Disclaimer: I do not own FMA!!

Warning: Not sure if you would classify this as yaoi or not Language

Summary:Love makes you do the craziest things, but no one thought that he would go so far to be with the one he loved. Yoaish RoyxEd

ishould also clarify: this is after the movie. Al is alive. Ed still has automail ^_^

Love Is a Crazy Thing

1

By: Kumiko-kun

It was just another morning, the same thing as the day before and everyday before that. Waking up to the realization that this morning you will end up doing the same thing again, what kind of life is that? Paperwork after paperwork, no missions to go on, there was nothing to look for now that his brother was back. Yet, even with his brother back, his life was quiet and dull. He was happy that his brother was back to his old self, even if the memories of the years they spent questing for the Philosopher's Stone were gone. Every time his brother would visit Central to see how he was doing, he'd smile and reply. With Winry every present at his side, Al was always full of smiles. Wasn't that his goal in the beginning? To give Al back the body he lost, to give him back the feeling of being happy and smiling? Now, it seemed that everything was done. Al was happy now; he had everything he wanted in life. Ed had gone to the wedding between Al and Winry, he had been present at the birth of their first child, and now three years later, Ed felt like his heart wasn't quite whole.

Something was missing in him and he had yet to find out what it was. An empty void that even Al, Winry and his nephew couldn't fill. The time he spent with Havoc, Breda, and Feury wasn't enough to fill that even. Riza had long noticed the depression he had fallen into recently but even she couldn't help. With Roy becoming a General, he spent most of his time in the office filling out paperwork or away at meetings with the Furher. No matter what anyone did, he always felt alone and bored. Research no longer interested him; even the once great alchemy that he loved so much began to be just another burden to him.

On the days he didn't work, he spent most of his time staring out the window at the sky. His golden eyes held in him something that even he couldn't figure out. The sky above him seemed to calm him down from his turmoil of boredom and depression. Soft white clouds floated by, passing before the sun and casting a shadow on the ground below on the clear days. When it rained, it was the worst for him. The rain seemed to reflect the feeling in his heart, the emptiness that was seemingly endless. Would this feeling of boredom and depression ever go away?

Today of all days, when he felt like walking down the street and jumping in front of a car, the sky was bright and sunny. He peered up at the cloudless sky and scowled. Something in him told him that he was going to have a bad day, and that feeling was usually right. Sighing, he shoved his hands in his pockets and continued his short walk to the military base where he worked. It would only be a few minutes before he arrived at the gate, where the guards would smile and bow in greeting him. Though he never wore the blue military issued uniform, he was never turned away from the gate of any military facility. Everyone knew of the famous Fullmetal Alchemist who helped to save the country years ago.

Smiling in returned, he passed the guards and continued up the walkway to the front doors. Before heading through the doors, he glanced to the side of the building only to find that the general was standing outside the building staring up at the sky. For a moment he debated whether he should just ignore his commanding officer standing outside or to go over to him and question why he was outside. Debating wasn't really his strong point, even if was with just himself. After a few moments, he retreated back down the stairs and made his way over to the general. When he reached him, the general didn't stir from his standing spot. Ed watched for a while as the man continued to stare at the sky oblivious to his presence.

Then he turned himself and looked up at the sky. The clouds were beginning to roll in as the day was continuing on. In the distance he could hear a pair of birds chirping their happy little morning song as well as the few cars that drove by. With his hands shoved in his pockets, he glanced one more time at the general that stood to his right.

"Your shift starts soon, Fullmetal, you'll be late," the general said without taking his eyes off of the sky.

Ed knew he was right and that he should leave to go to the office so that Hawkeye wouldn't want to shoot his head off but for some reason he didn't feel like moving. He just shook his head and turned back to the sky.

"No can do, sir," he replied, having long since learning that it was best to respect his superiors rather than yell and scream at them. "I believe that you would be late as well if you do not get inside and I don't think staring at the sky is a valid reason for being late."

"Good point," he heard the general comment with a chuckle. "Shall we grace the office with our presence?"

Ed watched as the general passed him and began to head inside the building. After a moment, he turned to do the same. Now he definitely knew that his day was going to be bad, showing up late was bad enough but showing up right behind the general who seemed to be in a strange mood couldn't be any better. Sighing, he just followed with his hands shoved in his pockets and his eyes on the general's back. He politely greeted the lower officers that nodded to him and said their good mornings as they passed, one of his most hated tasks of being a Colonel, that and the fact that he seemed to get more and more paperwork everyday rather than missions to go out and fight.

Seeming to be lost in his thoughts, Ed bumped into the general when he suddenly stopped in the hallway. Stepping back, he shook his head and moved around to the front of the general to see what had stopped him. Leaning against the wall beside the door of their office was Riza with a less than pleased look on her face. He looked up at the general and found that he didn't look so good.

