A/N: Okay my first Lost Girl story. The show is just amazing and I'm so glad 'starophie' recommented it to me. I owe you huge, girl. The show really got me out of my cage again. 'Starophie'also helped me to write this one by commenting, correcting and with everything else, she also has a story called 'Be Human' you totally should check out if you love Kenzi, which we probably all do. ;)

Hope you enjoy the story.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything just the idea.

Lost in the streets

Stress. That was all Lauren had felt for the past few weeks now and she was more than glad for it. If her mind wasn't constantly occupied she knew where it would wander to: Bo. No, those patients, test, researches, autopsies and paperwork weren't real stress. Those were work. Blissful, calming, calculable work. What really stressed her was the fact that no one, especially herself, hadn't seen or heard from Bo for three months now, at the present day. In fact, this work was more of a vacation than unpleasant. If she could get any news on her lover, she'd work twice as hard in exchange, regardless for light or dark. But it didn't seem like there was anyone who would be able to make such a deal. Apparently Bo was pretty good at staying off the radar; otherwise, they would've found her by now. Dyson, Trick, Hale, Kenzi, Lauren, and even Vex used all their resources to get any news on the succubus but without any results. Obviously ten years of hiding was the perfect training, even for the best resources. If Bo didn't want to be found, then maybe they had to accept that, but that didn't mean they would stop their search.

Three months meant 92 days as well as 2208 hours and an even larger amount of minutes without a tender kiss, a soft touch, a flirting smile, a mischievous grin, a simple word or even a simple loving glance at her which was almost too much for Lauren to handle. All Bo left them with was a letter with the promise to come back when she sorted everything out with herself. She needed space and time for herself, which was what scared Lauren the most. Sure, Bo knew how to take care of herself. She had years of experience to handle the obstacles life threw in her way, and Lauren knew all that. But she also knew that her lover had a tendency to get into trouble, mostly the life threatening sort. What if she got into a fight and was injured and no one was there to heal her? What if she got a fae disease which couldn't be cured by her succubus powers? What if the Dark Fae had kidnapped her and held her hostage? What if her old car broke down in the middle of nowhere and there was no one around to help her? Would she call her then? Could she call her then? What if there was no cell network in Nowhere? But Laurens biggest fear was that it finally had been enough for the woman to handle and she regressed into the person she was before, leaving the succubus in full control and living the life she lived for ten years: work, flirt, feed, kill, move. No ties, no friends, no love, no one to tell her she wasn't a monster, to remind her of her heart, her soul, her true self. Bo could lose herself again and Lauren feared that more than anything.

They checked every unusual kill reported in the police records for that case but nothing seemed like a typical succubus kill so far. Even if this was still a good sign, Lauren couldn't help but feel a little frustrated for that, at least than they would have had a lead to follow instead of no sign at all. Lauren hated herself for such thoughts, it would mean someone died by her loves hand and she knew that Bo wouldn't be able to live with herself if that ever happened again. But was it really that wrong to wish for any sign that she was still alive and well? The succubus herself asked Lauren and Kenzi for a call each day to assure her that they were alright and even if it got to voicemail every time, they still called every day. Bo asked them for a reassurance she didn't give them herself and Lauren felt her anger rise at that thought. She had to know that they also would worry about her, why did she stay away for so long, leaving them alone with their fears?

"Dyson, I just finished the autopsy on the cerbera for you. I gave the file to the reception, you can come by and collect it there." the doctor said before she ended the call without a word of farewell, not even trying to hide her annoyance that she did have to work for him. Even if Bo wasn't there, she still felt the jealousy rise when the shifter was around. That he had his love for Bo back didn't make it any easier. Lauren knew she had no right to be angry, she wanted the break from Bo, she wanted to give her love space to think, without her as a constant reminder of what she already had with her. Bo should make a decision without pressure or any guilt; she should choose Lauren on her own free will. It wasn't a pure selfless decision either, Lauren didn't want to be second choice or feel that way all the time the man was around. Technically she wasn't even allowed to be angry if the succubus slept with Dyson again, during this break even if she knew it would hurt her, as long as Bo finally came to a conclusion she was willing to accept it. That didn't mean the succubus should go away for real. In Lauren's mind, the needed space could perfectly be found in the city, near herself and her friends, not god-knows where. But her current anger at Dyson wasn't just rooted in pure jealousy but at his lack of actions in their search for Bo. No one was more qualified to find her than him and his wolf senses.

