily apparated across the street from King's Cross. Lily entered platform 9 and ¾ and took her trunk out of her purse and Lily resized her trunk and put it with the rest of the trunks, then Lily went to find her best friend.

"Lily, is that you? Why are you dressed so slutty?" sneered a voice that sounds just as greasy as the speaker's hair. It was Severus Snape Lily's ex-best friend he had shoulder length greasy black hair and black eyes, he was on scrawny side, he was wearing old baggy worn clothes which made him look like he was even more unhealthily scrawny.

"Snape, what did you just fucking call me? You have no fucking right to judge me, you gave up that damn right the second you decided to call me a fucking mudblood but let me guess you just like to judge people and I am one of your favorites because by judging me it makes you feel better about your useless and sad excuse for a life. Now if you excuse me douche bag I need to go find my real best friend the one who wouldn't ditch me because of my birth." Lily replied curtly and then turned and continued to look for Alice.

"Excuse me; I was just wondering if you could direct me to the beautiful and shy Lily Evans?" asked James Potter, who came from a well-off pureblood family he had well-kept short yet very messy looking black hair and gorgeous hazel eyes, his body was very toned from playing quidditch, he was the captain and the best chaser on the Gryffindor team, and like always he worn new clothes that fit him like they were made specifically for him and know him they probably were.

Lily turned smiling, she seemed to have been so lost in thought that she walked right passed him, and replied, "Well, Potter I am sure there is a shy Lily Evans somewhere maybe but this Lily Evans is far from shy, in fact she enjoys the attention."

"Lily? Well you sure as hell look different." James replied looking taken aback.

"Is that such a bad thing hot stuff," at these words James' mouth almost dropped to the floor. "It would seem that you like my new found confidence."

"Um, Lily I-I just assumed that you were Head Girl and I wanted to know what our plan for the um prefects meeting was because I got um selected as Head Boy. I personally think that Dumbledore has finally lost it to think that I am ready for such a responsibility right Lily." James said laughing.

"Oh I am the Head Girl and I guess that means we will now be sharing a dorm together this year oh this will be fun. We will be the most fun heads Hogwarts has ever seen, that is unless you are trying to pull one of your famous pranks?" Lily replied. She was standing right in front of him now and he couldn't deny that he loved the shy bookworm Lily Evans but there was definitely something so much sexier about the confident and more risqué Lily Evans especially when she is dressed like that.

Before he could stop himself he blurted out, "Will you please go out with me Lily? You are just so undeniably beautiful and sexy and it would be an honor for me to be able to take you on a date if, it were ok with you?"

He looked so scared that she would reject him once again that she couldn't even pretend to consider anything other than, "Yes, I'll go out with you James. After all life is short there is no reason to waste the little amount of time we have and you only live once"