You Guys Already Know...
By Ryuuen
Warning: Spoilers, severe tear-jerker
A/N: A Nuriko death-fic to end all Nuriko death-fics.. well not really. It's kinda a series of letters to the gang from Nuriko that he wrote the day before.. well, you know what happened.. This first one is to all of them, the future ones will be to specific people.
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You guys already know... all about it, don't you?
I knew that it was coming, you know. Did you guess? I had a dream about this thing that has happened. I didn't tell anybody.. not even you, Tasuki.. I knew that you'd freak.. try to protect me. It's not that I wouldn't appreciate it, but honestly.. it just isn't worth it to try and avoid fate. I don't want to die, but since when do you get a choice in the matter, eh?
Okay, I am determined to keep good humor while I write this. I will NOT cry. I won't.
Shit, I am... I am crying.
Now my writing's gonna be smudged..
Yeah, I know, Tasuki.. you don't care about that.. I'm such a baka, aren't I? I'm going to die soon and all I can worry about is if my tears stain this note. I'm such a fool..
I guess.. I am scared, aren't I? I'm afraid of death, I don't want to.. I don't want to die, not now. I suppose that it's okay, but.. but it isn't something that I want. I've found my peace, my happiness, with you guys.. I should have known it would end soon. For the first time in Suzaku-only-knows-how-many years, I'm at peace, I'm... happy..
By the time you find these notes I've written, it will be too late. But that's okay. I guess it's okay. I think some of you might cry, but that's okay too.. just let go of your feelings, you know? I know, I know, I should take my own advice, but I never listen to anyone, let alone myself, now do I?
It's sunset now.. the sky is so nice, kind of a light-denim color, with pink streaks just above the trees and no clouds at all.. this is nice, kind of peaceful. It's so beautiful, I wonder if Suzaku is telling me to be at peace.. or something, anyway.
I guess.. I should wrap this up.. I'm so damn depressing. Besides, if I don't keep it short Tasuki'll lose interest and I'd get you guys in trouble..
Damn, I'm crying again.. I need to stop already!
I'll go now.. I hope you guys know how much you mean to me. You're my best friends.. my only friends.. I love you all, you're so kind to me, I know no one else would be that way. Some of you I've only known briefly, or haven't had the chance to speak with on a personal level, but that's okay, too. You're still special to me in your own way. You're still my best friends. Ever.
I've never really had a lot of friends, I was too afraid that they'd.. well, you know, discover what I was.. but now I'm not so afraid of.. of anything.
I'm not afraid because you showed me not to be. You taught me kindness, and courage, and that true, inner strength that I never knew before.
Guys, it wasn't Tai-Itsukun's powers that made me stronger... it was that inner strength that you showed me, that inner power that showed me what to do.
Arigato gozaimasu... Gomen, and arigato..
Please don't mourn me.. I don't want you to look back and be sad about my death. Death is just the next step in life, ne? Don't be sad, I'm still here in your hearts. Always look forward. If you look towards the past for too long, opportunity closes its doors impatiently. But if you look towards the future, you will see the golden door of opportunity before it becomes impatient with you. Never look back. I know that I have, and I regret not living my own life, now. But that's okay, if I had lived my own life than I never would've met you, would I have?
Look forward to a brighter tomorrow, and I'll be there for the trip..
Sayanora minna-san
Nuriko
By Ryuuen
Warning: Spoilers, severe tear-jerker
A/N: A Nuriko death-fic to end all Nuriko death-fics.. well not really. It's kinda a series of letters to the gang from Nuriko that he wrote the day before.. well, you know what happened.. This first one is to all of them, the future ones will be to specific people.
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You guys already know... all about it, don't you?
I knew that it was coming, you know. Did you guess? I had a dream about this thing that has happened. I didn't tell anybody.. not even you, Tasuki.. I knew that you'd freak.. try to protect me. It's not that I wouldn't appreciate it, but honestly.. it just isn't worth it to try and avoid fate. I don't want to die, but since when do you get a choice in the matter, eh?
Okay, I am determined to keep good humor while I write this. I will NOT cry. I won't.
Shit, I am... I am crying.
Now my writing's gonna be smudged..
Yeah, I know, Tasuki.. you don't care about that.. I'm such a baka, aren't I? I'm going to die soon and all I can worry about is if my tears stain this note. I'm such a fool..
I guess.. I am scared, aren't I? I'm afraid of death, I don't want to.. I don't want to die, not now. I suppose that it's okay, but.. but it isn't something that I want. I've found my peace, my happiness, with you guys.. I should have known it would end soon. For the first time in Suzaku-only-knows-how-many years, I'm at peace, I'm... happy..
By the time you find these notes I've written, it will be too late. But that's okay. I guess it's okay. I think some of you might cry, but that's okay too.. just let go of your feelings, you know? I know, I know, I should take my own advice, but I never listen to anyone, let alone myself, now do I?
It's sunset now.. the sky is so nice, kind of a light-denim color, with pink streaks just above the trees and no clouds at all.. this is nice, kind of peaceful. It's so beautiful, I wonder if Suzaku is telling me to be at peace.. or something, anyway.
I guess.. I should wrap this up.. I'm so damn depressing. Besides, if I don't keep it short Tasuki'll lose interest and I'd get you guys in trouble..
Damn, I'm crying again.. I need to stop already!
I'll go now.. I hope you guys know how much you mean to me. You're my best friends.. my only friends.. I love you all, you're so kind to me, I know no one else would be that way. Some of you I've only known briefly, or haven't had the chance to speak with on a personal level, but that's okay, too. You're still special to me in your own way. You're still my best friends. Ever.
I've never really had a lot of friends, I was too afraid that they'd.. well, you know, discover what I was.. but now I'm not so afraid of.. of anything.
I'm not afraid because you showed me not to be. You taught me kindness, and courage, and that true, inner strength that I never knew before.
Guys, it wasn't Tai-Itsukun's powers that made me stronger... it was that inner strength that you showed me, that inner power that showed me what to do.
Arigato gozaimasu... Gomen, and arigato..
Please don't mourn me.. I don't want you to look back and be sad about my death. Death is just the next step in life, ne? Don't be sad, I'm still here in your hearts. Always look forward. If you look towards the past for too long, opportunity closes its doors impatiently. But if you look towards the future, you will see the golden door of opportunity before it becomes impatient with you. Never look back. I know that I have, and I regret not living my own life, now. But that's okay, if I had lived my own life than I never would've met you, would I have?
Look forward to a brighter tomorrow, and I'll be there for the trip..
Sayanora minna-san
Nuriko