"She needs time, Lauren. She'll come home when she's ready, you know that. You know her." he said with his deep reasonable voice that angered Lauren even more. Of course she knew that, how dare he throw that into her face? She suggested that space for god's sake. But she couldn't help to feel like Bo was drifting away from them more and more. She just had this nagging feeling in her stomach that she wouldn't see the brunette ever again and this feeling intensified every morning she woke up and the woman she loved with all her heart wasn't by her side. Every morning was worse than the one before. The nightmares, which where her constant companion since day one were getting worse and now she couldn't even get rest at night. She was on autopilot now. Waking up screaming, work, sleeping, waking up screaming, that was her usual daily routine now. After 92 days like this, her mind seemed to intensify her torment with physical pain. When she woke up today and wasn't able to breath properly for a short time, her thoughts just wandered to Bo. Was it probably possible to really need someone else to breath? Her scientific side knew that this wasn't so and highly illogical, but her romantic side screamed desperate in agreement telling her to run out into the streets and search for her missing piece. Since Bo left there was this emptiness inside her that she'd completely forgot existed after the brunette succubus walked into her life. Now it was back and threatened to consume her every day.

"Morning, doc." The blond turned around to see the small goth walking through the doors of her lab, not nearly as energetic as she used to be but she couldn't blame her. At least the young woman tried her best to keep it together.

"It's 5 PM, Kenzi," Lauren informed her, but the young woman just shrugged her shoulders. "In China it's morning now so, konichiwa." the goth said, pressing her hands together in front of her body and bending down to greet her. This was their routine now; Kenzi coming to the lab with a bag of food and they were talking, eating, and just enjoying each other's company. Laurens hypothesis was that both woman tried to fill the void Bo created by leaving them alone. At first it was awkward between them with no real topic to talk about or any interests they had in common, but that didn't stop the girl from showing up every day.

'When she comes back we have to be around each other again so let's practice without the succubo and her love mojo to distract you.' Kenzi justified her stubbornness. With time they had found a base and Lauren found herself looking forward to Kenzis visits when didn't have watch every word they said. Lauren; being the only other human who knew about the Fae and Kenzi; being the only human who wouldn't instantly report any news to the Ash. They made quite a pair. Until Bo returned, Kenzi decided to go back to her roots, living off small cons; nothing big, but enough to live and pay the rent. The money Bo left for her wouldn't last forever, and Kenzi would rather have something left for shopping with her best friend than living on the streets again where no one would have a care for her brilliant shoe taste or her great sense of humor. Bo was so going to get it from her when she got back - if she got back.

Since Bos first day away Kenzi started to come by, set a bag with food at the table and waiting for Lauren to finish her work, or more accurate make Lauren finish her work by threatening to destroy lab material if she didn't join her immediately. They sat there in silence, eating waiting and enjoying each other's company but they never talked about her, not even once. It seemed like an unspoken rule between the two women. They both knew that they would call the other instantly if they had any news, but to hear every day that they had no news at all was just a constant reminder. Speaking of her would make their hearts ache a little more each time. So they talked about everything else, carefully avoiding that one topic, and trying to cope.

"Whoa, doc, what is that? Did you get yourself a new pet?" Kenzi asked and pointed to the screen behind Lauren which showed the shattered image of the fae she just finished her autopsy on.

"That's a cerbera, or more accurately, was. A tracker-fae, specialized in finding people, mostly fae. Dyson brought him to me yesterday to find his cause of death." Lauren explained putting a folk of rice into her mouth.

"Well I would blame a truck, or are they usually this ugly and shattered? Whoa, is his nose supposed to be right under his eye? Gross!" the young Russian said, and got closer to look at the bizarre picture after taking the last piece of her food.

"I agree with you, it definitely has to be something strong to get a cerbera to look like this, they're pretty tough normally."

"Seems like he's met someone tougher than him. Damn, that almost seems like a wolf on two legs, just without the sexiness I normally connect with the word wolfman." Kenzi said, referring to the strong hair and small body the man on the examine table possessed.

