Hello and welcome to our new Angel and Demon AU book!
I have some great plans for this book! Ooh, I can't wait! There will be trigger warnings such as abuse, rape, cutting, suicidal attempts, suicidal thoughts, miscarriages and any other fucked up thing that comes to mind as I develop this fic.
This is Levi x Eren (meaning only Levi will top), with a few other parings. I do not own anything.
All rights go to their owners. (AoT/SnK : Hajime Isayama.)
Special thanks to Cheezysan for making the cover art for this fic. Made to my request :) Thank you!
Enough talking, enjoy the fic! *bows and walks away*
*I recommend you listen to this song while reading this part. It may have to go on repeat, but don't start it yet. I'll tell you when to start it. Song: Make It Home - August Alsina.*
"Are you sure Levi?" Eren asked while stepping out of the car, wincing slightly in pain while leaning on the car for support.
"I'm positive Eren. Are you sure you don't want me to walk you inside?" Levi spoke softly, concern in his voice. Eren had woken up feeling sick and dizzy. He had assured Levi that he was fine, but by lunch time he had thrown up all of his food from the day and was unable to keep anything down. Levi had immediately taken Eren to the hospital after that.
"No, I'm fine," Eren chuckled slightly though he felt like he'd hit the floor as soon as he let go of the car. "Plus, you have work in a little bit. I can go by myself."
"Tell me as soon as it's over, no matter what I'm doing alright? I'll come pick you up." Levi gave Eren a stern look so the brunet would remember to call him.
"Alright, alright. Go on, I don't want you to keep Isabel and Farlan waiting long." Eren took a deep breath before balancing his weight and letting go of the car.
"Okay, I love you Eren." Levi called out to Eren with a smile as he slowly walked to the hospital doors.
"Love you too." Eren called back before he disappeared into the hospital. Levi was about to pull the car out of park before his phone rung a familiar Darth Vador -Star Wars- theme. He knew Farlan was calling. He answered his phone before putting it on speaker phone and setting it in his lap while changing the gears out of park and pulling out of the parking lot and on the street heading to downtown Trost.
"Yo?" Farlan spoke through the phone.
"Yes Farlan? What is it?" Levi sighed, he really didn't want to have Eren go alone, but he couldn't skip work. Even if he wanted to.
"Where are you at? You were suppose to be here twenty minutes ago." Farlan announced matter-of-factly.
"Who's the boss again? Me or you?" Levi spat back. He was slightly irritated with the fact that Farlan was keeping tabs on when he was suppose to be act work.
"You are Levi. I was just wondering where you were at. That's all." Farlan chuckled softly at Levi.
"I was dropping Eren off at the doctors. He felt really sick and couldn't keep any food down." Levi turned down a familiar road, heading towards his house.
"Is he okay?" Farlan sounded concerned. Eren was like a little brother to him.
"I don't know, I hope so. Me and Eren were planning something." Levi spoke vaguely. He knew if Farlan knew, then so would Isabel; and she'd never shut up about it.
"Oh? What were you planning?" Farlan spoke with a hint of interest in his voice.
"I'll tell you if you, don't tell Isabel." Levi already knew the read-head would find out eventually. He sighed while pulling into his driveway. He didn't live that far away.
"I won't, I won't! Just tell me!" Farlan begged loudly.
"Fine," Levi got out of the car before locking it and heading into his house. "Me and Eren were planning on having a baby." Levi announced while taking his shoes off and setting his keys on the kitchen counter.
"A baby?! I'm going to be an aunt?!" Isabel screeched from the background.
"Where did you come from?!" Farlan yelled after her loud outburst. Levi set down his phone once he got in his room before going in the closet to change his clothes.
"Will you two shut the fuck up? Yes, Eren and I want to have a baby." Levi spoke from his closet.
"Congrats." Farlan clapped. Levi refused the urge to roll his eyes.
"Why are congratulating us? We don't know if he's actually pregnant. I hope so though." Levi changed into a black shirt and baggy black jeans.
"What if he is? Does that mean you're out of the game for good?" Farlan decided to get out of his desk chair and walk around.
"Yea. If he is pregnant I'll only stay in until he realizes he needs my help and asks for it." Levi grabbed his phone and walked to the kitchen.
"Its good that you have a plan about all of this." Farlan praised while beginning to look for Isabel.
