I wonder if she knows. I often ask this to myself, no I always think, thinking that does she really see it? I wonder again. And with the same old question. Do you think she had been noticing?
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I go near her, hoping that I would be able to say something rather than the always thing I do to her… staring… I just can't stop it, its uncontrollable, I can't prevent my eyes to stop gazing at her, her figure, her hair, her eyes, her… uhh… her everything…
God, am I crazy or something? Uhh I don't know, I don't care. I just want to stay like this, hiding… staring at her…
It was heaven for me…
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Even when night comes and dark shadows start concealing my window, I still gaze at her, hoping to last forever… and when storms hit their thunder, I'm imagining her… I get my strength from her smile… oh, I think, and I vision her… what is she doing? What is she doing when it's raining? I want to run and go to her, protect her and embrace her with my arms… swoop down and take her to a place where she and me are the only remnants… and cover her with my wings… but… I cant… I'm too weak… afraid of something… Van Fanel… what are you afraid of? Stupid me…
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Well now its morn, I can't even seem to surpass the morning sun now it's a brand new day, another day of hiding, another day of loneliness and pain…
If she'll just look… look inside of me… she'll know….
That I love her so….
Another day….
Hitomi…
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Hi there folks... actually… and I know you' were all asking why I entitled this Hitomi… well, you know I got this idea from the noun "Hitomi" which means "Look" in Japanese and I taught if Hitomi would only take a look inside of Van... umm…she'll know every hidden things Van have.
Yet again, another ugly story… gomen T_T
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