it's 11:52 in the night I was trying to sleep but this idea wouldn't leave me alone I'm sorry for the lack of editing.
She wipes the tears dripping down her cheeks with the back of her hand as she sorts the laundry. Kate freezes when she sees the next piece of laundry is Castles top she picks it up gently as if it's going to disappear just like he did. It's the blue one the top which brought out his soft loving gentle blue eyes which she doesn't know if she will ever look into again.
Kate pulls the top up to her nose and the smell of him the smell of home brings only more heartbreak to her heart more she fears one day she will loses his scent and that spraying his cologne once the scent is lost will not work
She cuddles the top close to her as she walks to the bedroom when she reaches the bedroom she lies on her side and closes her eyes. Every time she has closed her eyes since he was gone he comes back to her in a dream.
Kate feels a strong arm around her and someone nuzzling her hair she turns over to see him a couple of tears drip down her cheeks his thumb wipes the tears off she hold his hand on her cheek " why are you crying my beautiful Kate?," " Cause I miss you, babe where are you?,come home to me," " I'm trying my best to find my way back to you Kate but I don't know where I'm myself and I miss you too,"
" I really hope I find you soon cause I need the real not the you were I have to close my eyes to see you and when I wake up your gone and the bed is cold and empty," " but remember Kate you have another person to look after," he places his hand on her mini bump " I was going to tell you on our wedding night,Castle," " I wish I could see you get more and more beautiful through out your pregnancy to hold your hand when your giving birth,"
" you will get to experience those things Rick I will find you and I won't ever give up or move on," "' Kate don't go down the rabbit hole again our baby needs you," " I think it's too late," " No it's not Kate you have to dig yourself out even if you need help from Alexis or anyone,"
" okay I'll try for me, our baby and us,"
He takes a deep breath " Kate all I want you is to be happy," " no," she cuts him off " Kate let me finish," " no cause I know what your going to say and no i refuse too," " okay it's time to wake up soon Kate it's nearly dinner time," " I'm not hungry I want to stay here with you," " just eat some dinner and then you can close your eyes and we can talk again," " okay, I love you Rick," he places a kiss on the tip of her nose " I love you too Kate,"