"They live only for the hunt, their appearance isn't important to them as long as they collect their prey." Lauren began. "Most of them live in groups or work for their clan as bounty hunter or private detective. Not very social but the best at their job." She explained further.

"Then this one probably found his master. Or aren't those signs of a fight?" she asked, pointing at the blue big bruises that were all over the dead body, some started to get purple and even yellow. Meant they were from more fights than one at different times. That wasn't unusual, cerbera were very impulsive and never backed off from a challenge. Lauren agreed by shaking her head.

"No, you're right. He seemed to have a few fights before he died, but it was a truck that eventually killed him. Or at least, something as strong as a car, with tempo 80." The doctor specified, being as accurate as she could.

"Ouch. What a shame to survive such hard beatings just to lose against modern technology. Almost poetic. Poor wolfie. Like I always say, if it's not GTA stay away from the fast ones."

"I'm pretty sure he agrees with you on that part." Lauren said finishing her last bite and starting to clean up the table.

"Smart guy, if he would have agreed to a bath and a haircut too maybe the truck would've had mercy." the woman said in all honesty, making Lauren chuckle a little. She understood what Bo saw in the girl, she was easy to be around and didn't tiptoe about everything. In fact, Lauren would've been happy if he had done exactly as Kenzi said, then he wouldn't have smelled so strong during her examination. Normally the cerbera weren't like savages. Her studies showed that they were proud hunters but this one looked more like a wild animal than anything else, she had to agree with the Russian on that. That was the reason she made it clear in her report that this was strange behavior and that he probably was on the hunt for someone, probably for a long time already.

"So the best fae hunter, then?" Kenzi began slowly, in a tone that Lauren knew her the unspoken rule was going to be broken by the girls next question but nodded regardless. "Anything useful to find a long lost succubus?" she asked a little sheepishly, knowing she was going to cause them both pain now. But Lauren just shook her head sadly and tried to explain to the woman something that she thought over and over again herself, since the moment Dyson brought him in.

"They just search for people who are missing no longer than 72 hours."

The other woman snorted and murmured, "Of course they do, otherwise it would just be too easy to help some desperate humans with their silly wish to get their best friend back and kill her after the big reunion." The girl sounded bitter and Lauren understood her, it seemed to get harder with every day to fill the gaping wound Bo left behind.

"She'll come back, right?" Kenzi asked, almost quietly, and Lauren could see her own fears reflected in the goth's eyes.

"I really hope so, Kenzi." Lauren whispered, tears forming in her eyes for the pure thought that she wouldn't. "But I highly doubt she can live without you for much longer. Maybe she's already on her way home."

"She better. The kick she's going to get will intensify for every day that goes by." she said, kicking full force into the air to prove her point.

Lauren smiled. "I'm sure she's aware of that. She needs you Kenzi, you're her best friend. Probably more like her sister, and you know how protective she is." Lauren says smiling at the memory. "It's not like she trusts you enough to stay out of trouble forever. She just knows you to well to believe that." The blond tried to cheer the young woman up and earned a small grin in return.

"Then I guess, knowing both of us so well, she's already on the doorstep of the lab now. Not wanting to risk another gorgeous woman walk through these doors and capture your heart in an instant. She won't risk that either. She knows all of your co-workers here have a crush on you, fae and human. One day she talked to me for an hour about a plan to get you new assistants, ones she'd checked before." Kenzi snorted. "All of them probably old, ugly men who lived when your telescope and stuff was invented, 'not to take any chances' she said." the woman retold, quoting her best friend's sentence in the air. Hearing about the insecurities the magnificent succubus seemed to have when it came to her girlfriend made Lauren smile. Knowing she made the normally so confident succubus questioning herself, the same way she always did when Bo was around . "Believe me, my girl is far too hooked by you to let anyone else have you. Those Nadia months were the saddest to watch." Kenzi remembered, making Lauren flinch a little. "Those craves and longing glances from afar would even made Romeo and Juliet spoke their condolences after their movie ended." She said in all graveness, looking at Lauren with a tender grin. "You really underestimate how important you are to her Lauren. I get why you called for a break but one glance at the Succubobo should've told you that the sexy loving dog man doesn't have a chance against you. At least not anymore. Whatever you did with her between, over or under the sheets, it worked." Kenzi said, grinning from ear to ear when she noticed Laurens blush. "You tamed my little beasty with you magic loving mojo."