"You both are late," she began as she pushed herself from the wall. "General, the Furher is waiting inside your office to talk to you and Colonel, there is paperwork waiting to be read and signed."

Ed grinned a bit before walking passed her and entered the office area.

"Sir," she said, interrupting the general's advance into the office. "Have you noticed that something seems to be off with the Colonel?"

"I'm sure everything is fine, Lieutenant," he replied without hesitating before entering the office then into his own.

When Riza entered the office, she saw that everyone was quietly working and that Ed seemed to be doing the same with his own work. Sighing, she sat down at her own desk to continue with hers.

Hours seemed to pass without a word being spoken in the room, a rarity for the office with the gun-toting Lieutenant and the flirty Havoc. Ed laid his pen down on the desk and glanced at the clock. 11:28. Yawning, he stretched in his chair and stood up from his desk. The chair making a loud screech against the wood flooring as the feet dragged along when he pushed back. Sounds of pens scratching against paper, of people breathing and taping their pens against the desk filled the air of the room. It wasn't that he didn't mind the silence but it was beginning to wear on him and he needed to get somewhere where there was noise even if it was for just a moment.

"Lieutenant," he said, approaching her desk. "I am going to the lunch hall if anyone needs me."

"Of course, sir," she said with a smile before watching him head out of the room.

The walk to the lunch hall seemed to take forever as he stared at the floor while walking. The situation that occurred this morning seemed to be the only thing that was running through his head. There was a distant look on the general's face when he was outside staring at the sky. Ed noticed that his skin seemed to be a bit paler than usual, not that he was one to notice how someone's skin was. In his voice, Ed heard the sound of something far away as if he was talking from miles away to him. He just couldn't put his finger on why he was just thinking of the morning's events. The general was acting weird, along with the entire office. Quiet wasn't the norm in the office where he worked and frankly, it was getting on his nerves. He knew that everyone was worried about him and his well-being ever since Al and Winry married.

They were there for everything when he returned from the other side of the gate. It wasn't like he didn't trust any of them to help with what he was going through. He just didn't know himself, what he wanted or what would make him happy. However, the look on the general's face seemed to worry him much more than his own empty feeling seemed to. Sighing, he entered the lunch hall only to find that it was very quiet as well.

"What the hell is wrong with everything?" Ed asked no one in particular, seeing how no one was in the lunch hall. It was just half-passed eleven; it was never this empty before. Unless, he thought, everything was beginning to reflect the feeling in his heart. "Ugh!"

Turning around, he began to wander the halls of Central, in search of somewhere loud to take a break. He knew he told Hawkeye he would be in the lunch hall, but what could it hurt to just go wandering around. After about fifteen minutes of useless searching, Ed began his journey back to the office to sit in the quiet again and work on paperwork. Joy. Again his mind shifted back to his morning. He remembered the sounds of the birds and the cars passing by and the voice. His voice. Why did it seem like he couldn't get the general's voice out of his head? There wasn't anything special about the general compared to his other coworkers/friends. Running a hand through his hair, he tried to think of other things that would hopefully occupy his mind instead of the general.

When he reached the office, the door was hung open only slightly. Raising an eyebrow, he snuck over to the door to peek inside. Why am I sneaking? He asked himself but shrugged it off and continued to do so. From the distance the door open, he could only see right around the door to the general's office but that seemed to be the perfect spot to see what was going on inside. He could see Hawkeye standing with her back to the general's office and flushed look on her face. Smirking, he tried his best to see if it was Havoc trying his best to flirt with her again. Though, it surprised him to see who it was in fact she was looking at with that look in her eyes.

His eyes grew large with surprise and something else as well. He could feel his chest beginning to tighten as he was the general reach his hand up to take Hawkeye's cheek into his hand. Ed knew what was going to happen but he was shocked into place. For some reason, he couldn't look away. His feet wouldn't move from their spot on the floor and he couldn't get his eyes to close and look away.

"General," he heard her whisper, though it didn't sound like she wanted him to stop what he was doing.

"Please, Riza, call me Roy."

That seemed to be what hit the nail on the head. Ed fell back away from the door, his breath seeming to come back to him in a quick rush. He could hear the people in the room shuffling toward the door but when the door was opened, he was gone. As he ran away from the office, knowing that he would return with the state he was in know, questions would be flying in his direction. Not including the fact that he probably wouldn't be able to face the general and the lieutenant at the moment anyway. With his heart pounding and his chest tightening, he found himself kneeling beneath the tree that he was at the morning before. Hitting the ground, he tried to calm his heart and tried to breath. He could feel his eyes getting watery as he begged himself not to cry. He didn't want to cry when he didn't know what was going on his head.

"What the hell is wrong with me?"

TBC....

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