Hello Everyone

Here's the companion piece to Reason to be Sane. Because it's a companion, you don't need to have read Alice's POV "Reason to be Sane" but I would hope that you'd like to..

This is partially pre-written and I will try to keep it that way. Because of the scheduling system I have, this lovely story falls onto the once a week updating.

This is an all Alice and Jasper story. You know how in Eclipse we here about their first meeting and the fact that Maria came once and it didn't end well? And then the meeting with the Cullens after Alice wakes up? Well... this is that story... but I've taken... well, a few liberties.

That also means... No Bella. However, as mentioned in Reason to be Sane, there will be a sequel and that's when Bella comes in. I've kept from my previous readers what the sequel is going to be about and even the name of it, so...

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Each chapter will be titled with the most powerful emotion in the chapter. For instance, here it's self-hatred.

I'll see you down the bottom... but for now, here's Jasper.

I hated myself.

It was cruel, what I did to others.

Hunting them…

Scaring them…

Drinking their blood…

Draining them of life and then hiding their body as if they were nothing…

It was torturous.

I could feel everything that they felt… the fear, the pain, the desperation… and I did not need a vivid imagination; I did not need to try and guess what was wrong to know.

I already knew.

Fear because of what I was… their natural instincts as a vampire's prey was to be shocked to fear… to be unable to move because of that fear.

Pain because of the venom that was running through their veins, burning them from the inside out… making it impossible for them to move… to fight… to scream.

And desperation because they knew what was going to happen… they knew they were going to die and as much as they didn't want it to happen, they also knew that it would not be stopped. They only prayed that it would end quickly.

It made it all the easier to kill them… to drink their blood.

Each time I did so, I felt worse about myself. It was like I was going into a depression…

I truly, truly hated myself.

I was a monster; I had no right to live, to do what I was doing.

I left Peter and Charlotte after a while, for a number of reasons.

Mostly because I could not handle doing what I was doing to my fellow humans… fellow because I used to be one of them…

… but there was no trace of the man that I used to be anywhere in me.

He was gone.

In his place was this… this thing… this vampire… a monster of the night.

But to my surprise, it seemed that God did love someone no matter what… because in leaving Peter and Charlotte… and coming to Pennsylvania, I found my saviour.

My saviour may have had quirks of her own, but that did not matter.

She was the single most beautiful thing I had ever seen.

Black, pixie-cut hair… short… framing her face.

Pixie features; an adorable elfin nose, cute little lips… and her eyes… they held a knowledge that no one else had.

She had the gift of sight; of seeing things before they happen.

She was God's gift to me… a gift that I would cherish forever.

She gave me a reason to live… though she said I had given her a reason to be sane for the first year of her life.

This is my story. This is how I found her and how we found the life we were destined to have… me with my little pixie darlin'.

Though I'd never call her that to her elfin face.

Just so you know, the chapters will be around 500 words - 1500 words at the max. Sometimes I'll cut them in between or down to around 500 because I think it's appropriate.

Now, please review and tell me what you think! See, it's so easy for you to do so now! Just look there, down below! *Looks there down below*

See you next week for the second chapter!

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