Summary: James Potter just can't catch a break.

Chapter 1

James struggled against the body pinning him to the wall. He knew it was a fruitless cause as the man against him was taller, stronger and older. He could no longer hold back the tears that were threatening to spill when the one of the man's left hands slipped down to the waistband of his jeans.

The only thing he could think about while the guy raped him, was 'Is Sirius gonna think I'm a whore?' When it was all over bruises decorated his ribs and pelvic bones. James ran as fast as he could to the dorm trying to remain inconspicuous under the cover of night.

After ten minutes of aimlessly running through corridors he found himself in front of the fat lady portrait.

"Password?" The fat lady asked sleepily. Had she been more awake she may have been able to see how distressed James really was.

"Buttermelon." He piped up in an uncharacteristically small voice. But to be fair, he was feeling particularly tiny, as if the world could smash him and leave him wilting in the dark.

It being 3 AM the Gryffindor common room was completely empty. James raced up the steps hoping to remain undetected by his dorm mates- actually, no. He wanted to remain undetected by his boyfriend, Sirius.

The dorm was fast asleep-or so he thought-when he walked in. When suddenly he felt strong arms wrap around him from behind. Without thinking he let out a pitiful, involuntary whimper.

"What's wrong Jamie," Sirius asked concern evident in his voice. Siri unconciously held James tighter to his chest.

He felt more than saw James shake his head, James' messy hair tickled his chin. Sirius led his lover to his bed.

Once they were settled on Sirius' bed, sirius immediatley charmed the curtains shut and performed 'Lumos,' Sirius took in James too white pale skin, his usual full pink lips and strange pink-ish purple color. Then he saw the bruises. James followed sirius' gaze down his body and choked on a sob when he saw sirius eyeing his ribs and hips. Then back up to his kiss swollen lips.

"What were you doing?" Sirius asked in a venemous tone.

"I-I-It's not what y-you think." James said looking even smaller than before if that was possible.

"Jamie, I am going to ask you this and I will trust that you're not lying to me."

James nodded almost hesitantly. He saw sirius stiffen and straighten at the sight of this.

"Were you-"

'Oh no-' James thought 'Sirius thinks I am a whore! I knew it!'

"-cheating on me?"

James spluttered, he was not expecting.

"No of course not, i would never," he replied with no hesitancy.

At this Sirius tugged James into a laying position spooning around James. Sirius felt his Jamie relax in his arms and that was enough for the time being.

James fell asleep to Sirius' heartbeat and Sirius fell asleep to James' nearly shallow breathing.