"How could I not? I have to have everything planned for Eren just in case." Levi opened the fridge. The first thing he saw was a container with blue sticky note on it. Something was written on it in perfect cursive.
Take a snack with you to work. You're going to be hungry. Its healthy and you better eat it. Eat this, and I will give you something sweet to eat later. K? Love you.
-Eren.
"That's sweet. I remember back when Eren was a total badass." Farlan laughed.
"He still is a badass. I just have him...restrained." Levi grabbed the container and closed the fridge. He grabbed his keys and walked outside. He locked the door back before heading down the sidewalk. Going the opposite way he came.
"Wow, restrained? What do you mean by that?"
"I keep him from doing certain things, not completely stopping him from it but just letting him do it less." Levi spoke as he walked down the side walk.
"Examples Levi. I need examples." Farlan sighed.
"Well, Eren still has a good eye and aim, but I refuse to let him back in the game just so he can shoot people. So occasionally I take him out in the woods and set up a shooting range for him. He also still likes parkour so I occasionally let him do it. Like I said, I let him do what he loves to do, just not often enough to where he wants to get back into the game." Levi sighed, enjoying the fresh air.
"Wow, hearing you say all this make me remember back when Eren was a rival and you hated his guts. Now you're doing all of this for him? You've gone soft Levi." Falan spoke in a sing song voice.
"Do you want me to knock the fucking taste out of your mouth for saying some bullshit like that?" Levi growled into the receiver.
"No need. Its good you're going soft. It means you'll be a great dad some day." Farlan chuckled. Levi sighed. He just couldn't stay mad at this guy.
"Thanks." Levi replied.
"No problem. I call you later. Isabel disappeared somewhere and I have to find her. Oh, and mom said give her a call when you get the chance." Farlan spoke while walking down another hall.
"Alright. Bye." Levi rolled his eyes with a slight smile.
"Bye." Farlan replied before the line went dead.
"I'll be a great dad someday?" Levi repeated while putting his phone away.
~.~.~
"Eren Jaeger?" The nurse called. Eren lifted his head up abruptly since he was nodding off.
"I'm here." He replied. Her amber eyes drifted to him and she smiled warmly.
"Please come with me." She motioned him over. He stood and followed her.
"How are you today?" She said when they began to walk down the hall.
"Terrible." Eren replied with a soft chuckle. He continued to look at his feet as the walked.
"Well out job here at Trost Medical Hospital is to ensure our patients feel well. So we'll make sure to make you terrible day into a good day." She looked back and smiled. Eren faked a perfect smile back.
"Okay." He replied. She lead him to the last room on the hall on the left side.
"Your doctor will be here momentarily. In the meantime, please wait here. Would you like anything?" She smiled as Eren sat on the edge of the hospital bed.
"Some water please. My throat's kinda dry." Eren laughed.
"Alright. Be right back." She smiled and left. As soon as the door closed he let out a deep sigh and pulled his phone out of his jacket and saw he had a text from Levi.
Levi: Are you okay? Did you find out what was wrong?
Eren winced slightly from the headache that was forming but still sent his reply.
Eren: No. I didn't find out what's wrong, but I'll be okay. Don't worry about me.
"EREN~!" Came a loud voice as someone entered the room. It was his friend Hanji.
"Hanji," Eren covered his head and ears. "Don't yell. I have a headache." Eren whined.
"Sorry sweet pea. What seems to be the problem today?" Hanji tossed him a cold water bottle that he almost didn't catch.
"What? You don't know?" He opened his water a downed half of it. "I thought doctors are suppose to be reading the patience's papers." He smirked.
"Well for starters, I do things my way. I'm also only 19. I'm forgetful." She chuckled before grabbing a chair and dragging it in front of Eren before sitting down.
"Remind me again why a 19 year old is a doctor?" Eren asked before drinking more of his water.
"Why is a 19 year old in my care for the day?" She raised a brow.
"I don't know. Please enlighten me." Eren replied sarcastically.
"Because I'm smart." She smiled triumphantly.
"Crazy is more like it." Eren mumbled behind his hand.
"Shut it. Regardless, why are you here today Eren?" She pushed her glasses up on the bridge of her nose.
"I woke up sick and couldn't keep any food down. Levi quickly took me to the hospital." Eren shrugged with a slight yawn. He was so tired.