Regardless of the embarrassing comment Lauren really hoped that the girl was right, but in the end she needed Bo to see that too. She didn't want her to always wonder about whats and ifs. Bo needed to be 100% sure herself about their relationship. "Not that I mind, but what changed your mind? Didn't we agree that I wasn't good enough and you were a loyal member of Team Dyson?" Lauren asked, curious and desperately trying to change the topic, but Kenzi just shrugged.

"Well then you were wrong, cherie. I'm" she pointed at herself " a loyal member of Team Bo and we support her choice, whoever she chooses. As long as this person makes her happy I'm okay with it. Like I said, she's far too much in love with all this" she waved her hands over Laurens whole body "than to ever go back to another team." Her tears flowed freely now. Lauren knew that Kenzi's approval was all she needed to get her hopes up again until her girlfriend returned, hopefully for good this time. Maybe breaking the illusion of a happy future together by then but willing to let this false safety consume her until this time came.

"Okay, just for the record and to change the deep topics, why is wolfie boy, or at least his friends, not able to find our favorite fae?" Kenzi asked, trying to lighten the mood again.

"Well they could find her but won't accept our request." The doctor began speaking faster when she sensed the Russians attempts to protest. "It's a fact for their very survival, Kenzi. There needs to be a realistic chance in finding the person in time. As soon as they are on the hunt for a smell they can't stop until they succeed." It seemed that Kenzi could accept that so Lauren explored her explanation. "They have to taste their prey by licking at them, that way they lose the sent and can live on. Without this taste they can't smell or hunt anything else ever again and it drives them to total extinction. They get wild and desperate, unable to stop from finding their prey." Lauren explained, happy to avoid the topic Bo for a second and being back into her element. Kenzi on the other hand just scrambled her face with all the disgust she felt by the pure thought.

"Bah, how gross is that? If something like that would try to lick at me I would run for my life."

"They usually just hunt Fae who know that the best way to get rid of them is to let them do what they need to do." The doctor replied clinical. She had let herself be hunt by a cerbera once for one of her researches and couldn't understand the fuss completely. People let themself be licked by their pets too, a cerbera was nothing different besides that it was a more human creature. But the doctor already learned that she was almost alone with this opinion and didn't comment it further.

"Then I guess this one was over the limit then? He looks very wild to me." Lauren nodded again, stopping her thoughts and putting a small strand of hair behind her ears.

"He was. The brain region where the smell is processed is swollen to its max. He wasn't able to think of anything but finding his prey. His death was probably an accident, caused by his sheer desperation."

"But someone tricked him to take the case, knowing what it would do to him, so he was murdered." A deep voice declared and both women turned around at the intruder who seemed to have witnessed their conversation.

"Of course they sent a dog to revenge a wolf." Kenzi said, and gave Dyson the cold shoulder.

"It's not like that. I'm here in my official position. This fae was murdered and I'll find out who did it." the man explained, walking closer to the two women with the file, he already received by the secretary, in hand.

"I'm afraid I can't help you any more than tell you what I already said in the report you obviously already read." Lauren answered professionally. It was the reason she gave the file to the secretary in the first place, to avoid the wolf and because there was nothing more to say.

"You said that the smell region in his brain was swollen to its limits, do you think you can extract the smell he was after?" Dyson asked, ignoring Kenzi's frosty glances as well as Lauren's distant behavior. He knew what they went through, he missed her too, he loved her too, and he was also scared for her. But Bo was old enough to make her own decisions. If he learned one thing in his long life it was that sometimes you have to be alone to learn what you want from life. Bo would come back soon, he knew that she was far too fond of her friends to live on her own again for years. Bo wasn't a loner, not like him. Deep down both women understood his refuse to search her himself, not to hunt her down like a lost pet. She would come back when she was ready, he was sure of that. If he stood in front of her out of the sudden she more likely would run into the opposite direction to avoid him. But he was still an easy target for their blame and he would let them be angry at him if it would make them feel better. He wished he had someone to blame too.

