We walk through the winter bazaar
Not touching
It's a strange place for a first date but he doesn't seem to mind
He almost has a childlike look to his eyes as we pass from booth to booth
He buys me a cookie shaped like a mitten, hard with red frosting
When I bite it, it crumbles in my hands and gets all over my sweatshirt
He looks at me apologetically and says that he's sorry and it's all he could afford
I just smile at him and this brightens him up
I don't like him looking sad
I'm so glad we were put together for that biology project
Before he was just that friendless kid who mashed all of his food together
A kid who searched for aliens in the Manhattan skyline
I never saw his beauty before
I buy him a cupcake to make him feel less bad and he starts to lick the frosting up
He glances up at me and blushes slightly
I'm sorry, he says, If it disgusts you
I say it's fine and that everyone did that
He says that that he once tried to put back a licked one in kindergarten
I laugh and say that I remember that and that was you?
He finishes licking and throws out the rest of the cupcake
We go outside and sit in the cold, our breath making ghosts in front of us
He touches my hand lightly and I turn and smile at him
He smiles back and I swear that he borrows wattage from the twinkling lights above us
I ask him if he wants cocoa and he shakes his head and says that the cupcake was sweet enough
He apologizes for my cookie again and I shake my head
Then I kiss him
I don't know why I do but I do
And he tastes like sweet frosting and he kisses me back and it's the best feeling ever
And it may just be the sweetness of the cupcake but I feel my cynicism cracking and went we part I look at him
And I know that I love him