"Oh?" Her eyes gleamed. "Eren answer me this..." She leaned back in her chair.
"Yea? What?" Eren set his water bottle on the table next to him.
"When was the last time you and Levi had sex?" She cocked her head to the side. Eren's face quickly heated up with a deep blush.
"W-what?! Why does that matter?! Why would you ask me such a personal question?!" Eren covered his face in embarrassment.
"Just answer the question." She huffed while taking off her glasses. She cleaned the lens on her shirt and put them back on.
"Uh...let me think." Eren looked down at his feet. "Yesterday was close but only ended at a make-out session, so... About three weeks ago." Eren nodded at his answer. A dumb grin quickly spread across her face.
"Well if you don't know what's wrong, then you are surely blind, but I'll still run some tests for confirmation," She stood. "I'll run a blood, urine and semen test on you. So be prepared Eren. I'll come back with two cups." She began to laugh.
"What's so funny?" Eren raised a brow.
"I said I'll come back. Get it? Co-" She began to explain.
"No, no. I get it. Just hurry back, I want to have dinner made before Levi gets home." Eren laid back on the bed and closed his eyes.
"Alright. I'll try as fast as I can." She smiled and walked out of the room before closing the door behind herself.
~.~.~
"Sup fuckers." Levi announced when he walked into an abandoned building. Where he, Farlan and Isabel established their hideout. Farlan quickly walked by only to stop and walk back.
"Oh Levi, you're here. Have you seen Isabel? I still haven't found her." Farlan scratched his head nervously.
"So your're saying, you let our sister roam around in this creepy ass building, and now she's lost? Am I correct?" Levi raised a brow.
"Sadly." Farlan nodded.
"You're dumb. I know where she is, and I just got here." Levi shook his head and began walking down a hall.
"I'm not dumb!" Farlan pouted as he followed Levi.
"Then how could you not know where she is?" Levi asked as he continued to walk.
"I don't know. She just popped up, then she disappeared." Farlan reminded.
"And have you heard anything from our victim?" Levi looked back at Farlan.
"A few occasional yells, but nothing more."
"That means she's there torturing him. Put two and two together Farlan. That could be the difference between life and death." Levi stopped in front of a door where Isabel's laugh could be heard.
"Sharp as ever, Levi." Farlan laughed. Levi playfully rolled his eyes before opening the door.
"Having fun without me, you shitty brat?" Isabel set down her pliers before turning towards Levi.
"Levi-bro! You're here." She chuckled.
"You really did a number on him. You've been taking some pointers from me?" He walked further the room to inspect her work.
"Of course. Beat ass first, ask questions later." She repeated said like her own personal mantra.
"Good job." He playfully ruffled her hair.
"L-let...me go..." Their captive spoke weakly. Levi grabbed his hair and yanked it back. Causing a strangled cry to rip from his throat.
"What?" Levi put a hand to his ear. "What was that? I couldn't hear you over the sound of bitch in your voice. Don't be scared now, you have something to say, you better speak the fuck up now, or forever hold your peace." Levi growled.
"M-my boss will get you...all of you...better watch y-yourselves." He groaned in anger. "So I-I suggest you let me go..."
"I suggest you shut the fuck up before I shove my foot so far up your nasty ass, that you will forever taste my shoelaces." Levi glared daggers. He growled when he heard the phone ring in the distance.
"Farlan. Phone." Farlan nodded and headed off to get it.
"Levi?..." Isabel said softly. Levi let go of their captive's hair.
"I'm fine. I just think disrespectful brats need to be taught a lesson." Levi tsk'd.
"Phone's for you Levi." Farlan gave Levi a look. They both nodded before Levi headed off to the phone. He got to the phone and picked it up off the table where Farlan set it.
"Who the fuck is this and how did you get this number?" Levi spat out into the receiver.
"That's not important. What's important is that you let him go or we're going to have a problem." A deep voice replied. It was too deep to be natural. Levi quickly knew someone was disguising their voice.
"Only a scared bitch would hide their voice, and if you want him then come get him, fucker." Levi rolled his eyes at the phone.
"Oh? Then how about my boys pay Eren a visit?" Levi's eyes widened. "Trost Medical Hospital right? I can have them over there before you say 'sorry', and they'll have no problem killing any and everyone to get to him."
