Hello again! Well, here's another Kevin Ryan/Fenton O'Connell story! Not so much a story, but more of an 'introspection' on a FormerlyFenton!Ryan. If that's your cup of coffee, then check out my other Ryan/Fenton story called To Jane, To Kevin Ryan.
I hope you guys enjoy this!
Timeline: Nothing specific really... let's say a mid-season four-ish mindset?
Disclaimer: I may forget to do these every now and then, but come on. This is FANfiction... emphasizing the FAN here.. Obviously, I don't own Castle. Or Nikita, from where the bold-italicized words originate.
We all wear masks... everyone, everyday...
He was a good cop. A bit green, yes. But a credit to the job.
Except that wasn't who he was.
He wasn't naïve. He wasn't clueless.
He was a cocky SOB.
But not here. Not as Kevin Ryan.
Sometimes we wear them so much, we forget who we are...
He had been a good enforcer. Not high ranking. But notorious.
Yet that wasn't who he was anymore.
He couldn't be ruthless. He couldn't be cunning.
He had to be a cop.
But he wasn't before. Not as Fenton O'Connell.
Sometimes, if we're lucky, someone comes along...
He hadn't expected to fall in love with Jenny.
He hadn't expected to find a brother in Esposito.
He hadn't expected to become friends with Castle.
He hadn't expected to get attached to Beckett.
They show us who we want to be...
Jenny made him want to be a good man.
Esposito made him want to be a trustworthy partner.
Castle made him want to be a stronger teammate.
Beckett made him want to be a better cop.
They made him want to be Kevin Ryan.
...they show us who we should be.
I just love the idea of Ryan having a dark/hidden/secretive past where he was Fenton O'Connell. Lots of different ways his past could be written out (and trust me - I've thought of a BUNCH), and I may write more of those in the future. This was just a little something that my Fenton addiction spewed out, about him no longer being a mobster and becoming the cop we know now.
Let me know what you think, please?
Katrina