"I guess I could. All the smell receptors were activated; it should be possible to produce a synthetic sample. Even if it won't be 100% exact. It should smell like the original or at least be close. You should be able to get an impression and be able to hunt the scent." Lauren explained, already feeling her scientific curiosity fill her with excitement for the coming task. This would be a challenge she was ready to accept.

"Good, knowing who he searched maybe brings us to his employer and murderer."

"Whoa, what stop !" Kenzi interrupted the conversation, her anger clear in her eyes. "Am I right that you're willing to use your super-dog-senses to find a complete stranger for a dead guy you don't know either, in order to do your job but not to find the woman you say you love?" Kenzi screamed outraged, how dare he! Coming here with his request for Laurens help for the search but not doing the same thing for someone he knew and cared deeply about. "You stupid dog! Some people don't live forever and a day and don't want to risk not seeing their best friend ever again. If you can search than search the right one, search Bo!" The goth screamed and Lauren feared she would attack the man standing in front of her, not that she would try to stop her either. Dyson wouldn't fight back for fear of hurting Kenzi and Lauren had to agree that she would enjoy seeing Dyson struggle a little.

"It's my job Kenz, it's a crime I have to solve!" Dyson reasoned.

"So you just search criminals? Fine, Bo stole something from me the day she left." The goth lied. "I want you to solve that crime and bring this criminal succubus back so I can punish her myself." Instead of arguing with the young woman Dyson just took her into his arms and let her cry into his shoulder.

"She has to come back Dyson. I need her. It's strange to be in the loft without her. Why can't you just bring her back to us? Have you seen the doc lately? Those dark bags under her eyes and her loss of weight? I'm pretty sure the only time she eats is when I force her too." Kenzi cried and Lauren had to look away to avoid Dysons questioningglance. The young woman was right, but she hadn't thought it was that obvious. She had lost her appetite the moment she found Bos letter which she kept with her since then. Somehow Kenzi seemed to notice, probably feeling the same way.

"I gave her three months for her self-discovery trip, which is over exactly today and she hasn't walked her glorious but through the doors of any of our places. I wanted to keep it together and scream my anger at her when she comes back, but what if she doesn't? What if she's hurt or kidnapped or has amnesia? Haven't you seen this movie where the woman forgets her former life and has a completely new family? We are her family and I won't allow her to walk out on us that easily, do you hear me wolf?"

There it was, the emotional breakdown Lauren waited for since day one. The girl always seemed so calm that the doctor asked herself if she maybe deep down just denied her friends absence.

"I'm sorry Kenz but I can't and you know it. She'll come back soon I promise." The man tried to reassure her, still holding her in the strong embrace until she eventually was calm enough to punch him at the back and murmuring"Stubborn dog." Before she stopped the tight hug. "I hate it if I get emotional. Now I have one more reason to punch her when she comes back."

"Which she will. Don't worry little human." Dyson replied joking and got another punch from the woman but he could sense that she forgave him, maybe not completely yet but she would, with time.

"When do you think you'll have the sample ready Lauren?"

"If I start now maybe in three hours, I have some preparations to do but I believe I would be ready then." The doctor said, already searching for the book she'd read the procedure in.

"Yeah, but I'm pretty sure that tomorrow he's still as dead as he is now and his brain will still be swollen like me, after a peanut." Kenzi interrupted and took Lauren's hand away from the syringe she already took. "Sorry D-man, but the doc and me have plans. Your dead relative here has to wait until the ladies had their fun." her tone left no room for an argument and not even the blonde doctor wanted to argue, even if her fun night would be more here and trying to extract the smell than to go out to the Dal with Kenzi tonight. That was where she met with Bo most of the time, her grandfather was there, the place would practical scream Bo is not here! the whole time she was in there. It would take lot of shots to quiet that voice.

"But this is important Kenzi, maybe I should stay and..."

"Don't even think about ending this sentence, lady. You haven't been out of this lab in days and you need to see something different for your fantastic brain to think about than Bo or this crazy fae stuff that consumes your whole life. As our favorite succubus' BFF I have to take care of her love or she'll be very cranky. Trust me Lauren, you need this as much as me after my outburst and this guy there won't run anywhere. Dogman here should learn to work as a real detective and not come running to you every second. Go and ask witnesses or rescue cats from trees or whatever, because this woman here-" she pointed at Lauren "-is now off duty, man."