"What if I think you're bullshiting me?" Levi returned with a growl.
"I guess you can't know. Do you really want to take that gamble of 'what if'?" The person chuckled.
"Touch him and so help me, I'll fucking kill you myself." Levi promised while gripping the phone tighter.
"There's no need for any of this. Let him go and that will be the end. Done and in a nutshell."
"Fine." Levi huffed and hung up the phone. He walked back to the room where Isabel was about to pull off another fingernail.
"Isabel, stop," He spoke while looking away. "Untie him and let him go."
"Let him go?! Levi are you fucking crazy?! He was snooping through our shit!" Isabel quickly stood.
"I agree with her Levi. Let him go? That doesn't sound like a good idea." Farlan shook his head.
"I said fucking let him go! If we don't then someone will kill Eren and everyone at the hospital!" He yelled back. Farlan and Isabel both stopped talking.
"I've killed more people than I can remember... Innocent, guilty, young, old. I didn't care," Levi lifted his head up. "If letting this bastard go is the difference between life and death for people, then I'm doing it. We all have to pay for our sins one day. This is the first step towards it."
Levi pulled a knife out of his back pocket and walked over to their captive, tied up and bloody. He cut the ropes that bounded him to the chair.
"Tell anyone about where we are and I will kill you. Regardless of everything I just said," Levi ran the knife along the captive's cheek. Making it bleed.
"Understand?" The captive replied with a quick nod.
"Good," Levi stood with a sigh. "Farlan, show this useless son of a bitch out of here." Levi walked out of the room and to his office.
~.~.~
"Okay Eren. I'm done with the tests." Hanji stepped back into the room to see Eren asleep, snoring lightly.
"Eren honey," She shook him softly. "Wake up please."
"Levi?" Eren mumbled softly.
"No. It's Hanji. Wake up, I have your results." She walked back to her chair and sat in it. Eren scratched his head and slowly sat up, giving Hanji his full attention.
"Yes?" Eren yawned.
"Well I checked your blood, urine and semen like I said, which made me wonder. What did you think about to make yourself cum?" She smirked. Eren started to wipe the sleep from one of his forest green eyes.
"Are you fucking kidding me? One, why would you ask some creepy shit like that, and two, isn't it pretty obvious?" Eren replied with a blank expression.
"Its not creepy. Doctors have to ask these sorts of questions. Also, yes, I know its obvious I just wanted to know if you were brave enough to say it. That's all." She smirked behind her clipboard.
"So what did you want me to say? I though about Levi, fucking me on about any and everything? You want me to say that's what I thought of while jerking off so I could cum. Is that what you wanted to hear, Hanji?" Eren glared softy.
"Maybe." She snickered.
"You're a creep." He shook his head.
"Shut it and read the paper," She handed him the clipboard. "You've tested negative in everything but one test." She sighed deeply while adjusting her glasses again. Eren let his eyes quickly scan the paper until they stopped on one line where in big bold letters it said...
Positive.
Eren continued to look at the line. Unable to say anything. He lifted his hand and pointed to the table where his phone was. Hanji picked it up and handed it to him. Eren unlocked it and went to Levi's contact name. All without removing his eyes from the paper. His thumb hovered over the call button before clicking it.
~.~.~
"Tell it again Levi-bro!" Isabel whined as they walked back towards Levi's house.
"Why? I tell you this story damn near everyday." Levi sighed while looking at the stars.
"Just do it!" She whined.
"I've told it so many times that you could recite it back to me." Levi rolled his eyes.
"Just do it. Otherwise she'll never shut up." Farlan sighed.
"Fine. The day I fell for Eren was a weird day. As you guys know, Eren was part of a rival gang. Well back before I knew you guys, my gang had went to create a truce and ultimately widen our trust, money and territory. Better said than done. So we got there and we sat down. Of course Eren sat back at his desk and kept a close eye on us. As the meeting went on, tensions started to rise and the two gangs began to argue. Before anyone really realized it, everyone had already pulled out their guns, trigger finger itching to pull it. My gun was pointed at Eren, who still continued to sit calmly in his chair. Someone quickly called his name and he ducked under the desk. The sudden move caused someone to pull their trigger. Bullets were flying through the air."
