She sat there in the café, lost in thought. Soujirou watched her, noticing she wasn't paying much attention to anything he was saying, which was unlike her. Yuuki usually normally would hang on every word when they had their weekly meeting on Wednesdays at a café. What could be causing her to be this unfocused? He was worried, though he would never show it, fearing of giving her false hope. He would never allow her to become one of his girls.
She had become of his closest friends. They were 21, and for a year now they have been able to have a relationship that didn't suffer from her intrusions due to her little crush. She didn't bother him as much with her calls. She still texted him a lot, sometimes the conversation initiated by him, but she never texted as much as they had. He enjoyed the time he spent with her, and would not trade it for the world and would not ruin it with taking her for one night, treating her like every other girl her is with.
Yuuki liked the relationship where it was as well. But she, in her thoughts, she was coming to terms with the fact that all good things must come to an end sometime. And that time was approaching soon for them, though soujirou, nor anyone else knew it, and she planned to keep it that way. She was leaving for Hokkaido to reinvent herself. She felt broken, and she wanted to be alive again. She loved Soujirou so much, and every conquest, every girl she saw him with, that he told her about, destroyed her inside and made her more insecure every time. She wanted to fill this emptiness.
Soujirou continued to look at her, wondering what was going on through her head. After about 8 minutes, she finally looked up at him.
"Soujirou, can I ask you a question?"
He looked at her strangely, but nodded his head.
"What does it feel like? Having all those girls? A continuous supply to last you forever?" She looked at him with detached eyes, an emptiness he'd never seen in her eyes. "I mean, why do you do it?"
The question caught him off guard. "Yuuki, why are you asking such things?" There was a meaning behind these words that he was sure she noticed 'You are not possibly asking to be one are you?'
She looked at him for a moment and said in a confident tone "I'm not asking because I want to be one. I just want to understand you a little better."
He was thrown for a loop at her words. "Okay…." He sat quietly, staring at her. Trying to figure her out.
She did want to understand. She wanted to know how it felt. She wanted to understand if her plans for Hokkaido were going to work out.
She sighed in exasperation. "Would you just answer me." She sounded annoyed, and looked it too.
He gave in. "I do it because…well…. I feel as if there is an emptiness in me. With every girl, for those few moments I don't feel it. Not like its gone, but I'm able to ignore it with the more girls there are. The more there are, the more time they take."
Yuuki looked off into space again for a minute. Soujirou could tell she was deep in thought for a moment. Then she snapped out of it quickly and looked at her cell. Her eyes widened. "Is that the time?" She said in a panicky voice. "I'm sorry soujirou, I have to go." She got up and he followed suit.
"Now? But we haven't had much time to talk." He knew he sounded like a child, but he couldn't help himself. They had only been there for not even half an hour and all they had talked about was him and his…girlfriends…and he didn't even get a chance to know why.
"I'm sorry!" She apologized again. She gave him a thoughtful look. "Good-bye!" She said and ran out the door before he could offer her a ride. He sighed. Something was bothering him: her good-bye. He had never heard her say such a definitive good-bye. Like she was leaving for good or something…nah. He laughed to himself. I'm pretty sure she would have informed us of that.
Little did Soujirou know, that was Yuuki's plan. She was running late and she feared if she didn't hurry up, she would miss her plane to Hokkaido, leaving behind everything and everyone for the new life she planned to live for herself to fill her empty void. The life of having many lovers to fill the void in her heart. Just like Soujirou. She thought to herself with a solemn smile.