Dyson raised his hands in defeat and bowed to Kenzi. "As you say, milady. There's no rush. I don't want to be responsible for the high amount of overtime the lab already has." he responded, grinning.

"Good choice, man." mumbled the young goth, smiling a little herself. "Okay doc, then get ready. We want to-" but Kenzi was interrupted by high beeping alarm which seemed to come from the computer. The monitor also showed a few new notes, numbers, and diagrams instead of the mangled creature that Lauren examined a few hours ago.

"Okay what is this? Did you win in the lottery or something?" Lauren looked at the screen, trying to get every piece of information possible before she turned to Kenzi.

"No, it's an alarm. A fae is being treated in a human hospital." To answer Kenzis questing look the doctor clarified. "They run blood test which searches for a specific marker every fae has. If something happens , the alarm goes off and we can send our own people to help them." Lauren explained already packing up her medical equipment. "You don't trust the human race, doc, do you? I mean I'm sure they could also help a fae if they have to."

"It's not trust in their treatment methods. Most fae anatomy aren't like humans, in fact most fae have a new organ or different bloodstream. Think about the Glaves for example."

"Two hearts." Kenzi replied with understanding. Lauren nodded.

"But besides that, fae don't take human blood transfusions very well. That's the reason we have some special blood in every hospital in case of emergency."

"Where is it?" Dyson disturbed Lauren's explanation of things he already knew. He needed to do something active. The blond doctor went to the monitor again for a few seconds. "Little town, an hour per flight away but..."

"What?"

"The report just came in, it does not look good. The blood almost had no oxygen and the fae already lost a lot of it. I'm not sure our reserves will be able to cover that. And when they give human blood…"

"The body will get an allergic reaction and die." Kenzi said and Lauren nodded again.

"Maybe we should prepare to take a dead fae back." An uneasy silence came over them. Some unknown dying was never good and it was even worse when they didn't know where one of their own was.

"We will at least try to save the fae. Do you know who or what it is?"

"Not yet besides that it's a female, but the computer is searching for any accordance. If she was ever treated then we will know soon enough."

"Alright, I'll call for a helicopter from the Ash and you pack your stuff. Be ready in 5 minutes." the shifter commanded and went straight out of the room.

"So the chances are low but you're still trying to save her. Willing to cancel a Kenzi-special-night to safe a stranger?" Kenzi asked while Lauren packed some blood transfusions into a special box and then looking at her with wonderment in her eyes.

"Of course I'll try to save her. Maybe she's a fighter and will hold on until we get there. How would we repay that by letting her die? Everybody has a right to live and get the best medical treatment possible, Kenzi."

The young woman smiled. "Ahh and you wonder why Succubobo is so much in love with you." the goth smirked and earned a small grin from the blonde.

"Okay I'll be back tomorrow, sorry we have to delay our fun night."

"No problem, I'm used to being second when the world is at stake." Kenzi grinned. Before Lauren turned around to leave when the computer made another tone, letting Lauren know he found the searched fae. Quickly the doctor turned her attention back to the screen and immediately wished she hadn't.

"Oh god, please no." whispered Lauren. She had to steady herself on the desk behind her so she wouldn't break down.

"Um, Lauren why is there suddenly a photo of Bo on the screen, as well as her medical file?" Kenzi asked in a high pitched voice, already guessing and fearing the answer but Lauren gave it to her anyway.

"Because Bo is the fae they're treating in the hospital. She's the one with the little surviving chance we talked about."

A/N: Okay, that's it. What do you think? Should I continue? Do you want more? Anything completly OOC or just wrong or illogical?

Starophie has a lot to do and I did some changes and didn't want to bother her the whole time so this isn't beta checked completely. Sorry for that. As you probably noticed I'm no native speaker but I try my best.

Any constructive critism is welcome so please leave me review to let me know what you think. And if you just want to talk about the show, pm me. I love to talk ;).

So exited for the next episode and if you guys saw the promo you all know why.