"Now before I make Eren seem like a punk, cause he was and still is the exact opposite, he came back from under the desk, wielding two desert eagles like a badass. Closing one eye, he began unloading his clips. Getting head-shots like no ones business. When the smoke cleared only me and him stood. My gun to his, both aimed at the head. Ready to kill. Despite seeing the fury and determination in his eyes, he didn't pull the trigger. And I couldn't bring myself to do it either. We should have been paying attention cause he was quickly shot by a survivor of my gang. Before I could stop myself, I had pulled the trigger, killing him. Not Eren, but my own gang member."
"I quickly rushed to Eren who was trying to crawl away to safety. I stopped him and insisted to check his wound. Of course he kicked and screamed and tried to reach for his gun, but I pinned him down and towered over him. I don't know what it was about that moment that made me fall in love with those eyes, even when they prickled with tears. He let me help him and we ran away from our gangs, creating our own. That's when we let you guys join. I made him leave because it was becoming more dangerous. The remains of Eren's gang were starting to come together and they were looking for him. So I had him leave, but we've been together ever since." Levi finished his story with a deep sigh. The story always took a lot out of him every time he told it.
"So sweet~!" Isabel cried out. Levi was about to start talking again but he felt a shiver go up his spine. The same one he got that same morning when Eren was throwing up. Telling him something wasn't right.
"Levi?" Farlan asked.
"I feel like we're being watched," He shook his head. "Maybe I'm crazy." He turned only to feel something whisk by he face. Opening a cut on his cheek. His eyes widened when he realized it was a gunshot.
*Start the song now*
"Run!" Levi quickly darted down the alleyway to the left. Farlan and Isabel sprinted after him.
"What the fuck was that?!" Farlan yelled. Levi was too busy looking left and right, noticing his surroundings before turning down another alley.
"Gang from earlier! Damnit! I knew I shouldn't have let him go!" Levi cursed at himself. His phone began to buzz in his pocket but his legs were moving too fast for him to notice.
"What do we do Levi!?" Isabel yelled. There was a wooden fence in their path up ahead.
"Parkour it!" Levi front flipped over it and landed on his feet. Isabel and Farlan quickly followed and they continued to run. Levi's phone buzzed in his pocket again. Another gunshot was heard and Levi yelled in pain. He had gotten shot in the leg.
"Son of a bitch!" Levi kept running. His adrenaline was running through his veins too quickly. He couldn't stop.
"Levi!" Isabel cried out just as Levi's phone buzzed again. He looked back and saw her forest green eyes, full of fear. Reminding him of...
"Eren!" Levi's eyes widened and he quickly pulled his phone out of his pocket and answered the call.
"H-Hello?" Levi replied while turning down another alley. He looked back to make sure Isabel and Farlan were still there.
"Levi?... Why are you panting? What's going on?" Eren sounded concerned and slightly scared.
"I'm fine baby. Are you okay?" Levi could barely hear over the sound of his heartbeat in his ears.
"I'm fine. I just needed to tell you something important." Eren's voice cracked slightly. Levi stopped abruptly at the gate in front of them.
"Fuck! Farlan, boost Isabel up and I'll boost you up!" Levi ordered quickly.
"But your leg-." Isabel was quick to protest.
"There's no time! Hurry up!" Farlan quickly locked his fingers and help boost Isabel over the gate. She climbed over and jumped down.
"You're next." Levi put his phone on speaker phone before putting it in his pocket and locking his fingers together. Farlan quickly stepped on them and Levi pushed him up. He climbed over and jumped down.
"What did you need to tell me?!" Levi pulled his phone out of his pocket before turning off the speaker phone. He put it to his ear and put his foot to one of the holes on the gate.
"Freeze! Make another move and you're dead!" Levi tsk'd and turned back to a group of three guys. He couldn't see a possibility of him surviving the attack.
"I went and ran tests with Hanji's crazy ass, and tested negative for all but one test." Eren took a deep breath. Levi couldn't think straight. Eren couldn't hear what was going on?
"Levi, Levi, Levi. Did you really think we wouldn't come for Eren?" The first guy spoke while stepping forward, aiming his gun at Levi's chest.
"Over my fucking dead body. You aren't getting him." Levi growled.
"I was pretty surprised when I saw the results but... I really want to tell you." Eren chuckled.
"Suit yourself. The guy spoke. His finger began to pull back on the trigger. Levi turned to climb the gate.
"Levi... I'm pregnant... we're going to be parents!" Eren smiled.
Bam!
Levi's eyes widened as he hit the ground. Accidentally turning the speaker back on. Meaning Eren could hear everyone and everyone could hear Eren.
"Levi!" Isabel cried while trying to climb back over the gate.
"What's wrong with Levi!? Levi! Levi, speak to me! Please!" Eren begged. Levi pulled his phone closer to his ear. He could hear the faint sound of a heart monitor. It began to speed up.
"He was shot!" Isabel yelled. The members of the gang ran off in the opposite direction.
"What?! No, no, no! God, please!" Eren pulled off the pieces connecting him to the heart monitor before getting up and running out of the room.
"Eren? Go back to your room! Your lungs and heart have to monitored right now!" Hanji tried to stop him but he pushed past her.
"I have to get to Levi! Don't die on me! Not on me or this child! Don't leave us Levi!" Eren yelled into the phone. Levi gasped for breath, clinging on to any last bit of life he had.
"E...ren...help h-him...i-inhaler...d-dresser...h-hurry..." Levi gasped. He knew Eren had really bad asthma and him running with his heart being bad too would only make it worse. Farlan pulled on Isabel's arm, leading her away.
"No! Levi get up! Come on!" She screamed as she was practically dragged away.
"B-behave you...two...l-love you...tell m-mom...l-love her...s-sorry... so...v-very sorry..." He apologized softly.
"Stay awake! We're coming back for you!" Farlan called out before they both disappeared.
"E-Eren...stop..." Levi spoke softly to his phone. Eren continued to run and pant.
"No! Levi stay awake I'm coming to get you!" Eren wheezed softly but he didn't stop.
"Eren stop! Think about the baby!" Hanji called behind him.
"This baby is a part of Levi too! I refuse to let him die. He needs to live, see, love, and grow with this child! Its been our dream! I don't give a damn about how young I am or that I'm in love with another male! None of that matters to me! Only Levi and this child! I can't stop!" Eren cried. His voice cracked.
"L-love you...love this c-child...f-for me...I've p-protected you s-so l-long... return t-the favor for o-our child..." Levi's eyes kept closing as he listened to the rhythmic slapping of Eren's bare feet as he ran.
"You're helping me! Don't you dare die on me you bastard! Remember how badly you wanted a child! You have one! You can't leave now!" Eren panted. The slapping of his feet slowed down as Eren's breathing became ragged and uneven.
"...Sorry..." Levi closed his eyes.
"God please... Please bless him." Eren's begged. His eyes rolled in the back of his head and he dropped to the floor. Hanji screamed.
"Eren! Oh shit! I can't find a pulse! He's not breathing either! Stay with me Eren! Don't die Eren! Open your eyes!" Hanji yelled.
"Open your eyes!...
Open your eyes!...
Open your eyes!..." Hanji's voice echoed as it faded in and out.
"Levi. Open your eyes." Levi heard Eren's voice, softly coaxing him to open his eyes. Levi opened his eyes and sat up. He was in a white chair in an all white room. A woman with white hair and glasses sat across from him. She looked up and him and smiled.
"You're awake. Well, Levi Ackerman... Welcome to heaven. My name's Rico." She smiled. Levi's eyes widened.
~.~
Well... That's the first chapter, and it only gets better from there :) Tell me how you guys like the book so far. Next chapter will be posted next Friday. I will also share 3 Tarot cards every chapter until the end of the book. Anyway, I hope you guys will enjoy this book.
~Tarot Cards Of The Day~
0 (0) - The Fool: The real message here is one of optimism. You must make a leap of faith, taking only the baggage that benefits you, with the ultimate trust that you will make it alright. The Fool encourages you to go beyond your boundaries, to work past your fears, and to believe that anything is possible.
I (1) - The Magician: The Magician's lesson is awareness: watch what you bring into your life as well as what you give to others. You have to walk your talk: decide what you want and take action to make your dreams a reality. You alone have the power within you—you need only to concentrate on channeling it to your best advantage.
II (2) - The High Priestess: The High Priestess indicates that you are seeking more esoteric knowledge, experiencing a spiritual awakening. The attainment of such wisdom requires discipline. She also reminds you to look for the subtle meanings beyond everyday events. You must listen to your inner voice to hear the truth that lies beyond the shallow, mundane world. Trust your instincts.